Being undisturbed inwardly is tuff!
What do I mean by inwardly right? In your soul (mind,will, and emotions) we can be busy and it can be knowingly and unknowingly.
I can honestly say that for as long as I can recall my inward being has been busy. Somethings I knew I was thinking on things and other times I didn’t realize it.
For example,yesterday while I was out and in the midst of the conversation it was noted how I think of myself in an aspect to speaking on a certain topic repetitivley.
This repetition wasn’t a good one as it revealed an inner disturbance of lack of self acceptance. Thus, also revealing another level of an issue I have that keeps me from reality at times. This disturbance inwardly has caused much issue within and without as it effects interpersonal connections.
Once this had been brought to light and attacked with truth, I now have to cultivate the good that was given to me to have that begin to grow and manifest in my life. Its up to me to keep meditating on the word, praying the word and worshipping in spirit and in truth.
Then my people will live in a peaceful surrounding, And in secure dwellings and in undisturbed resting places.
ISAIAH 32:18 AMP
It is then that I can make the shift to go from living a disturbed life to slowly progressing to live in undisturbed resting place. That no matter what God is in control to calm my soul.
So, since yesterday with having the new information I have cried a release and then pressed into renewing my mind (Romans 12:2) to get back on track and be about doing the work that needs to be done.
Before when stuff like this would happen I would throw a full on pity party. For some reason, now its a different view. God used a vessel to bring to light much needed information that needed addressing.
Now that light has come, I can begin to address it. Its gonna take time and patience on my part to do the diligent work to make the move. I sure want to and need to, to know that this has been a issue has gone on long enough. It began yesterday and I strive to keep at the work and be aware when it flairs up.
Its gonna take me pulling on faith from the word of God to make it. His word is His voice and the mind of Christ and I need to put more in me to line up my life into His will for me.
Note: The contents of this blog are inspired by my Leader Pastor Juanita Gibbs of Reformation Developmental Center