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Stop Running Yourself Down!

We can disect ourselfs to the point of nothingness!

Learning to put the puzzle of my personhood back together!

Body positivity is one of many things I struggle with. I have been endeavoiring to learn that my body is what I am in and accepting every facet of it. This can be a hard pill to swallow! Especially when you have spent many years running yourself down like I have!

I have allowed so much of the opinions of others, the world, and society as a whole to tell me I am not good enough of a woman cause I don’t meet a certain criteria!

One day I was talking to a friend of mine which I happen to admire her councel and wisdom so very much, I happened to mention I wished I was skinny and tan! She said to me so lovingly to not want that, but to embrace the woman that I am, while yes working on myself!

In that moment I stopped and was on complete awe of the words she spoke. They have been said to me before granted, but some how this time it hit my soul differently! It came in a time when I have been pressing into establishing within my internal foundation some key fundamental truths that I need to have that I missed growing up.

Its only been as of recent that pressing into accepting myself wholly is beginning to bring small degrees of healing. The pieces of myself that I constantly want to change are being embraced back into my personhood as a whole.

It’s as if I was humpty dumpty broken and could not get put back together again until a level if healing had come. The lines of the puzzle are become less and less evident and becoming less visible to my critical eye. This is all healing to accept my individuality!

Cynthia

~Beauty for Ashes

End of the Road

What to do when you reach the end?

Often times in this life we hit endings! I would hit endings and be completley devistated!

Why you ask?

Well…

For many reason. Some being unmet expectations, things done on my own without consulting God about it, or wounds within my soul that sought out validation from sources that had no capacity to fulfill them!

These endings have saved me from a deeper life of pain than I could have felt had I gotten my way in life!

Relationships that didnt workout, churches that didnt work out, jobs that didnt work out! All of the path that I have been on has lead me here to where I am at currently today!

Life lessons have to be learned and often times, well more often than not in my case I took the lesson and blew it way out of proportion.

What I needed to learn was simple!

What I needed to grow in was simple!

What I needed to then walk in was simple!

But how I have done the understanding of these things is, take them as far out of context as I could and made mountains out of mole hills!

Coming to the end of the road is this….

A dead end…

What has to happen at the end of a dead end?

You have to go back up that path, see what you didn’t see before, take the lesson with you, and get back on your predestined path!

Endings aren’t always fun or enjoyable, but they can be incredible times of growth and rediscovery! How we view the ending is up to our perception! It is based on whats in our soul.

Your soul may need healing like mine still does and will continue to need! Seek help for what is goin on in your head and heart! Investing in a therapist has been the greatest way to love myself and get the help I need!

To that I say Happy Endings to this blog 🙂

Thank you for reading!

Cynthia

👣TAKE THE STEP! 👣

What happens when we step out in faith?

Fear often holds us back from taking steps of faith. I can attest to this more often then not honestly. Fear of what others think, what would they say about me, what will my image be in this?

Fear keeps us in a place of no movement. We become so fixated by fear we are paralyzed to the point that if one move is rationalized then a hoard of fear rises us to speak defeat. They rise up so strong and so loud within we crumble under them.

And He said, “Come!” And Peter got out of the boat, and walked on the water and came toward Jesus.
Matthew 14:29 NASB

Overcoming fear allows you the freedom and confidence to begin to take steps out of the norm and do new things God has been calling you to all along. God has been waiting for steps to be taken by you or I to show to him utter dependance and trust in He who is our everything.

The first step is the hardest to take but the most liberating. God didn’t hive us a spirit of fear ( 2 Tim 1:7). God wants us to be confident children in who we are in Him we were predestined as His children (Eph 1:5) and Gods children should be free from fear as fear is of the world and not the kingdom of God.

Take baby steps til your confident to take bigger steps in faith. The steps you take draw you from the boat of normality and into the place where God can begin to do supernatural things in and through your life.

Fear is a liar and of the enemy!

Learn to rise above the lies!

Learn of your position in the kingdom!

Seek councel and wisdom from others who can help you properly.

Find community of like believers to plug into and connect with for accountability.

Be encouraged today that no fear has a place in Gods children and He has out in is the power to overcome.

~Cynthia 😍

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Relationship Status

Don’t give up on hope that the right one will come along!

Many times as a Single person we can get discouraged seeing others pairing off, getting to go on dates, getting engaged, getting married while we may still be waiting for someone to come into our life.

