Life Changes During A Global Pandemic

In life, the time will never be right, but when God presents an opportunity; it is then up to us to trust the presentation and take a step of faith!

“Listen carefully, I am about to do a new thing, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even put a road in the wilderness, Rivers in the desert.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭43:19‬ ‭AMP‬‬

I’ve written about this before somewhere I am sure, but the relevancy is so present in my life the month of February that it needs to be expressed again. Many times we pray to God for things like: “God, I need a new job” or “God, I want someone to love me for who I am” or “God, I need you to make changes around me”.

But what happens when the new job opportunity comes and you decide to stay where you are at.

What happens when the guy/girl comes along that will love you for who you are, but they are outside of your type.

What happens when God wants to change something about your character instead of fully removing you from situations, he wants to perfect something in you, but all you see is the error of others and not your own.

We have all in some way or another done one if not all three of those things I’ve mentioned. I know I have! But, what I’ve had to grow into and learn is to seek God about what He is wanting to do, trying to do, and presenting in my life. Now, not everything is from God, this is why we must turn to the Lord in prayer to find out the storyline behind things.

“Trust in and rely confidently on the LORD with all your heart And do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know and acknowledge and recognize Him, And He will make your paths straight and smooth [removing obstacles that block your way].”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3:5-6‬ ‭AMP‬‬

If I hadn’t sat my pride down in moment when I wanted out and allowed God to work through my character defects, would I have been able to eventually get a breakthrough in an area thats been long barred from exiting. No! Had I not done the work which allowed God to use an individual to help me grow from my character defects to help promote me to my next level of an opportunity that came that would remove things like poverty, low self worth, and intense levels of anxiety, high levels of offense that none of those things would translate to where God was able to move me to had the work I needed done on my soul not been achieved.

I have so many more character flaws and defects to work through and overcome, but I am committed to making the changes I need to in this life. To improve my quality of life in all areas, as well as, preparing me for when the next opportunity comes in; which I pray is divine partnership of two Godly people. So, since its not presented I may not be ready yet and thats cool, cause I can work out the kinks I need to before they show up to make sure that I am not bringing in more fuel to a situation that the enemy fights against! Oh yeah Satan hates seeing Godly partnerships, so anything I can do now to not allow him a foot hold when that time comes I am all for slamming that door shut by doin the work I need to do on myself.

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Faith Moves Mountains

“For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.”
‭‭Mark‬ ‭11:23‬ ‭KJV‬‬

More and more as I journey along the road of life and the life as a believer in Jesus Christ, at different junctures we will often need a new level of faith. For unto us a measure was given, it then becomes our job to work that faith, grow the faith, and manifest from that faith.

Back in 2017 God had to put me in a place to grow my faith to believe for a vehicle after mine put me down. He had already begun to soften my heart when I was already half way through a negativity detox of my soul. He also made sure to surround me with people that would encourage that faith and help keep the fire stoked to see a manifestation of God opening opportunity when every odd was against me to obtain a new/used vehicle.

I had to grow that level of faith from the measure I was given as a believer. As time passed and that level of faith saw me through my battle with COVID and survived to talk about it, show to others God at work in my COVID battle and more. When you hit the end of a grade level and pass the test, your often sent to the next level, it will be new, it will take an even greater faith in that next level.

But, what about the grey area of passing the test and then the next grade promotion? Reflect on the lessons learned, see how you don’t just allow anyone in your ear to convince you that your choices are wrong. See how you have grown and showed strength instead of emotionalism. See how your able to stand for what you are truly worth instead of what others may see you as to keep an upper hand on you!

In the grey area, real hearts are exposed!

In the grey area agendas are revealed!

In the grey area you see that folks purposely withheld!

In the grey area you see truth and please don’t ignore it!

I have so much more to grow in as it relates to faith so that more mountains can be moved. I have of recent had ear-mites “attempt” to deter my path by saying things of “I wish you went to a mega church so you can find your husband” or “I wish you luck in what your about to do and I hope it works out”!

I stopped them in those moment and said I am going to church where I am supposed to be going. Your opinion of that holds no relevance and my husband of whom God will send yes will be a church going man! When the time comes God will send him to visit my church. God works in the small better then he ever will in the “mega”! I also stopped the one about my current choices and I said boldly that yes it will work out! For they have no idea of the mountain it was to cross. These folks that said this may have been an “elder” in age, but the wisdom of God supersedes that when His spirit is in something and not the opinions of flesh and folks that have lived their life already!

When peoples opinions or the worlds opinions hold you back from something God has His hand upon its time to take a look at the hand you allow to steer your life.

