My spirit guide is the Holy Spirit!
When the deep voids scream out from within that need a filling of some kind I have resorted to other things to bring comfort or consolation of some sort to the depths that longed for what it has not known.
The depths of lack deep with my soul on occasion cause havoc in my life, its so bad and so deep I often times am not aware of it until its way too late and the emotions and logic have had a hayday.
You know it makes sense now when folks have told me I am senstive and take too much to heart. Cause now I see it is in fact true. When I get in my head it runs off to a far off distant land of make believe where everyone is against me. Some fairy tale right? NOT! But that is my reality, sadly to say.
Let me hear Your lovingkindness in the morning; For I trust in You; Teach me the way in which I should walk; For to You I lift up my soul. Deliver me, O Lord , from my enemies; I take refuge in You. Teach me to do Your will, For You are my God; Let Your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For the sake of Your name, O Lord , revive me. In Your righteousness bring my soul out of trouble.
Psalms 143:8-11 NASB
I have to work to shut down that part of my soul leading my life so strongly that it has caused so much disaster in any personal connection that then I make myself feel victimized when I was and am the culprit for instigating the separation.
I need to allow the loving words of the Father to infiltrate my soul through putting more of it into my spirit. This is gonna take work on my part. But, I know the depths my soul need to know the Father’s love. The dark night of the soul where things die off is hard, ugly, painful, almost to the point of death.
But to know the Fathers love is to allow the Holy spirit to lead me to what I need in this time to do better, get some healing, get some deliverance, make some changes in what has presented itself that is troubling in my life.
God can bring me out of the troubledness of soul in layers and I am gonna have to trust him for that. I need more of the truth to replace what has been within me of my oen logic and reasoning through wounds and damaged emotions for so long that has raised itself up against the truth.
I have work to do, but I will hold onto God is with me, He hasn’t forsaken me and has good plans for my life and these issues that are coming up need to be dealt with. Cause if unchecked the trajectory of my life could have a whole other path. To remain in His will and way submission to what I need to do is called for.