No way?!?! Is it really?!?!

The final month of 2017! December already?!?! Where did the year go?

Well, this is the close out month of the year!

Let’s take it and walk the final section of this chapter toward greater things. Beginning to shake off and leave what needs to be left behind.

This year has been a year of unveiling, discovery, healing, adventure and so much more to come. In years past as this month would cycle around I would be seemingly be creating the tone gor the coming year with depressive tones of well nothing has changed so it continues to a spurn on more negativity, doubt, worry, and fears.

Where as this year, granted nothing has changed in some things. But, its all prepartory and purpose minded. Gods thoughts are higher than my thoughts, as well as, His ways are higher than mine. As I meditate on that thought the things I use to let come in like a flood seem at bay in the present moment, as if the flow is temporarily restrained.

As my pastor has been teaching us at my home church of Reformation Developmental Center that the more word I implant inside my heart and mind the more the old has to go. The more the old goes and the new come I cam begin to be healed in my soul.

This coming year of 2018 I am believing for greater things than I ever have before using actual faith. Pastor posted not long ago to dream big. So I pulled out a book I started back in early 2016 and added some things I am believing God to produce in my life. She also taught us that faith without works is dead, as well as work without faith is dead.

So in the coming month I am hoping that I can practice using the tools that my Pastor has beem teaching me to continue to overcome somethings. The work is mine to do as we are already graced to do the work. Its just now time to roll up the sleeves and get dirty with removing the old and implanting the new.

December may you be a propulion month that helps be a catapulted to take me to the next place by faith in the coming time to be.

~Love Life~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Collection of Photos

Just a few of my favorite pics over the years…

Niagra Falls as I was flying into Toronto, On airport

Heart cloud at the beach

Sunset in NC in 2015

Local spot in 2015

Walking one day

Worlds longest covered bridge in Canada

When in Canada Tim Hortons coffee is a MUST!

Local Canadian food – poutine

Flying above the clouds

I love that life is an adventure!

~Love Life ~Live Life ~ 😍

~Cynthia

Take My Hand

Your only alone if you view your life as such!

Being a single I had battled for the longest time of being alone, remaining alone, ending up alone.

But the truth was and has remained I am never alone! Alone is just a feeling a feeling that is contrary to truth. When I am feel alone I can call out to the one close to me and that may be God at the moment or may be even my leader that loves and cares what we are going through and shows unending compassion for what we face.

When our feelings tell us we are alone we must find out why that feeling came up. Is it showing me some lack from my childhood, does it reveal an inner issue of lust, does it reveal a void that we try to fill with everything but God. It could be any of these things and more.

Its a work to feel the feeling, discover why and then begin to work to discharge the feeling and renew to a place where perspective can change. Reality can begin to be real and allow God, a leader, a Godly friend that exercises wisdom to come and take our hand in life, in the trial, in the battle to show you that your not as alone as you thought you were.

Well, that is how God has been working within me about it. In prior posts I have mention where I made Men idols and put them in my voids to replace God, but when God removed them it showed me where I was really at. That was in very desperate need of the God love to fill me up in my soul that no man could fill as humanity has limits without the power of God working inside the person.

Life knowing that I am not alone, will not end up alone has become such a lifted weight that enjoying life is well a joy. I am able to be content where I am knowing that with God and my God given leaders I am surely not alone.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Foundational Relationships

God given bonds of connection make the world of difference in a life!

All it takes is one God given person to change the entire outlook. All it takes is one to help heal wounds from broken relationships of the past. All it takes is one being used and filled with the Holy spirit that is able to walk unconditionally with you to encourage you on to the next phase.

Have I or am I that friend?

No not yet, but I am striving toward such as things become aware to me that need to grow or develop in.

Is it easy? It can be by not overthinking, stressing or getting all anxious which only causes paralyzation of oneself.

