Life of an ambivert!
Was listening to an old song from the 90s by Brandy (I think) she sang “Don’t take it personal when I wanna be all alone.” I can so so so relate to her statement but not fully in how she referenced it in her song.
Life as an ambivert can be a struggle. An ambivert is basically a person that is an introvert with extrovert tendancies. I have been very much an ambivert a good portion of life. The struggle can be 2 fold I have found for my life.
When I am in my extrovert modes I can be the energizer bunny and go, go, go. But when I hit times of introvert some people think there is something wrong with me. Heck they think something is wrong with me when I am on the go alot also.
Its being both introvert and extrovert that most dont understand my outgoing tendancies or inward tendancies. This is why I say being an Ambivert has its struggles.
When I hit my extrovert times I like for people to roll with me, to go experiance the fun of life and just being. But often times I am turn down as they have a life to live of their own or its just inconvenient. I used to work my extrovert times around others to be able to do some adventurous things. This eventually came to a stop as the more complex my life became, orchestrating adventures wasn’t so simple anymore.
So this began to filter over into my introvert modes. Since others werent available I would roll on and do things on my own and have time to just be and recharge and take my time to just live. So many have asked me why do I go do things alone. I have no real answer for them other than people have a life of their own and cannot roll with me.
I dont say any of this for pity, please dont think this is why I am saying this. This is just my view of being an ambivert so that if you have someone in your life like this maybe help you understand them better.
Ambiverts love to have times around people and having fun, but then they need times alone to recharge, gather themselves, recapture who they are. This may only be my case so this is just my view of it.
In my current state I do my best to make the best of times with others and when I am alone I make the most of it. Life is to be enjoyed. Live it to the fullest either in a crowd or alone. It has become most enjoyable by doing so.
Light and Dark collide within the life of an ambivert.