Thank You 2020 For Everything!

This year has been one of the best years and one of the worst years!

Can’t that be said for just about every year we face… year after year we face tragedy in small and large scale and victories in small and large scale. As a whole, 2020 has been just that, as I discharge the negative that has been highly propagated, with a pause to look at the bigger picture of what this year has truly encompassed.

Pause and smell the roses!

Globally we have faced a pandemic, weather disasters, economic distress, massive depression, abusive behaviors toward one another or one-self and so much more.

In turn we have slowed down, connected better with children, connected on a new level of intimacy in couples, technology had become a mainstream ways to connect with others outside our dwelling places and so much more.

With every ending there is a new beginning just around the corner!

For myself, I have had a vehicle stripped away from me, loss of my fur-child, contracted COVID-19, and so much more.

But, having my vehicle stripped away from me made a level of pride kneel to a higher authority of not setting things above God. Loosing my fur-child caused me to revisit wounds from the loss of my mother from back in 2016, that needed to be fully grieved out and allow for healing to come. Then, contracting COVID allowed me time in full isolation to deal with childhood traumas of not being validated, loved, nurtured in ways that promote healthy growth. I have begun to learn to allow the love of the Father to come and fill those void places within my soul. That had I not been fully isolated I wouldn’t have even begun to allow healing to come into the depths that could lead me to paths of destruction.

One of my top love languages

My alone time in isolation really revealed a depth of need that I have within me for validation from quality time I spend with people. Quality time is such a strong love language for me it seems that if I don’t manage it and control myself in it, that it will rule and drive me. My isolation time made me see this and learn ways to become self-contented and pour into myself, enjoy time with myself, allow the love from others that has spent time with me to flood my soul. As my Pastor says it is variations of self-parenting that will begin to fill the voids and depths from lack from formative years. If I don’t grow and deal with this now I will deplete my future husband from trying to fulfill things for me that are essentially not his job to do.

2020 had been a molding and making year indeed for me. Removing dependency upon the worldly things to have a sense of security. When in my time battling COVID, God used that to strip away dependency from the world and drive me straight into His arms to depend upon Him. Being out of work meant no income, aside from the fact that I don’t have employer covered health coverage. Faith and my tribe of believers and as I was told by my Pastor being a tither and a giver using faith in that time had stocked up enough in the banks of heaven to see a withdrawal come forth to see that I stayed in my apartment and my bills got paid. Still now with hours cut and such my bills are still getting paid and being a giver and a tither prove that God will look out for His children.

Lavender Sky

It is now in this time when the threshold of the new is approaching and the closed door to the old is about to be shut, that we need to take back the peace, joy, and love that the Father has so freely given us and shake off the fear, doubts, worry, and depression that the world and the ruler there of has put on the people that have no way to combat it. I will fight to gain peace, I will fight to get my love story back on track, I will fight to know that the joy of the Lord is my strength. I will fight to shake off the propaganda that a vaccine will save the world when I will only create more problems and thats proving to be true even now with the virus mutations, I will fight off worry cause my Father has unlimited source no matter how often they threaten a government shut down. I will fight off doubts of how it all will turn out and look through the lenses of faith to see what hasn’t manifested yet, that will will I see it clearly by faith. I will shake off depression cause that is a culmination of allowing to world to control me, put me in their box and to be a robot under their operation. Break free from those things and allow the heavenly to steer you! Money helps our living in this world, but when it is our driving force then it becomes futile. Allow faith in God to be the driving force.

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Road to Recovery after COVID

The path to recovery from COVID is full of uncertainty!

Since the last time I blogged, I have been deeply into getting my body steered toward being COVID free and toward rebounding from the effects of this slow moving virus that has so greatly impacted the world we live in today.

I spent 22 days in isolation to prevent the spread of this virus. I kept it from my aging father of whom lives in the same dwelling as I, and I didn’t pass it on to anyone in whom I had any contact with. Praise God!

In the days of knowing I contracted the virus, in the small area of which I am employed it became a virtual witch hunt of who infected who and how and all the scenarios that we none had any full control over. I may have mentioned it in my previous writing, that at the time I contracted COVID there was a highly concentrated number of cases in that small town. This fact alone makes it mute on how I contracted it as in such a small area, this spread faster and quicker! If your someone like me that works in the public, handling funds, face-to-face encounters, then its bound to happen.

