Biblical Identification

Martha Faith vs. Mary Faith

I was coming into work this morning and after spending some time in prayer and worship and meditation I was driving and in my spiritual minds eye a scene played in me.

That scene was when Lazarus had died and the very two different sisters if Martha and Mary had their own greeting for Jesus when he came to them in Bethany.

Mary so full of faith took Jesus at his every word. She said for when you say my brother will rise again I believe it that whatever you say shall be. (Paraphrased)

Then as she went on knowing that Jesus would do as he daid he would she went on to call for her sister Martha to come to see the teacher and she greeted him with a scalding “Jesus had you been here my brother Lazarus would not be dead” (paraphrase).

Martha so deeply saddend at the death of her brother mounrd as well as the weepers around. Which moved on Jesus as Lazaurus was his friend and “Jesus wept”.

Jesus told Martha:

Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me will live even if he dies, Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?”
John 11:25‭, ‬40 NASB

Martha had to have more reinforcement from Jesus as if to prove to her that He would do what He said he would do.

I can so relate to Martha on many levels and at different times she is mentioned in scripture. But in this case the more as Jesus by the Holy Spirit has been using my leaders to tell me the same message as if to finally get me to trust His word.

Now I know for myself my issue stems from broken trust from people. But, when will I finally disconnect Gods from mere humanity? In the last few days with undergoing a program by my Pastor Juanita Gibbs to 40 day detox from negativity has begun to aide my trusting in God.

Its a work and truthfully its only 3 days into it but I am fully committed to bring the inner changes I need in my soul. These first 3 days are beginning to heal my trust issues with God. But, to also learn to be patient while God does a work in my life.

The Holy Spirit has said through my leaders allow patiencr to have her perfect work. Trust God that he will come through as there is a time and season for all things and this season is to plant me by the stream of the living waters to grow and flourish and in time a harvest will come.

I need to get so deeply rooted by the streams of living water that I will flourish in season and out of season. That is when the glory of the Lord can be fully manifested in my life the more as the empowerment comes by His spirit as I send my roots out deep to have His spirit flow through my spirit. This is how pastor says I live more by the spirit.

I may have been a Martha in my faith for a good portion of my faith life these last 11 years since I wasnt raised in church as a kid, but even as a kid in the faith it is time to take off the Martha faith and put on the Mary faith!

Faith can be transformed as I allow the process God wants me to ealk through mold and shape my life! In time it will be a transformed faith testimony I will have! Its begun by the wonderful 40-day program that Pastor started and I look forward to my faith coming up and not going back to what it has been!

Stir it up!

Got to have faith!

Reminds me of a song when I was a kid by George Michael.

To have faith means a great many things! To me faith is a belief in God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit or commonly identified as the Holy Trinity.

What is this faith?

Well, its a belief in a God who sent in flesh His only son to be born, raised, get baptised, do ministry, be cruisifed, burried and raised from the dead after three days.

Jesus after he was resurrected from the dead in the time he spent with the disciples told Thomas as he doubted Jesus had appeared to them while he was out. Jesus said “It is nore blessed to those who believe and have not seen.”

He had to see Jesus in his post resurrection form and put his hand in the nail holes in order to believe over believing and having not seen. But, isn’t that how our humanity is? We want to see before we believe?

Ok well I will say yes one of them is me. I have been so geared toward seeing amd believing its unreal. When that method is contrary to the way of the kingdom. Pastor Junaita Gibbs has taught us that the verse we walk by faith and not sight, and the just shall live by faith.

Little did I know that having belief in Jesus established a well within me. That well is where faith flows freely to my being and as Pastor elaborates from 1 Thessaloninans 5:23 to my spirit, soul, and body. Each part of me needs the touch of the flow of faith. But, I have to access whats been made available.

The encounter with Jesus and the woman at the well fits so perfectly.

Therefore the Samaritan woman said to Him, “How is it that You, being a Jew, ask me for a drink since I am a Samaritan woman?” (For Jews have no dealings with Samaritans.) Jesus answered and said to her, “If you knew the gift of God, and who it is who says to you, ‘Give Me a drink,’ you would have asked Him, and He would have given you living water.” John 4:9‭-‬10 NASB

All she had to do was believe on Jesus and the water would then flow from her inner most being. That belief is our tap into the springs from which everything flows from Him.

The more I believe and have faith, trust, hope, and love in a God who is faithful, trustworthy, timeless, and exponential in what he does then the flow from my inner most being can be that of him more than it is currently of the contents of my soul.

The damage in my soul that leaks out into the flow is like toxic waste polluting the flow. Just like when toxic waste is dumped into a natural stream it is shut off and cleaned up.

As to my soul needing cleaned up so that the things within wont kill the new life in the spirit that wants to come forth, but cannot with the overwhelming toxicity my soul contains.

~Love Life~Live Life~😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

But what about…

I can do it myself. What can you do to help me?

In the fleshly pride that it is that is the mindset I have had about some things in my spiritual journey of faith.

The last 2 days I must say have been the most interesting yet as its been consistent of God speaking and revealing and confirming things.

What a God I serve!


Its all boiled down to dealing with my trust issue.


I have trust issues and I can unashamedly confess this. For healing comes when confession takes place as the power of the issue looses its grip.

To take the first step to deal with my trust issue after confessing it is to go to God!

