Being moveable in faith isn’t really faith living.
It’s sad to say but very true that my faith hasn’t been super firm and immovable.
In fact, I have been very moved in and out of faith often. Its nothing about God and what He has offered in having a faith life. The issue lays deep within my troubled soul.
Situations or circumstances that would arise that may have thr onset of being more difficult than the last situation or circumstance would move me right out of faith and into essentially a time of doubt, fear, worry and anxiety.
Some how the “ideal” that once I became a believer that I would suddenlt be immune to hardships. They had no place to come at the doorstep of a believer in Jesus Christ.
Was that ever so much NOT the truth.
Being a believer didn’t make me immune or off the hardship list so to speak. It actually says in the word of God that the just and unjust will have it rain on them equally. Believer or not, trouble will come.
But, because I am a believer it is my hope in Christ strengthening me and being at my side in either form of a earthly vessel of His choosing to be at my side or by the comfort of His Holy Spirit.
I have to constantly keep renewing my mind (Romans 12:2) to pull from the strenght provided from the truth of his word. The more I do that it has begun to effect my mind into the deepest most resesses of it (Ephes 4:23) that run continually to reprogram what has been in there for too long and produced no good fruit whatsoever.
Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from Your presence And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation And sustain me with a willing spirit.
Psalms 51:10-12 NASB
When the hardships would come I would get a myriad of emotions. Like anger, fear, frustrarion, depression, and many more that it would keep me from getting into Gods presence. I wasn’t casting my cares on the Lord (1Peter 5:7) as I should have been cause I allowed those emotions to dwell and brew in my mind to the point of paralyzation. Once that happened my mind engaged reasoni g and logically looking at every angle amd every possible senario to attemlt to figure it out some how.
How did I get into this?
How can I get out of this?
What can I do different to keep this from happening again?
My mind and emotions was having a hayday!
Where was God?
Gentley whispering to me he loves me, cares for me, wants me to lean and trust in what he is doing!
Could I hear Gods whisper in the noise and chaos that I had going on?
I have to determine myself to get more steadfast in His word and im the truth! Keep renewed in mind so as to purify my heart. Whereas, His presence can more richly dwell with me and restore to me joy that only He can provide. The joy of the Lord is my strength, but Joy comes from knowing His word deeply and in delicate relationship with the Holy spirit.
(Blog inspired by sermons and teachings from my Pastor Juanita Gibbs, who has encouraged me to blog and write and she is a constant inspiration in my life.)