As soon as folks heard my story of having COVID hysteria kicked in, everyone I had been in contact with rushed to get tested. Which is all fine cause that was the point on making it aware that I contracted the virus. Many got tested and one after another came back negative, I was so thankful to hear it as I am around some more advanced in age men and women that have underlying medical conditions that needed to be careful around with this.

One that I work with about 14 days after I had the virus, she contracted it. It was told to me by someone in their circle that this person told most that she had communication with, that she had contracted the virus from me. Smh. We shared the same work space yesterday and from her lips she said I didn’t get it from you, but in her continuing story said that on a day she went into a shared office space (now mind you. This was a week after our office had been shut down and sterilized) said she went to my desk and got something and felt horrible since. So in one breathe she says she didn’t get from me and with another she between lines said I got it from you! The heart will always reveal itself if you pay close attention to the words.

Its amazing to also see how you are treated once you have had COVID. I went to work to attempt to get back into some level of normalcy after the testing reveled I was now negative. You walk into a place and immediately you hear “RONA” and the sound of ur not allowed in here coming from the lips of people as you see from your peripheral vision the ones on the side of you step back as if you was so super contagious they could not share the same air in-which to breathe.

Its also been super refreshing to be welcomed back into the presence of people. I am very much a people person, I like to connect and plug into peoples energies especially people you get good vibes from. Some have been so welcoming of me returning back to health that its a reflection of Gods loving character in the earth. Of which is something I may write about in blogs to come what my time of isolation revealed about me to work on for my own personal development.

My body is still in recuperation mode as I still have not regained the full taste and sense of smell and as of late really bad tinnitus has developed. This is where the path to my recovery is uncertain. I went to my family physician Monday to kinda be left feeling as if I was crazy for having tinnitus and refusing to get their flu shot among other things. Because of all the strict guidelines at doctors I had to be sure I made them away I had, had the corona/covid-19 and that I was now clear.

Then it was pressure to get a flu shot. I had to stand firm that I didn’t want and will not get a flu shot! They didn’t understand my reasoning after just surviving COVID, why would I purposely insert flu into my body that still hasn’t full rebounded from the corona virus. They insisted, well it doesn’t give you the flu! I said no! Four times I had to tell them No! They gave no treatment for my tinnitus and only said allow time to pass to see if it goes away as she never heard of this being a side effect from COVID. I’m like do you want my head to see if what I am telling you is true!?

I have begun doin my own therapy on sound treatments for the ringing, taste therapy to attempt to get that back and Smelling therapy to begin to have that come back. I have also enlisted the wisdom of a retired medical care worker whom knows a lot about things in homeopathic ways of treatments and therapy to help me along and her wisdom has proven time and time again. She made me her own healing soup therapy that she uses countlessly time and time again that has prevented pneumonia and more in her close connections to keep them healthy and from worser sicknesses.

It is my firm belief that getting this soup in the early phases of being diagnosed with Covid-19 that this soup kept the virus from moving into my heart and lungs. That of which I am thankful for. The studies show that COVID effects vital organs like heart, lungs, and now recently they are seeing the effects on the brain with the side effects that I am experiencing. The part of my brain for my sensory reception has been impacted the most in my case of COVID.

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Fall Days

Global Pandemic Style

Well… picking up where I left off in my last blog post, the state in which I reside in America entered Phase 3 of reopening. But guess what?!?! We are still under a full mask mandate! The numbers of cases fell back for a time, now they are surging again. More and more coming down with this now dreaded virus.

Many times with the news of all this like staring at a forest and not seeing a way out! Then you make a turn toward faith during all this then suddenly a glimmer of light shines forth. With each passing day we all must fight to remain positive or easily slip into the dark abyss of depression. I battle this myself so I know the struggle well.

So much has been happening that its too much for the brain! I work in telecommunications and I tell you we should be considered front line workers trying to help keep kids schools going with them doing remote learning and keeping our cable network afloat amidst the networks making so many changes to towers, equipment and more its a constant hurdle to keep people informed and able to do work and school. Its only Wednesday and I feel like I have done a months worth of work in two weeks.

I have to remind myself that if I fall apart I am the only one who will pick me up and help me get back together again along with my faith in God and the tools my leaders have given me to use. Its ok to fall apart! Just don’t allow yourself to stay in those states. Get up and get back to the battle. The battle will be as long as we have breathe in our bodies.