Depending on many factors its within us only that we make changes easy or hard. Pastor taught us sunday in a section of time about “be still” (Psalm 46:10). Beautifully ellaborated we are to be still in our inner processes of thinking. Not being still in the natural as in unmoving. No!

Her teaching and her leadership of me has been that one connection/relationship that I needed in my lofe to begin to turn my life around, grow out of things to begin to mature and able to handle better what life throws out at us and what we get from choices we make.

When someone takes set apart time to pour into you truth, wisdom and be loving and accepting of you then that is a treasured gift that only God could give.

Do you have someone like that in your life?

If not pray to God he send you someone. If you do thank God for what He gave you and ask Him like I am doing to help you to be a better friend in turn. Relationships/Friendships/Godly connectiond help us enjoy life.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

What is it all about?

Relationship with God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit.

In my time of singleness I has given me opportunity to develop my relationship with God. Singleness is a distraction free time. Its a time where if you want you can fast all day or read the word all day. Worship and praise Him all day or Pray all day. A time in which you don’t have to have just delegated time with him, which we should that on occasion as work and life calls and makes demands. But we can spend time the more communicating with him. Letting Him build us up. Letting Him love on you. Letting Him send those who have his love in him to walk along side you in great Godly bonds of fellowship. We are not to dispise the days of small beginnings. The small beginning may be in the time of singleness to learn how to have a relationship with God as that is the solid foundation to any relationship (friendship, marriage, etc). As we grow in our love and connection to him he grows and expands our love to church family and those that we see that we encounter that need to know the love of God through us. I have great people around me and a great leader before me as my Pastor who loves us with Agape love. God uses people to show his love to us as she teaches me. The love I am getting now in my season of singleness is helping bring healing to unnourished places in the soul from childhood things. So, what is it all about? Building the relationship with Him in a deep and intimate way to commune with him, know him deeply to lead you, guide you, love you and yoi can trust in what He is and does and can be then its very much worth it all. ~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍 ~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Waiting Power

There is power found in waiting which brings about growth!

There is one things to say that when your single and you desire a relationship that God will test your heart and find out where He stand with you all the while still promising things unseen.

Well He has with me anyway. Just like the children of Isreal when he took them from bondage of slavery to the egyptians and into the wilderness. He said to them worship me the one true God who removed you from captivity and is taking you to a land flowing with milk and honey.

What happens next after they were saved by God and given the promise, the test. Where they will gonna worship God for all he had just done or worship the promise. He put them in the wilderness to find they worshipped the promise of land with milk and honey over him so they grumbled and complained. An eleven day journey took 40 years.

Its the same way today with some of us, but I will focus on myself mainly. I was saved by grace given new spiritual life, I was saved by mercy and given new life in the natural, he set me free and gave promise and now in the wilderness I have seen where I worshipped the promise over the God who saved me. He has(is) tested(ing) my heart.

I have added on time to my journey by not being patient and going by what the world says over allowing my process to happen. The wilderness reveals who we really are my Pastor just brought out to us not long ago.

And boy oh boy my wilderness has showed me that I have got perspective in error. My perspective was worship Gods hand and the promise.

I am after all a child of God right and He will come through for me! That statement is loaded with pride as if God owed me something when in reality I owe God my life and service.

The power in my waiting is allowing my process to happen, growing me in areas that need to be developed in before the promise. To cause my spiritual walk to be stronger, my soul to not rule my every move but be under subjection to the word of God. To understand God wants me to keep him first in my life and to love him with all of myself as he loves me so eternally and uncondtionally.

The power of my wait is not attaining the promise but to be the best woman of God for Him and His glory until such time He sends someone to walk the journey of faith with me. There is fullness and completeness in God that satisfies like nothing else so even if the promise doesn’t come I have a great and perfect love with God and Jesus and the Holy spirit.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Single and Happy

There is a time and season for all things!

It is widely popular now that if your not with someone then there has to be something wrong with you.

Is there something wrong with me?

I am single and have been a very long time!

