Life During Corona Virus

Covid-19 – Year 2020 – Photo Collection

My blogs have become a way to chronicle my navigating life during this corona virus global pandemic and how it has impacted me and my state of living.

Many are the days when Saturdays come when I am in my room, enjoying a cup of coffee before I begin my day. Mentally navigating the day, what needs to be done inside my place, what needs to be done outside my place, and what new restrictions are in place. The governor of my state which is North Carolina since my blogs reach globally, has decided to keep our state at Phase 2 of the reopening while mandating face-masks in all public forums, maintaining social distancing and making sure we sanitize and clean our hands to prevent the spread and spike in the number of cases.

Sadly, this mandate sucks! But, it is needful to get the numbers down of the active cases of covid and to keep the state somewhat running. So many are still out of jobs due to many restrictions still being implemented. Also, many are rebelling against many of the mandates from the governor, the most controversial is the wearing of face-masks. Many out right proclaim and display their rebellion by not following it in word and deed. If people would obey, then maybe things would get accomplished more timely.

In recent weeks, a group of Doctors made a video before the Supreme Court and it was posted online and it went viral. Perhaps many reading this got to see the video before it got taken down from all social media platforms. This alone was a red flag for me. I’m not sure how others took it, but its as if the powers that be are procuring the hiding of the truth for selfish gain. These doctors stood publically and stated their findings on the use of three existing medications to combat and perhaps one day exterminate this Covid-19. The powers that be are pushing for a new vaccine that if they patent would make millions if not billions off the lives of the sick they took an oath to help heal. If I state the three meds this blog is sure to be taken down. So i will only mention two as they are a mineral Zinc and a Z-pack the other more controversial med I will leave out but abbreviate as HCQN.

In more recent events of the day last week was a monumental one! It began with goin through the already existing stuff in the world, but to add to it a hurricane for the eastern part of NC on which I reside. To the western part of the state being impacted by a 5.1 Level Earthquake, the first in many many years of that magnitude.

With all this going on, I will sink and wonder where are the good moments? 2020 has been a year that took my vehicle away in a way. Going and doing things has been cut off. And with this weeks events alone I could settle into a depression beyond anyones wildest imaginations if I allow myself to.

Constantly working to stay head above water is a constant renewing. Plugging the word of God into my mind over and over. Today my favorite verses of life kept coming to me. They are Psalm 91:1-4 which you will see below:

He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence. He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭91:1-4 KJV

After pulling from these verses I was reminded of the good. Like going recently to one of the Sunday School Kids I work withs 2nd birthday. I gave him his first kiddie bible and it had a handle and colorful pictures in it. He toted it around Sunday showing off the pictures inside. That was a joy to my soul to see the 2 yr old embrace the word so innocently. Not to mention how popping his party was with the food and all. His aunt put a hurting on that cake and Cousin put a hurting down on that chip dip that we partook of during the festivities.

After the party I stopped at the Wal-Mart and browsed around. I stumbled across the $5 movie bin. I rarely find anything in those things that even appeal to be viewed. But, this time I stumbled upon two great finds. I love watching war movies, movies based on actual events, faith-based movies and the occasional Romantic-Comedy. I was able to enjoy a few nights watching movies and relaxing. Something of which I rarely do, but I gave in and allowed the down time.

Reorganizing my life and prioritizing things and doing the actual planning and doing of things opened up my life to be able to take time to enjoy those movies. In doing this restructuring to my life, I went to one of my favorite store to see what they had I could use to get organized with.

Needless to say I left with a new notebook, a new bible to use specifically for my youth teaching material, and a book to read. The notebook has been so helpful in maintaining my kingdom work in an area where I admin and on my own personal page that I post these blogs too. Did I need another book to add to my shelf? No! But guess what, it spoke to me! So, I got it and will have it in my spare time to read.

One day in my silliness I was scrolling through my social media platforms and ran across the most hilarious post I’d seen that really struck my funny bone. This happened to be on a bad day that I needed a good laugh to break up the monotony of life. I ended up sharing the image to a group that I am in asking a friend of mine if we could do this at their house. It went over with a barrel of laughs that who knows we all may have needed that day. I will share the image below so it can bring some laughter to your world as it did mine!

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Anchor In Hope

Building Yourself Up!