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Moments With Cynthia

Life During Corona Virus

Covid-19 – Year 2020 – Photo Collection

My blogs have become a way to chronicle my navigating life during this corona virus global pandemic and how it has impacted me and my state of living.

Many are the days when Saturdays come when I am in my room, enjoying a cup of coffee before I begin my day. Mentally navigating the day, what needs to be done inside my place, what needs to be done outside my place, and what new restrictions are in place. The governor of my state which is North Carolina since my blogs reach globally, has decided to keep our state at Phase 2 of the reopening while mandating face-masks in all public forums, maintaining social distancing and making sure we sanitize and clean our hands to prevent the spread and spike in the number of cases.

Sadly, this mandate sucks! But, it is needful to get the numbers down of the active cases of covid and to keep the state somewhat running. So many are still out of jobs due to many restrictions still being implemented. Also, many are rebelling against many of the mandates from the governor, the most controversial is the wearing of face-masks. Many out right proclaim and display their rebellion by not following it in word and deed. If people would obey, then maybe things would get accomplished more timely.

In recent weeks, a group of Doctors made a video before the Supreme Court and it was posted online and it went viral. Perhaps many reading this got to see the video before it got taken down from all social media platforms. This alone was a red flag for me. I’m not sure how others took it, but its as if the powers that be are procuring the hiding of the truth for selfish gain. These doctors stood publically and stated their findings on the use of three existing medications to combat and perhaps one day exterminate this Covid-19. The powers that be are pushing for a new vaccine that if they patent would make millions if not billions off the lives of the sick they took an oath to help heal. If I state the three meds this blog is sure to be taken down. So i will only mention two as they are a mineral Zinc and a Z-pack the other more controversial med I will leave out but abbreviate as HCQN.

In more recent events of the day last week was a monumental one! It began with goin through the already existing stuff in the world, but to add to it a hurricane for the eastern part of NC on which I reside. To the western part of the state being impacted by a 5.1 Level Earthquake, the first in many many years of that magnitude.

With all this going on, I will sink and wonder where are the good moments? 2020 has been a year that took my vehicle away in a way. Going and doing things has been cut off. And with this weeks events alone I could settle into a depression beyond anyones wildest imaginations if I allow myself to.

Constantly working to stay head above water is a constant renewing. Plugging the word of God into my mind over and over. Today my favorite verses of life kept coming to me. They are Psalm 91:1-4 which you will see below:

He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence. He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭91:1-4 KJV

After pulling from these verses I was reminded of the good. Like going recently to one of the Sunday School Kids I work withs 2nd birthday. I gave him his first kiddie bible and it had a handle and colorful pictures in it. He toted it around Sunday showing off the pictures inside. That was a joy to my soul to see the 2 yr old embrace the word so innocently. Not to mention how popping his party was with the food and all. His aunt put a hurting on that cake and Cousin put a hurting down on that chip dip that we partook of during the festivities.

After the party I stopped at the Wal-Mart and browsed around. I stumbled across the $5 movie bin. I rarely find anything in those things that even appeal to be viewed. But, this time I stumbled upon two great finds. I love watching war movies, movies based on actual events, faith-based movies and the occasional Romantic-Comedy. I was able to enjoy a few nights watching movies and relaxing. Something of which I rarely do, but I gave in and allowed the down time.

Reorganizing my life and prioritizing things and doing the actual planning and doing of things opened up my life to be able to take time to enjoy those movies. In doing this restructuring to my life, I went to one of my favorite store to see what they had I could use to get organized with.

Needless to say I left with a new notebook, a new bible to use specifically for my youth teaching material, and a book to read. The notebook has been so helpful in maintaining my kingdom work in an area where I admin and on my own personal page that I post these blogs too. Did I need another book to add to my shelf? No! But guess what, it spoke to me! So, I got it and will have it in my spare time to read.

One day in my silliness I was scrolling through my social media platforms and ran across the most hilarious post I’d seen that really struck my funny bone. This happened to be on a bad day that I needed a good laugh to break up the monotony of life. I ended up sharing the image to a group that I am in asking a friend of mine if we could do this at their house. It went over with a barrel of laughs that who knows we all may have needed that day. I will share the image below so it can bring some laughter to your world as it did mine!

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Anchor In Hope

Building Yourself Up!