Does that make my humanity any less than someone involved with someone?

The world and times would say yes there is something wrong with me. In some cases yes the church world would also! Yes! I said it the church also!

Not to many in the area I reside have singles geared programs, teachings on how to be am effective single, being a single christian and devoting your time to God in that season.

It wasn’t until I started going to Reformation Developmental Center pastored by Juanita Gibbs where she began to open up my world to me that my time of singleness is a gift to be treasured.

I am free to serve the kingdom as much as I can without distractions. I dont have to subject my earnings to anyone else before I give to the kingdom. I don’t have to subject my body but to God in this time when I want to fast and such.

Yes, I admit being single and remaining as such has gotten me down in the past. I have allowed man made ideas, holidays and the like to tell me what I am suppose to be as a 30ish single.

But what does God say about it as His truth trumps the ideals of men. God says seek me with your whole heart. Seek me first, keep me first, surrender everything to me. That is Gods order and design.

As I mentioned in my last singles post by doing the seeking and work on my own that was my self will not Gods will. He killed every plan that was not of his plan and purposes. Thank God He did too.

My time of singleness is to work on my inner life to have my soul prosper. To correct the inner issues, to heal the inner wounds, to subject myself to the God who knows whats best for me. He proclaims His ways are higher, his thoughts are higher.

Man oh man are they ever. Had God not stepped in and stopped my plans how much heartache and pain in the long run has he saved me from and from inflicting on another.

My soul issues could and have done serious damage left unattended. I am learning slowly to love life as a single, give my all to God, serve him in my current purpose and seek him and keep him first.

God says keep humble and at the proper time exultation will come for them who remain humble. Humble left the building on me the other day and seeing it deeply grieves me. Pride genuinley comes before the fall.

When you fall, fall and look at why you fell then see why you fell and learn from it to keep from repeating it. Only the meek can inherit the earth as the earth is His and the fullness there of and having a level of pride negates the capacity of God to show himself as He knows he wont be glorified.

Humble will glorify God over self. These are just things that I am learning and discovering about myself in my time now without distractions as I am finding contentmemt and trust slowly as it comes to my relationship with God.

As I allow Him into my life he is filling me with himself and His truth to be free from old bondage, be healed from past woundings, and to live a life that glorfies him over any thing and everything I can or have done.

My Pastor who has helped me embrace my singleness and learn about myself in this time. She does also teach on the fundamentals of relationships and the dynamics of it all.

Please don’t misunderstand these posting either of a bitter or hatefilled singlehood. No this is just an enlightenment on my journey.

Every single persons journey is different. I am just expressing and showing that you can find happiness in the status that is so widely not popular to have.

~Love Life~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Transition

Moving from fear to faith!

When fear has been a resident inside my soul for so long I have to serve fear eviction papers. It didn’t like getting served… no way!

Fear begins to scream out:

  • This is your comfort place look how its kept you!
  • I can keep you from hurting!
  • This is the best place for you! Whats beyond this for someone like you?
  • Your fine like you are!
  • And more

The things fear will begin to scream out sound true initially as they are familiar. They are an established fortress of lies I have believed for far too long!

So, what has to happen and has begun to happen to begin to get me to shift from fear to faith?

Well…

I have to first know the voice of fear and anything else joined with it like doubt, worry, and anxiety. This way when they rise up within me I can identify the voice and begin to pull on faith and the word to counter attack the contents in my soul.

Am I doing a good job at this fight?

Some days Heck No! I fall right back into the old way.

Other days I have my sword in hand slicing and dicing every fear and anxious voice that comes up within.

I have to be repetitious in the battle. My Pastor she has taught us that:

“Repetition is the mother of success, if you want to succeed you have to keep doing it over and over and over again until it becomes your new normal” ~ Juanita Gibbs

When I fail at the battle I have to dust myself off see if I can locate the weakness and to why this test took me down and exercise ways to not let it get to me so bad in the next test.