“But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life.”
‭‭Jude‬ ‭1:20-21‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

There are days we experience in this lifetime that the sun won’t seem as bright. There are days that the clouds will seem too numerous. The scent of rain in the air too much for the emotions to handle holding together.

The dark nights of the soul are phases of growing from the old and toward the new. Think about it a baby is kept in the dark of a mother’s womb protected and safe until it is time for the baby to come into the light.

Our Savior was place in the darkness of a tomb after he was crucified. There he remained for three days, he plunged into the futher dark depths of hell to take back the keys to hell and the grave once and for all. On the third day he emerged into the light.

Dark days will happen!

But, the key is to learn to settle there and remain. The darkness of a cocoon for a caterpillar is only for a time, Jonah spent time in the belly of a whale for a dark night of the soul before the whale spit him out on the shore and He then made the journey to Ninevah.

Before purpose comes a preparation time comes. Even Jesus after he was baptized had a growing experience in the wilderness. He was tempted, tested and tried buy the enemy of our soul for 40 days. After the darkness he emerged empowered and the more ready to fulfill His God destined purpose. Daniel was in the Lions den a dark time for Him. Joseph spent time in the pit.

What did all these I speak of do when the were in their dark night of the soul. They prayed, sung songs of worship, they built themself up in the most holy faith.

The most holy faith saw them through and it helped launch them into their greatest purposes that we read about in the Word of God.

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Choose to build yourself up in the most holy faith! Choose to lean on the one whom is everlasting. Choose to seek Him and grow in your relationship!

These dark and trying days we need something and someone steadfast that we can cling too. He will not fail us lest we only hold on tight!

Stay encouraged we all are fighting different battles, but with God on our side we have an assurance!

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

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Be of Good Cheer

These are times where great faith is needful!

“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
‭‭John‬ ‭16:33‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

I sit here in the silence, asking God what is the message for me and the blog I write once a week? No sooner I asked, and got silent within, I heard “be of good cheer!”

The great Abba Father that He is sent a message into my spirit one of comfort to reinforce peace in my life. The event of this week have been a major pull on my logic and emotions! I even confessed to my spiritual leader in the faith that I felt myself slipping into a depressive state. She encouraged me with words of comfort and wisdom as she always does.

“When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Your consolations delight my soul.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭94:19‬ ‭NASB‬‬

I got home and had to force my way into worship, I forced my way into looking at the word to renew as I was only in the early state of emotional slipping before emotions fully intoxicated me and I was very unrenewed.

“And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:2‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Even as of yesterday, I had to plant myself before the word and remain in it, I got home to cook dinner for my father and freely worshipped, prayed in my heavenly language and then began to feel peace as small as a pebble.

The message I received of “be of good cheer” was a timely one. God knows that in these uncertain times it is faith that will pull us through. Faith isnt a ticket out of tribulation, faith is a hope through dire times. As things continually are getting shut down, enforcement to remain home becomes more essential, that our health and lively hoods are being greatly effected.

As of today more nonessential places are forced to close at 5pm for two weeks. People that have non essential jobs are out of work. Others that have employment that are essential are still allowed to work at this time as more and more cases of confirmed COVID-19 are coming out. Many are now instituting curfews to help condense the probability of spreading this virus! May Hod be with us all during this!

This is the virus heard round the world at this point! By faith we will make it!

By faith anchor in truth of the Word of God!

“For men swear by one greater than themselves, and with them an oath given as confirmation is an end of every dispute. In the same way God, desiring even more to show to the heirs of the promise the unchangeableness of His purpose, interposed with an oath, so that by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have taken refuge would have strong encouragement to take hold of the hope set before us. This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, a hope both sure and steadfast and one which enters within the veil,”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭6:16-19‬ ‭NASB‬‬

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Storms of Life

What happens when my anchor gets pulled up!

This past Sunday, I will admit my anchor was uprooted and moved due to what my emotions have taken on as a violent storm in my world.

In my usual preparation for the day it went normal, until the moment I got in my vehicle and went up out of my parking spot and to the stop sign to enter the main road. It was at that moment my vehicle decided it wasn’t going to shift and continue going forward.

There I was a woman, terrified, vulnerable, sitting half in traffic, being honked at as if I didn’t know I was in the way. I wanted to fully break down in that moment.