“But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life.”
‭‭Jude‬ ‭1:20-21‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

There are days we experience in this lifetime that the sun won’t seem as bright. There are days that the clouds will seem too numerous. The scent of rain in the air too much for the emotions to handle holding together.

The dark nights of the soul are phases of growing from the old and toward the new. Think about it a baby is kept in the dark of a mother’s womb protected and safe until it is time for the baby to come into the light.

Our Savior was place in the darkness of a tomb after he was crucified. There he remained for three days, he plunged into the futher dark depths of hell to take back the keys to hell and the grave once and for all. On the third day he emerged into the light.

Dark days will happen!

But, the key is to learn to settle there and remain. The darkness of a cocoon for a caterpillar is only for a time, Jonah spent time in the belly of a whale for a dark night of the soul before the whale spit him out on the shore and He then made the journey to Ninevah.

Before purpose comes a preparation time comes. Even Jesus after he was baptized had a growing experience in the wilderness. He was tempted, tested and tried buy the enemy of our soul for 40 days. After the darkness he emerged empowered and the more ready to fulfill His God destined purpose. Daniel was in the Lions den a dark time for Him. Joseph spent time in the pit.

What did all these I speak of do when the were in their dark night of the soul. They prayed, sung songs of worship, they built themself up in the most holy faith.

The most holy faith saw them through and it helped launch them into their greatest purposes that we read about in the Word of God.

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Choose to build yourself up in the most holy faith! Choose to lean on the one whom is everlasting. Choose to seek Him and grow in your relationship!

These dark and trying days we need something and someone steadfast that we can cling too. He will not fail us lest we only hold on tight!

Stay encouraged we all are fighting different battles, but with God on our side we have an assurance!

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

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Life Update During A Pandemic ~ Photo Collection

2020 Has become a year for the history books!

So, since I left off blogging last at the end of May, the state in which I reside took us from Lock down to Phase 1 and then to Phase 2.

The cases statewide have continued to grow during Phase 2 and when the state evaluated us entering Phase 3, they said No! The governor declared we are to remain at Phase 2 for three more weeks which will expire at 5pm on July 17. With this came a new mandate, for all public safety we are to now wear masks in public, in retail settings and any position when dealing with the public.

Needless to say… I was not and am not thrilled about the new mandate. But, I have chosen to abide by the ruling for my safety and for those of whom I encounter on a day-to-day basis. The weekend of the ruling local sheriff’s offices were putting out statement about how they won’t be enforcing the ruling on individual basis’, but when businesses don’t follow the mandate they could step in and thus fine the establishment.

Several businesses have been sited for not following the mandate, and I just read one today the law shut a business down that was suppose to be closed during this phase and now they were forcibly shut down. The governor stated he went this route while in Phase 2 so we wouldn’t have to go back to Phase 1 like other states who have seen even more drastic spikes in covid cases.

The employer I work for mandated under the governors ruling that we are to wear masks with working with the public. That has not been enjoyable at all! It will keep me safe. Its so strange how masks have become not only for safety, but a fashion accessory. I have had to adjust my makeup routine to accommodate wearing masks off and on all day. This whole year has been one adjustment after another.

One thing this pandemic has done was restore my working with children. For a time, I wasn’t working with children as I had once in the past. Two were gone, another was part time and my consistent one of whom remained was needed in a new capacity at home for a while. One Sunday I came in and all four of my lil joys were back. That restored a light within my soul of my kingdom purpose with working with the children. I missed them so much and God restored them as my Pastor had told me He would right after the shift happened.

In my own spiritual journey in the last month, God has been working hard on humbling me. Getting me out of a state of Pride and knowing I need Him with every breathe, every step, every decision cause doing it on my own is my own self-will. To surrender my will to Gods will it takes a humbling of a person and in June God broke a level off of me that was strongly needed.

The new places God wants to take me in him required some death to the old things my soul (mind, will, and emotions) had clung to for all my life. Everything God has for me is within my spirit as that is where I invited His spirit to reside within me and overtime that newness will shine forth through my vessel (body) in my character, morals, and integrity.

In the days ahead I am longing that this Pandemic lets up! So we can have a sense of normalcy return. My prayer is that everyone stay safe as possible and take care of your mental health during all this! I have battled depression off and on during this crisis. The people of whom love and support me check on me and pray me through. Find your soul tribe like I have, they will be with you through dark and light, good and bad, broke and prosperous. Real people are true and genuine beyond things that can and will often change.