We are bombarded with questions at times by folks asking especially around the holidays:

Don’t you want to be married?

Don’t you want to have a family?

Why are you single?

The list can go on and on!

These things can become depressing if dwelled on in relation to feelings of hopelessness. But, I have to say and encourage you to not give up. There are times that will come that you will feel like throwing in the towel of hoping and believing for that to happen.

but just as it is written, ” Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard , And which have not entered the heart of man , All that God has prepared for those who love Him .”
1 Corinthians 2:9 NASB

In the time of waiting spend it getting to know yourself. Grow in areas that need maturing or need more adult mindset in. Grow in who you are as a woman or man.

For me as a woman of Faith in God I want to grow in who God says I am, who I can be, and who I can grow to be. Many times we think we are ready for something but God knows our character may not be just there to handle it.

Had I been involved in a relationship while growing in some of the things I needed to develop in, I probably would have destroyed the thing, just being honest.

Becoming secure in who we are as a person is vital also I have been finding. Because if our worth, image and confindence is given to anyone or anything outside of God, when its gone we become devistated, well thats how it was in my case.

Don’t just hook up with people to say your in a relatiomship. Wait for the proper time when its not out of desperation but out of complementation.

When they come to complement your life. The hook ups with wrong people in wrong times are distractions and can even pull you away from God given destinies. When its right it will be evident as there won’t pressure, haste, anxiousness, but a peace as it will be of God and not what we could devise in and of our own self.

Be discovered for having a beautiful mind, and quiet and gentle spirit, fully knowing your worth based on who you are in Christ, accepting your baggage you come with, in knowing your working and growing to overcome them, be healed, delivered and whole in Christ.

Then the Lord answered me and said, “Record the vision And inscribe it on tablets, That the one who reads it may run. “For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay.
Habakkuk 2:2‭-‬3 NASB

Make sure you have a great support system. The fellowship of like minds can help keep you on course, be there in times of weakness ehen you need to talk things out and pray you through difficult times. The time will come if its a desire placed in your heart by God. The vision has an appointed time though it may delay it will come and be on time meaning His time!

Don’t Give Up Hope!

~Cynthia 😍

Waiting

Answers will come at times from the opposite direction.

What happens when we get so fixated for God to move in certain ways. God never acts or does the same thing in the same way even in the word of God. How many times in the word of God was a blind man healed? Not one of them was healed in the same way he healed the other.

Humans we are creatures of habit. Well some of us anyway, ok I know I can be. We see God used a certain person to bless us or help be an answer to a prayer, or something mysterious happens for our good and we begin to think/assume that well, God moved this way before He will move that way again. That isn’t how God operates.

To have utter and complete trust in Him we have to remain in faith, keep hope alive, and rest in what He said He would do. Our job is trust, believe and work on ourself. We have to have a unmovable, unshakeable belief that God will gome through for is in whatever way we need, we need not fixate on how, who, when and where so much as to just be open to receive it from the direction it comes in.

In these lay a multitude of those who were sick, blind, lame, and withered, [waiting for the moving of the waters; for an angel of the Lord went down at certain seasons into the pool and stirred up the water; whoever then first, after the stirring up of the water, stepped in was made well from whatever disease with which he was afflicted.] A man was there who had been ill for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he had already been a long time in that condition, He said to him, “Do you wish to get well?” The sick man answered Him, “Sir, I have no man to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up, but while I am coming, another steps down before me.” Jesus said to him, “Get up, pick up your pallet and walk.” Immediately the man became well, and picked up his pallet and began to walk. Now it was the Sabbath on that day. John 5:3‭-‬9 NASB

In the scripture passage here above we see an example of this. The man knew that the angel would come and stir the waters and he would be healed, of course there are other things I could talk about in relation to this but for now I want to keep focused on He looked to an angel of God coming to stir the waters only to get his healing. Had he not been open to receive the blessing of healing when He shifted his view to Jesus, he may have missed it all together.

He could have been so fixated that the angel stirring the waters was His only way to be healed that He would have missed the greatest opportunity in his lifetime. Don’t we get like that at times? I know I have! When he shifted his focus to Jesus at the question He posed to him by Jesus “do you wish to be well?” and what Jesus was saying the man opened himself up that his blessing could come from a different direction then he had thought the last 38-years of his life.