I sat there going from drive to reverse many times and not moving an inch. Waving cars around me to go on while my hazards flashed feeling very helpless. I took out my phone and texted the only person that I could that one would look for me on Sunday and two the only one that has ever moved to help me in the past.

She asked some questions to get her husband on the scene as he is an amazing mechanic. Eventually as I still sat there a car came up in my conversing with my potential help. To push me out of the road of oncoming traffic while I continued to attempt to get help.

As I sat there the lady I reached out to told me her husband prepared to come and assist me in any way he could, and if he was unsuccessful he could bring me to church. The guy who pushed me out the road stopped and asked where I lived and I told him just behind where I was sitting.

He went to get a helper and they both came and pushed my vehicle to a point where it could roll down the hill and get me close to my home. Needless to say this moment became funny to them. I will explain why…

So, my vehicle in neutral being pushed back a ways so it can roll down hill, then it was all up to me driving backwards to get it close to my home. So my vehicle is a large SUV and me being a woman I guess they assumed I may not handle driving backwards very well. I got drove that rig backwards down hill. Turned without hesitation to the right into the area of parking then a left to get me close to a parking slot.

The guys came to see where I ended up and they were laughing so hard. They said ma’am, where did you learn how to drive like that, we was shocked you could whip that rig like you did! I must say some of that is probably coming from my country living upbringing and my love for like go-carts and things. They got a good laugh and I got my truck home and in a parking slot.

Then from there I went to church and was wonderfully brought back home by the lady’s husband to only begin to find help, a mechanic, someone who knows anything about vehicles. At every turn I was told no I cannot come to you, no I cannot help you, one even told me worse case scenario and two ran with the notion.

Needless to say I crawled in bed feeling very very helpless and allowed depression to begin to come and wrap its arms tightly around me. The lady kindly reached out and asked if she could take me to the store. I didn’t have brain space to handle getting a few odds and ends, let alone continue to be turned down in the help department. Time passed and I remained thinking and thinking and then emotions engage cause they want to support every thought. Depression, anxiety, a way out are all things that came about in this one day.

Monday came, boy did it ever! I wanted to just wallow in my emotions and just sink into the dark abyss my soul (mind, will, and emotions) were creating for me to live in. The lady reached out again to take me to the store, I honestly wanted to sulk and sink deeper, but she was being used to extend a had to snatch me back out of that dark abyss.

Even since Monday I have not been fully myself. My mind is far over crowded with what steps I need to take, calls I need to make, funds I need to have that I just don’t at this moment, until it all can be figured out and evaluated.

Now my luck is dealing with todays snow fall, that delays every move I need to make. I am so anxious and depressed that my meds are only minimally helping. The battle of the soul is a hard one. With the content I am beginning to put together to publish, I can only gather this is my testing to see if I will live out what I put out into the world.

It is so beyond hard to not be swayed and moved emotionally to the point I can firmly say no, I have firm faith in this area and stand in the word. If I was better able to do that my anchor wouldn’t have been pulled up and moved. But it has now, so the only thing I can do now is work my way back to some level of inward stability.

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Waiting

Answers will come at times from the opposite direction.

What happens when we get so fixated for God to move in certain ways. God never acts or does the same thing in the same way even in the word of God. How many times in the word of God was a blind man healed? Not one of them was healed in the same way he healed the other.

Humans we are creatures of habit. Well some of us anyway, ok I know I can be. We see God used a certain person to bless us or help be an answer to a prayer, or something mysterious happens for our good and we begin to think/assume that well, God moved this way before He will move that way again. That isn’t how God operates.

To have utter and complete trust in Him we have to remain in faith, keep hope alive, and rest in what He said He would do. Our job is trust, believe and work on ourself. We have to have a unmovable, unshakeable belief that God will gome through for is in whatever way we need, we need not fixate on how, who, when and where so much as to just be open to receive it from the direction it comes in.