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Faith over Fear

The days in which we live currently are becoming consumed by fear all around!

“But understand this, that in the last days dangerous times [of great stress and trouble] will come [difficult days that will be hard to bear].”
‭‭2 Timothy‬ ‭3:1‬ ‭AMP‬‬

I considered blogging long and hard especially with the current climate of the world. So, instead of my usual, I figured I would share how my life and world are being hit by the COVID-19 epidemic, and share some faith so we can stand firm and make it through these times.

In the past few days, every grocery store I have entered, beef and chicken products are all emptied, bread of all kinds gone. Can goods flying off the shelf left and right! Milk and eggs being purchased by the cart loads. Products of lysol, bleach, hand sanitizer, any disinfectant spray were off the shelf for a week prior to all this.

As of the most recent event of this virus, many stores are required to close early, restaurants are only allowed to do take out or delivery. Communal dining areas are fully shut down. People are loosing jobs due to having to close early, especially those in the restaurant and bar industry.

The economic effects of this will take weeks to rebound from, granted the gov’t has a proposed stimulus plan, but only time will tell how that helps. More cases are popping up, social distancing has been widely promoted.

All during these passing weeks I have been trying my best to put faith over fear! The statics, the forecasting, the foreboding of it all insight and harbors fear. Pulling from the Word of God has been a must or fear will consume anyone in these times.

“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him I will trust.” Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler And from the perilous pestilence. He shall cover you with His feathers, And under His wings you shall take refuge; His truth shall be your shield and buckler. You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, Nor of the arrow that flies by day, Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness, Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday. A thousand may fall at your side, And ten thousand at your right hand; But it shall not come near you. Only with your eyes shall you look, And see the reward of the wicked. Because you have made the LORD, who is my refuge, Even the Most High, your dwelling place, No evil shall befall you, Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling; For He shall give His angels charge over you, To keep you in all your ways. In their hands they shall bear you up, Lest you dash your foot against a stone. You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra, The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot. “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him on high, because he has known My name. He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him, And show him My salvation.””
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭91:1-16‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Stay safe everyone! These are perilous times!

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Storms of Life

What happens when my anchor gets pulled up!

This past Sunday, I will admit my anchor was uprooted and moved due to what my emotions have taken on as a violent storm in my world.

In my usual preparation for the day it went normal, until the moment I got in my vehicle and went up out of my parking spot and to the stop sign to enter the main road. It was at that moment my vehicle decided it wasn’t going to shift and continue going forward.

There I was a woman, terrified, vulnerable, sitting half in traffic, being honked at as if I didn’t know I was in the way. I wanted to fully break down in that moment.

I sat there going from drive to reverse many times and not moving an inch. Waving cars around me to go on while my hazards flashed feeling very helpless. I took out my phone and texted the only person that I could that one would look for me on Sunday and two the only one that has ever moved to help me in the past.

She asked some questions to get her husband on the scene as he is an amazing mechanic. Eventually as I still sat there a car came up in my conversing with my potential help. To push me out of the road of oncoming traffic while I continued to attempt to get help.

As I sat there the lady I reached out to told me her husband prepared to come and assist me in any way he could, and if he was unsuccessful he could bring me to church. The guy who pushed me out the road stopped and asked where I lived and I told him just behind where I was sitting.

He went to get a helper and they both came and pushed my vehicle to a point where it could roll down the hill and get me close to my home. Needless to say this moment became funny to them. I will explain why…

So, my vehicle in neutral being pushed back a ways so it can roll down hill, then it was all up to me driving backwards to get it close to my home. So my vehicle is a large SUV and me being a woman I guess they assumed I may not handle driving backwards very well. I got drove that rig backwards down hill. Turned without hesitation to the right into the area of parking then a left to get me close to a parking slot.

The guys came to see where I ended up and they were laughing so hard. They said ma’am, where did you learn how to drive like that, we was shocked you could whip that rig like you did! I must say some of that is probably coming from my country living upbringing and my love for like go-carts and things. They got a good laugh and I got my truck home and in a parking slot.

Then from there I went to church and was wonderfully brought back home by the lady’s husband to only begin to find help, a mechanic, someone who knows anything about vehicles. At every turn I was told no I cannot come to you, no I cannot help you, one even told me worse case scenario and two ran with the notion.