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 NASB

But, why am I weary? Oh yeah the trust issue…I figured I could work to make it go away, suppress it to make it go away, or be totally in fear and not do anything. To be honest in some degrees I have done all three of those.

I did not have enough trust in God to help me to find healing and wholeness. Not within my own strength anyway. I would say that it began to grow with the addition of my current pastor Juanita Gibbs. She has so lovingly came into my life to help me walk a process of transforming and growing in my soul!

Alot of my faith journey has been one of pleasing people over myself. Yes! I have been a people pleaser! What ddi it profit me, stress, much self work, rejection, etc.

Now with Pastors coaching of my life the people pleasing is getting tips and wisdom to manage it, but to know whats people pleasing and what is flowing in the fruit of the spirit.

Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.
Galatians 6:9 NASB

I put more trust in humanity than I did God by being a people pleaser. And that doesn’t please God! For if I do unto others as I would have done unto me that would be flowing from fruit and not stressing to please people. Trusting that God see’s a pure heart of service unto him over man helps me to build trust in God to begin to make a shift.

I have to begin to put more confidence in the truth of His word. It contains the power already, but I have to access it by faith and hope. The more my soul learns to wait on the Lord patience has to be at work.

I wait for the Lord , my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 NASB

God has me to wait on Him to grow in character, so He give me work on myself to do. My pastor coming along side as my inner life coach has begun to help deliver and heal areas of my soul.

For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think; but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith. Romans 12:3 NASB

There has been many times in my learning to trust God that I have doubted I had enough faith to grow or heal. Pastor has told me I have to use my measure of faith and work it to begin to be made whole. The contents of my soul have to be treated as they have caused infection in my life.

And Jesus answered and said to them, ” It is not those who are well who need a physician, but those who are sick. Luke 5:31 NASB

Jesus came and provided himself as a way for that to happen in my life. Isaiah 61 is one of my favorites that Jesus proclaimed in His time that the spirit of the Lord was upon Him to heal, deliver, and set free. That same is true even now the Holy Spirit os that very nature. But, I have to trust that nature to be made whole.

And He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.” Luke 8:48 NASB

The more I place my utmost full trust in God, manage people pleasing and trusting in humanity over God, stop doubting him, trust the God given people He has provided the more healing can take place and I can work toward wholeness and growing in maturity.

And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
James 1:4 NASB

I have to continue to be patient with God, but myself also healing and growing are a process of time and committed work of believing in God, hoping in His word, casting all my cares in God, dealing with stuff when things bother me, stop suppressing and work diligently toward being mature(perfect) and lacking in nothing. Seeing that He is my supply and all I have need of is found in Him and his love for me(the world).

With the help of My Pastor Juanita Gibbs and the Lord and doing my part in time being whole in my soul will be my testiment of faith!

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Faith is it a crutch?

When I began to walk deeper in the faith, I had it said to me that I was using it as a crutch for life!

But, is faith a crutch?

To me I will wholeheartedly say NO! Faith is not a crutch!

Faith is a way of living!

Faith is a relationship with God through believing in His only son Jesus Christ that He died for the sins of the world and was raised from the dead after 3 days. He spent timr with his disciples after he was resurrrd and ascended to the side of thr Father thus sending the Holy Spirit comforter to us in Hid place.

Some see that as living with crutch a crutch but it is so much more than that. It is having a divine connection through, prayer/meditation, worship, fasting, service unto the Creator our God.

He gave us free will to choose to love and live for him. God is a gentleman He could have built us to without free will choice, but he didn’t. He loves us!

He loves us so much to give His son as a ransom for us, so as to not see us apart from Him in eternity. He just lets us choose to love him in return.

Leaning in the everlastingness of who God really is, is more stable and secure than leaning on the rver changing world and its standard. Gods standard is firm that is a sure thing.

Having a life of faith isn’t a weakness, but of strength. Its a trust in what is unseen. Jesus himself even addressed it that it is more blessed of those who believe and haven’t seen.

So, why is faith seen as a crutch or weakness?

To be honest the answers are too vast and too many to get into and I won’t. But I want to encourage anyone that has faith in Jesus Christ to keep the faith and keep your confession of faith strong as it will be tested, even as you press on in faith it gets tested. Having faith does’t make life problem free it just helps you get through trials of life.

~Cynthia 😍


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As a professed believer in Jesus Christ I suffer from yes unbelief.

But how is that possible?

Well, for me unbelief, doubt, negativity, and fear have run my life from my soul. They were set ways built inside of me through my life to the point of the discovery.

A believer has unbelief, have you ever heard of such a thing?

I had areas of unbelief living on the inside of me thus as my Pastor told me creating my world.

Yes, I believe in God, Son and Spirit!

It was my personal belief system toward myself that God would do miracles for me as I have doubt and negativity within my mind. I doubted that God would come through in things for me. I have fear he would forget me. I worried wouldn’t God show up in my trouble.

My inner factions of those very things needed to be touched and challenged with truth of the word as those things became lofty within me and set themself up as supreme in my being!

My wonderful Pastor (see blog sponsor) took on the challenge to hit every one of the factions living in me that my inner workings made rule my life.

The anointing destroyes the yoke and the anointing she carries has moved through and has begun to tear down those lofty things to be replaced with faith, hope, and love in God for who He is!

I am now working my way from unbelief toward belief!

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