Biblical Identification

Martha Faith vs. Mary Faith

I was coming into work this morning and after spending some time in prayer and worship and meditation I was driving and in my spiritual minds eye a scene played in me.

That scene was when Lazarus had died and the very two different sisters if Martha and Mary had their own greeting for Jesus when he came to them in Bethany.

Mary so full of faith took Jesus at his every word. She said for when you say my brother will rise again I believe it that whatever you say shall be. (Paraphrased)

Then as she went on knowing that Jesus would do as he daid he would she went on to call for her sister Martha to come to see the teacher and she greeted him with a scalding “Jesus had you been here my brother Lazarus would not be dead” (paraphrase).

Martha so deeply saddend at the death of her brother mounrd as well as the weepers around. Which moved on Jesus as Lazaurus was his friend and “Jesus wept”.

Jesus told Martha:

Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me will live even if he dies, Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?”
John 11:25‭, ‬40 NASB

Martha had to have more reinforcement from Jesus as if to prove to her that He would do what He said he would do.

I can so relate to Martha on many levels and at different times she is mentioned in scripture. But in this case the more as Jesus by the Holy Spirit has been using my leaders to tell me the same message as if to finally get me to trust His word.

Now I know for myself my issue stems from broken trust from people. But, when will I finally disconnect Gods from mere humanity? In the last few days with undergoing a program by my Pastor Juanita Gibbs to 40 day detox from negativity has begun to aide my trusting in God.

Its a work and truthfully its only 3 days into it but I am fully committed to bring the inner changes I need in my soul. These first 3 days are beginning to heal my trust issues with God. But, to also learn to be patient while God does a work in my life.

The Holy Spirit has said through my leaders allow patiencr to have her perfect work. Trust God that he will come through as there is a time and season for all things and this season is to plant me by the stream of the living waters to grow and flourish and in time a harvest will come.

I need to get so deeply rooted by the streams of living water that I will flourish in season and out of season. That is when the glory of the Lord can be fully manifested in my life the more as the empowerment comes by His spirit as I send my roots out deep to have His spirit flow through my spirit. This is how pastor says I live more by the spirit.

I may have been a Martha in my faith for a good portion of my faith life these last 11 years since I wasnt raised in church as a kid, but even as a kid in the faith it is time to take off the Martha faith and put on the Mary faith!

Faith can be transformed as I allow the process God wants me to ealk through mold and shape my life! In time it will be a transformed faith testimony I will have! Its begun by the wonderful 40-day program that Pastor started and I look forward to my faith coming up and not going back to what it has been!

Transition

Moving from fear to faith!

When fear has been a resident inside my soul for so long I have to serve fear eviction papers. It didn’t like getting served… no way!

Fear begins to scream out:

  • This is your comfort place look how its kept you!
  • I can keep you from hurting!
  • This is the best place for you! Whats beyond this for someone like you?
  • Your fine like you are!
  • And more

The things fear will begin to scream out sound true initially as they are familiar. They are an established fortress of lies I have believed for far too long!

So, what has to happen and has begun to happen to begin to get me to shift from fear to faith?

Well…

I have to first know the voice of fear and anything else joined with it like doubt, worry, and anxiety. This way when they rise up within me I can identify the voice and begin to pull on faith and the word to counter attack the contents in my soul.

Am I doing a good job at this fight?

Some days Heck No! I fall right back into the old way.

Other days I have my sword in hand slicing and dicing every fear and anxious voice that comes up within.

I have to be repetitious in the battle. My Pastor she has taught us that:

“Repetition is the mother of success, if you want to succeed you have to keep doing it over and over and over again until it becomes your new normal” ~ Juanita Gibbs

When I fail at the battle I have to dust myself off see if I can locate the weakness and to why this test took me down and exercise ways to not let it get to me so bad in the next test.

Will I ever be free of fear? No!

Fear is an emotion and I have to learn to manage it. That fear management is real just like how anger management is real for some.

I can be very emotionally lead at times if I allow fear and any other emotion have its way. I can also be very logically lead by my own thoughts and analyzations…but that is a whole other subject.

I want to be able to manage the fear level within me to begin to live by faith over the fears. I have to keep the sword of the word of God that is truth to help me get there. Day by day I hope to make strides to keep turning from fear to faith.

~Love Life ~ Live Life ~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Secret Life!

Patience stepped out! Impatience took her place and hooked up with fear.

I am slowly seeing that by not being patient I have walked in much impatience and that had joined with fear to create a life in me.

Impatience and fear living within my soul has kept me from growing and accepting the reality of things at times. Where had I been more patient things may be different in the long run. But, now that I see them and recognize where I am now I can begin to work to grow in it.

Impatience (haste) had been a common thing in my life. Its how ai am inherintly and due to my own mindsets living in a world built on instand gratification that we got to have it now!

When in God I am seeing that He just like any good parent will make you wait for things. Not that God will withhold any good thing from us, but he knows how I am and that if I cannot handle the full measure of my life now? Then how can He give me things I want that may bring more responsibility in the long run if given before time.

God wants me to grow in patience with God, myself, and then let ut spill to others. I have to be the first partaker of the patience growing in my life and that is causing trust in God to grow. I trust that all He is doing in my life is for my good. He is developing my character and integrity, as well as, shaping the gifts He placed within me to bring Him glory.

Have I been perfect or excellent in my growing?

I can honestly say!

HECK NO!!

I have been inwardly offended, got attitude, stubborn, strong self-willed and blind at times. But, when the dust settles I can see the wrong stronghold I was trying to defend to keep. I can see where I need to grow in my fruits to learn to retrain me to walk in by the spirit in my day to day life to stop walking in my flesh limitation, but in Gods eternalness of the spirit.

Slowly as I grow more in patiencr ther fruit that is, I am praying fear takes itself and moves on in a layer of my life.

~Love Life~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