Will I ever be free of fear? No!

Fear is an emotion and I have to learn to manage it. That fear management is real just like how anger management is real for some.

I can be very emotionally lead at times if I allow fear and any other emotion have its way. I can also be very logically lead by my own thoughts and analyzations…but that is a whole other subject.

I want to be able to manage the fear level within me to begin to live by faith over the fears. I have to keep the sword of the word of God that is truth to help me get there. Day by day I hope to make strides to keep turning from fear to faith.

~Love Life ~ Live Life ~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Anchors away!!

This year 2017 has been an anchoring year for me.

Since March of this year the word anchor as well as its imagery became such a reminder of the things I discovered relative to it.

It was on a trip in March that I purchased a leather bracelet that I had engraved with “Faith βš“Hope” to only go on a discovery that what I had enscribed was almost scriptural. The very next day in my timeline I saw “Hope Anchors the Soul” that resonnated with me.

In Hebrews 6:19 is where anchor is found in the word of God that just confirmed so much. I began to study anchors and their function and their symbolostic meanings. Like for example mariners use anchors as a symbol of faith as it has the appearance of a cross.

Anchors are used to keep vessels stable in turbulence or just in a place of resting to keep from going off course. This anchoring information became a way to affirm my faith and reaffirm when things go bad.

Sometimes we just need a little reminder that God is with us in the storm he is our good father and shepherd. Sometimes we have to change inwardly to be able to see even a small amout of the goodness of God. He shall supply all our need according to his riches in glory. I thank Him for all he has provided unto me so far in life.

My permanent reminder(tattoo) that change is good, especially when it is to anchor into the ultimate source of life.

~Love Life ~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia

Fear Management

Heard of anger management? Fear management is just the same its learning how to control this specific emotion!

Being a fear driven person as I have been can be a job to overcome. Going on a discovery mission to find the root causes of why such fear is felt deep within side of me.

I have blogged about some of my root issues I work to overcome, so I wont revisit them in this one, but visit my page to read about them if you like. My fruit of thoses issues has become fear. There is a quote by Franklin D. Roosevelt (FDR) that was penned “you have nothing to fear but fear itself”. So lets put that in the biblical standard when Gods word says He has NOT give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. (2 Tim 1:7)

My Pastor has been showing me that fear has power just like faith does just not in the good way. So where in lays my belief is it belief in the fear or is it belief by faith….ohhhh wow that one is heavy. That takes an examination of where in fact do we give the power to manifest through our beliefs.

Cause either the very thing I fear the most and believe will happen has been given legal power and authority by my belief to back it to manifest. Has it been so? Yes!

Where if I shed the fear I have, feel it but don’t let it rule me but see where I have an open space within that fear resides to work to replace the fear with faith. Then faith can grow as long as I feed faith with faith. My soul can begin to be healed of the fear and I learn to manage it in my life.

Fear won’t go away some fear is healthy. Like having a holy fear of God or fear when you feel in danger. The fear I am referring to is a fear that is unnatural or unfounded in a belief system.

Have I learned how to fully manage my fear? No! Each testing of my faith can reveal new levels of fear I house. So, the test shows me where I am at and how much work needs to continue to be done in my soul.

I will continue to work to grow in my soul to become stable in feeling fear by using truth from the word of God when a fear flair up happens. The word is a powerful sword to begin to divide me from deception of the world that says you need things now, yesterday, years ago, etc.

When God knows full well what I need within before I walk into something and destroy it whether it be a job, a calling on my life, a friendship/relationship, etc. He will not bless, promote, or exhault before proper time.

Thank God for His wisdom and that wisdom he place on others to help lead, guide, and direct you in this life. He placed before me a leader if great wisdom and she has imparted and taught me much that I will keep using to grow in areas to be perfect (mature) in the wisdom of God in the world today.

~Love Life~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

As children of God let us no longer be a slave to fear! Check out the song link below