The man did verbally rationalize with Jesus about how he could be healed, but Jesus knowing the man been long time in that condition saw He longed to be healed of his affliction. He still in his heart opened up to Jesus that healing could come a different way. How many times had the name of Jesus come up in discussions by the pool of water. With the news spreading far about the miracles Jesus was doing I am sure that the man by the pool side had some knowing that miracles were taking place by the man named Jesus.

Shift our focus to God by trusting in Him. This also is seeking Him and His kingdom first. When we look to Him in genuine relationship He knows the intentions of our heart. He knows our thoughts, our cares, concerns, worries, etc. But, He wants to know that we fully rely on Him for everything. Seek His face, worship and praise Him! Resting in His faithfulness while doing what we know to do until answers come.

Waiting Is Hard – Leibester Award

Allowing your soul to enter a space of wait is difficult.

So many in this day and age and yes I include myself in this find it easy to get caught up in everything. We see people doing things we wanted to do, having things we want to have, etc. This over time if not handled properly can create idolitry, causes comparison, leads to self-works. Can cause strife, bitterness, pride and many other things.

I wait for the Lord , my soul doth wait, and in his word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 KJV

Doing things in self-work eventually wears you down. Cause if it is outside the will of God for your life you will find a constant depletion of energy. Working and doing things within Gods will, will still be work, just not exhaustive work. Many times we know we are operating outside his will as we have no peace thus causing exhaustion. We entertain worry, doubt, fear of losing what we worked to get

Allowing God to do things on His time will save you peace and energy. Gods time is outside of our time. Thats why many times we get caught up in the notion God isn’t working or moving I got to do it all myself. He is at work, He is moving, perhaps not in the way hoped. He wants to develop character, integrity, fruit, prudence in your life before bringing things waited for.

Allowing waiting to be a time of preparation shifts focus from what you don’t have to what can I grow and develop in, in my here and now. In states of self-work we are consumed with obtaining what we waited for so much it can blind us to things we need to see that could be hurt down the road. When our focus shifts blinders come off and then we can see the real deal of reality.

We have to allow waiting to be seen in our mind as a preparation time and not as a punishment. Believe me having that kind of mindset keeps you in a defeated place. Grow in womanhood or manhood. Grow in God dive into His word and study it out. Be part of a church that leads you to growth in spirit, soul and body (1 Thess 5:23). Learn to take charge of your mind and shift it by renewal (Romans 12:1-2 & Eph 4:23). Having the right Pastor, Spiritual mother and father makes a huge difference. I know I am thankful for mine.

They know there are things I am waiting on God to bring and do in my life. They pour into me to help me get renewed to shift my mind back if I gone astray and its causing character defects. I will keep waiting patiently, all the while growing, developing and praying until doors open. This keeps me in a place of operating in faith with works.

I pray this encourages anyone waiting for things to happen in their life.

For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.
Habakkuk 2:3 KJV

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Leibester Award

Many gracious thanks to Laura M Bailey of All The Shoes I Wear for this nomination and sharing my blog space with your followers. Be sure to visit her blog 🙂

RULES

Acknowledge the blogger that gave it to you and display the award

Answer 11 questions that the blogger gave you.

Nominate 5 other bloggers and notify them of their nomination

“This award is meant to encourage new bloggers. From The Global Aussie: “The earliest case of the award goes as far back as 2011. Liebster in German means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome.”

To my Nominees, choose any or all the question above OR you may instead, list 11 random facts about yourself.

My Random 11 Facts

  1. I am part of a wonderful church family at Reformation Developmental Center in Tarboro, NC. Pastored by the amazing Juanita Gibbs of whom is a Pastor, Blogger, Life Coach, Author and Professor, Inspiritation to many on many ways. She has helped culivate my writing, ordained me as a youth teacher and has helped uncover gifts, talents and abilities within me.
  2. I love being a youth teacher to my lil joys and developing lesson and plans to bring the word of God to them on their level
  3. I enjoy writing and studying the word.
  4. I will be an author one day.
  5. I enjoy a cup of coffee
  6. I love Lush Cosmetics for their Sleepy lotion and bath bombs
  7. I love doing administrative works
  8. I enjoy encouraging people
  9. I love Mexican food
  10. I want to travel to many foreign destinations.
  11. Photography I love

My Nominees Are…..

Kelleydiy

Kathleenriley777

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Queenie

Laci, McGee Travel Tales