In these lay a multitude of those who were sick, blind, lame, and withered, [waiting for the moving of the waters; for an angel of the Lord went down at certain seasons into the pool and stirred up the water; whoever then first, after the stirring up of the water, stepped in was made well from whatever disease with which he was afflicted.] A man was there who had been ill for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he had already been a long time in that condition, He said to him, “Do you wish to get well?” The sick man answered Him, “Sir, I have no man to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up, but while I am coming, another steps down before me.” Jesus said to him, “Get up, pick up your pallet and walk.” Immediately the man became well, and picked up his pallet and began to walk. Now it was the Sabbath on that day. John 5:3‭-‬9 NASB

In the scripture passage here above we see an example of this. The man knew that the angel would come and stir the waters and he would be healed, of course there are other things I could talk about in relation to this but for now I want to keep focused on He looked to an angel of God coming to stir the waters only to get his healing. Had he not been open to receive the blessing of healing when He shifted his view to Jesus, he may have missed it all together.

He could have been so fixated that the angel stirring the waters was His only way to be healed that He would have missed the greatest opportunity in his lifetime. Don’t we get like that at times? I know I have! When he shifted his focus to Jesus at the question He posed to him by Jesus “do you wish to be well?” and what Jesus was saying the man opened himself up that his blessing could come from a different direction then he had thought the last 38-years of his life.

The man did verbally rationalize with Jesus about how he could be healed, but Jesus knowing the man been long time in that condition saw He longed to be healed of his affliction. He still in his heart opened up to Jesus that healing could come a different way. How many times had the name of Jesus come up in discussions by the pool of water. With the news spreading far about the miracles Jesus was doing I am sure that the man by the pool side had some knowing that miracles were taking place by the man named Jesus.

Shift our focus to God by trusting in Him. This also is seeking Him and His kingdom first. When we look to Him in genuine relationship He knows the intentions of our heart. He knows our thoughts, our cares, concerns, worries, etc. But, He wants to know that we fully rely on Him for everything. Seek His face, worship and praise Him! Resting in His faithfulness while doing what we know to do until answers come.

Muck and Mire

Press!!

Gods word has the power to bring me up from the miry clay that seems to surround me often. He has done it in the past!

The mire is undesirable circumstances that appear to have no way of escaping or getting out of. If I hold onto the truth and the power of His word by faith the miry clay has to let go.

He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm.
Psalms 40:2 NASB

For as long as I can recall now for the last 2 years I have been hooked on anchors and the verse Hebrews 6:19. I often related the anchor resting upon a rock (solid rock = Jesus) to keep stable even when the storms and waves crash on us.

He wants me firmly anchored in Him to not be so easily moved as I have been in my past. When a reality hits it can move me swiftly out of faith. I have to guard and be aware to catch it. If not, I will find myself way off course and having to stuggle to get back.

Just like a lotus flower has to press and grow its way through mud and waters and currents to bloom. I too must press past mud, murk, mire, water, currents of life to bloom in the faith.

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Waiting in full Hope

Devistation will come, try not to loose hope when it comes.

This year I recall getting two seperate phone calls about somethings I had a high hope to come through for me. I had such high hopes for both to only have them dashed.

The disappointment and devistation I felt ran so deep that it exposed a layer of fear I have for things I have high hopes for.

The fear showed me that my stance wasn’t strong in faith. The slighetest thing knocked me out of faith and right into doubt, fear, worry, anxiety and depression.

I wanted something so bad that when it was a half yes/half not right now, that I immediatley went into negativity. Things in life will not always work out how we plan them, but they will work out in how God plans them.

Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 15:13 NASB

I have had to begin to learn how to tap into believing even when I get a “no” or a “not yet” as an answer. The “no’s” I have gotten in the past sent me right to unbelief.

Now to shift from my old way to a new way is by working my way when a “no” or “not right now” comes to be stronger and still remain in faith is a choice I am finding.

I can have peace and joy in believing that the things hoped for will abound to me in time. I have to keep working to standing in faith and not waivering.

It have to make that choice to do so when feelings try to rule me back into my old pattern. This is the work to not fall back into unbelief and find a stance in the faith, remain full of joy and peace that anchors hope that is able to abound to me from God by the Holy Spirit.

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Strength of my Heart

When my heart fails…

I never fully realized how much I relied on myself and not God to get through difficult situations. I was very much a self-reliant person and not a faith-filled person.

It wasn’t until coming to Reformation Developmental Center that the teaching presented that I operated so much in my own strength, by my own will, and not having faith and trust in God where the means for Him to operate was evident.