Needless to say I crawled in bed feeling very very helpless and allowed depression to begin to come and wrap its arms tightly around me. The lady kindly reached out and asked if she could take me to the store. I didn’t have brain space to handle getting a few odds and ends, let alone continue to be turned down in the help department. Time passed and I remained thinking and thinking and then emotions engage cause they want to support every thought. Depression, anxiety, a way out are all things that came about in this one day.

Monday came, boy did it ever! I wanted to just wallow in my emotions and just sink into the dark abyss my soul (mind, will, and emotions) were creating for me to live in. The lady reached out again to take me to the store, I honestly wanted to sulk and sink deeper, but she was being used to extend a had to snatch me back out of that dark abyss.

Even since Monday I have not been fully myself. My mind is far over crowded with what steps I need to take, calls I need to make, funds I need to have that I just don’t at this moment, until it all can be figured out and evaluated.

Now my luck is dealing with todays snow fall, that delays every move I need to make. I am so anxious and depressed that my meds are only minimally helping. The battle of the soul is a hard one. With the content I am beginning to put together to publish, I can only gather this is my testing to see if I will live out what I put out into the world.

It is so beyond hard to not be swayed and moved emotionally to the point I can firmly say no, I have firm faith in this area and stand in the word. If I was better able to do that my anchor wouldn’t have been pulled up and moved. But it has now, so the only thing I can do now is work my way back to some level of inward stability.

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Embracing Singleness

Relationship Status in a world that makes it idolized to be of a certain status!

In a world where status is everything so it seems, the world promotes that if your not married then your practically nothing.

To say the least many of us have cosigned with that mindset. But, is it true what they claim?

NO!

I can attest that being single is NOT the end all be all of our existence and neither is marriage. Both have their place in the world and in the church. Married folks (successful marriages) should be encouraged to pour wisdom into singles to help prepare them for their time.

Godly marriages have come along side me in my recent years and have helped burst the false bubbles of fantasy and instill reality and wisdom in the approach to relationships. I first had to embrace the fact that marriage is a long-term successful friendship.

Once I got this I was then challenged to learn to walk in love, this love walk was the one without conditions, boy thats been a challenge. Its been a growing pain of growing from where I once was cold to seeing some fruit of growth how be it ever small, but growth is growth.

The successful marriages showed me that even if marriage doesn’t come I need to learn to love myself and my journey. If someone comes along thats traveling the same road and we can go at it together great, if not; I still have a purpose and call of God to fulfill. Embracing this has brought a level of freedom that no matter my status I still have purpose.

I still have bouts of struggle with this from time to time, I won’t lie about that. Thats our human nature and a good one to have as long as its not our driving force. I was reminded once again to seek first the kingdom of God and all His righteousness them all those things can be added to me.

So, if you struggle being single, know that your not alone. Trust in God and His timing. Work on yourself, love yourself, enjoy yourself! Live life, love others, bring joy to those you can around you. Sow seeds of goodness and kindness where you can.

Love yourself enough to wait on the goodness of the Lord! Trust your preparation season, trust the growth, trust in the Love of the Father! He knows what He is doing, he loves you enough to keep you growing before you mess up any good thing He sends your way!

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Who am I?

Have we not stopped and pondered the big life questions from time to time?

I know I have and often if not careful and send myself into a tail spin just mulling those huge questions over and over and over!

I haven’t blogged in a while as I stopped to get my book out, which is now available on amazon.com, even now that it is out the big questions come even more.

Does your message have any impact?

Is what you hoped your writing to be is it that?

What makes your story special?

Well, I had to come to this conclusion. My story has a set audience and those meant to find it will and it will greatly impact thier life!

My book and my story is multifaceted and not just one target area of change in my physical, but also a change in my spiritual.

I have had to dig down deep and pull from the roots of faith to realize I am a daughter of destiny and purpose. The process and journey that I am on is preordained and its up to me by faith to walk it out!

I tell you what though, leaps of faith are scary at times! I chose to put my story out there for the world that was a big leap for me! As I sat there finilizing everything and the button of “click to publish” was waiting to be pressed I had a moment of doubt flood me. I reached out to my life coach and asked should I really press this button?

Withour any hesitation at all she said ro me yes you should! I sat on edge for a few days waiting for it to come back approved for publish and available online! When it did go live it was one of the most joyful, tearfilled times of my life!

With that one successfully completed I have begun to work on my next book. I look forward to one day hearing the impact my writings have had on people.

Cynthia 💝