It was this that brought me to a place of awareness that my soul (mind, will and emotions) were leading my life. That life was filled with doubt, fear, anxiety, depression because they lacked faith. Had my spirit been leading my life it would have been full of faith, hope, trust and full of Gods love.

My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the rock and strength of my heart and my portion forever.
PSALM 73:26 AMP

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs often said God was calling me to His word. That has been so much the truth cause in His word alone is where I can find strength when I feel weak, where as seeking it in my own strength only brought me to more stress and feeling faint.

Even in my outside reading none of those resourses could ultimatley provide what my soul desperatley needed and that was truth. Truth comes from the word of God. He is God who cannot lie and backs His every word!

The more and more that I turn toward God through Jesus and His word the more I find my soul anchoring against Him as a solid rock. Taking comfort that my soul cannot do any of the problem solving and submitting to the spirit saying be of faith and trust God to see me through it all. It is in this I find strength for my heart.

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Faith in What God Will Do!

God is not a man that should lie!

How do we know and trust the victory that is available without a personal relationship with God?

In reality we cannot, our victory would come from our own strength and works, which God gets no glory for.

Through God we will have victory… Psalm 60:12a AMP

When we lean on God through His word and trust in the personal relationship that we have with Him we will have victory through Him.

I have had to have torn down wrong beliefs that didn’t line up with the word of God. My wrong beliefs brought about fear,worry, anxiety, depression and more, they had to go!

The things that they manifested will not bring God any glory as they were not blessed goodness manifestations.

They have been bad manifestations as they was nothing good about them as the negativity in me produced thus negative life.

It has been since the anointing came into my life through Pastor Juanita Gibbs that they came down with truth she presented.

Since they came down new has to go up in its place as to the soul will search for something to fill the void. The void has been having construction of the word of God to build new and better in my soul.

In doing this, victory through God is possible as I have been learning to lean on God over myself and my wrong patterns of old. This has helped build faith in what can and will do in my life the more and more I lean on Him.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith In God’s Abiding Victory!

Victory was made available at the cross!

Pastor Juanita Gibbs at Reformation Developmental Center uses this verse often in the teachings we receive. So, that is where I have become most acquainted with this verse of scripture you see below.

I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace. In the world you have tribulation and distress and suffering, but be courageous [be confident, be undaunted, be filled with joy]; I have overcome the world.” [My conquest is accomplished, My victory abiding.]
JOHN 16:33 AMP

The finished works of the cross has already given us a victory we can tap into and learn to abide in. He proclaims that He has told us these things so that we may have perfect peace. That peace can only come from His finished work by pulling from it.

At salvation it was planted in our spirits in seed form. Tribulations come and as we read in James 1 they come to test our faith.

The testing of our faith produces things in our life that help grow us and establish us in Him better. Without it we are moved and tossed by trials and triblation and every wind and doctrine until we are firmly anchored correctly.

Well, that has been the case for me I can say. I was in a place where if we are believers we should be exempted from suffering as we have Jesus in our life. If we are enduring any hardship we have sinned greatly.

At another time in my faith journey if we were enduring hardships and trials a prophetic word was all that was needed to see you through it.

When it boiled down to it. I still had great problems holding on to prophetic words or even repenting at every turn thinking I had done something so transgressing it brought this on.

Little did I realize also, that I myself was the cause of alot of my hardships. Being a great worrier, full of anxiety, depression, fear, panic, paranoia that my soul manifested around me the reality that my inner lived in.

Pastor has had to go in with precision like a surgical construction worker to tear down strongholds that had set up in my soul to then get proper Godly and truth strong holds to begin to be built. She has labored with me helping cultivate and get me in alignment for what my life is suppose to be for Gods glory.

It has been a turning and allowing the old to die off and inplant the good of the truth of the word to begin to tap into the abiding victory.

It has begun shown itself out in my life it has manifested better transportation which was desperatley needed. The anointing of God on Pastors life and her taking me under wing has shown the power of proper connection and the need for a personal relationship with God.

That personal relationship with God through His word in prayer, meditation, worship and study has helped me move into a place of learning to dwell in that victory. Am I perfect in it? No! It is a slow move on process of unpacking and setteling that is taking place.

~Cynthia 😍