Have you allowed the worlds view of money rule your every decision? If so, holding on to the energy of money only keeps it away from you! Freely giving of finances is an energy that creates an open flow.

When you allow “peers” to influence your choice of church because of their ideals that is an energy of control that we must be careful of. The energy of free-will is God-given, exercise it. Fast, pray, seek outside council to help you hear from God on what is destined for your life.

Folks may have “somewhat” good intentions in mind, but not every intention is pure in nature. Be wise and seek answers before choosing based on someone else’s life choices. Cause in the end it will be your faith and what of it you choose to operate from that will help you move mountains in life and reach your destiny!

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Personal Reflections

Corona Virus and Quarantine Slowed Down The World

I have come to realize that when I allow people into my life, I become to dependent on their need of me. This slowing down has really brought this reality to the surface of my existence.

Being an essential worker and still working through the pandemic and more work being placed on my shoulders at work that has been seen as a reason to not need me in areas any longer. So in a sense the work I used to do was outsourced to another to complete in fear that my overwhelm at work wouldn’t be able to withstand critique.

When countless times in the past it was explicitly stated by me that that work wasn’t burdensome. So assumption has been on the scene that I couldn’t handle one more thing. I love how people think for me, but you better not even think of thinking for them.

At this point I need to evaluate who I have become dependent on and why I have done such, to then begin to work on building myself to where; as I am replaced it wont be so heart wrenching.

This life during this pandemic has not been all sugar and spice. There are times I question my faith and ask whats the point any more. Only to realize its only myself and dealing with humanity that brings on those pondering questions. God doesn’t change – people do! This last few months have been like the 8th circle of hell. To be perfectly honest, I am tired of fighting!

I have some changing myself to do at this point and learning how to keep fighting against all odds when folks tell you that your beyond help!

When you fall from Grace, look up to see who is standing over you saying “i told you so”…

I hope everyone is doing way better at this then I am..

Cynthia 🌺

👣TAKE THE STEP! 👣

What happens when we step out in faith?

Fear often holds us back from taking steps of faith. I can attest to this more often then not honestly. Fear of what others think, what would they say about me, what will my image be in this?

Fear keeps us in a place of no movement. We become so fixated by fear we are paralyzed to the point that if one move is rationalized then a hoard of fear rises us to speak defeat. They rise up so strong and so loud within we crumble under them.

And He said, “Come!” And Peter got out of the boat, and walked on the water and came toward Jesus.
Matthew 14:29 NASB

Overcoming fear allows you the freedom and confidence to begin to take steps out of the norm and do new things God has been calling you to all along. God has been waiting for steps to be taken by you or I to show to him utter dependance and trust in He who is our everything.

The first step is the hardest to take but the most liberating. God didn’t hive us a spirit of fear ( 2 Tim 1:7). God wants us to be confident children in who we are in Him we were predestined as His children (Eph 1:5) and Gods children should be free from fear as fear is of the world and not the kingdom of God.

Take baby steps til your confident to take bigger steps in faith. The steps you take draw you from the boat of normality and into the place where God can begin to do supernatural things in and through your life.

Fear is a liar and of the enemy!

Learn to rise above the lies!

Learn of your position in the kingdom!

Seek councel and wisdom from others who can help you properly.

Find community of like believers to plug into and connect with for accountability.

Be encouraged today that no fear has a place in Gods children and He has out in is the power to overcome.

~Cynthia 😍

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Relationship Status

Don’t give up on hope that the right one will come along!

Many times as a Single person we can get discouraged seeing others pairing off, getting to go on dates, getting engaged, getting married while we may still be waiting for someone to come into our life.

We are bombarded with questions at times by folks asking especially around the holidays:

Don’t you want to be married?

Don’t you want to have a family?

Why are you single?

The list can go on and on!

These things can become depressing if dwelled on in relation to feelings of hopelessness. But, I have to say and encourage you to not give up. There are times that will come that you will feel like throwing in the towel of hoping and believing for that to happen.

but just as it is written, ” Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard , And which have not entered the heart of man , All that God has prepared for those who love Him .”
1 Corinthians 2:9 NASB

In the time of waiting spend it getting to know yourself. Grow in areas that need maturing or need more adult mindset in. Grow in who you are as a woman or man.

For me as a woman of Faith in God I want to grow in who God says I am, who I can be, and who I can grow to be. Many times we think we are ready for something but God knows our character may not be just there to handle it.

Had I been involved in a relationship while growing in some of the things I needed to develop in, I probably would have destroyed the thing, just being honest.

Becoming secure in who we are as a person is vital also I have been finding. Because if our worth, image and confindence is given to anyone or anything outside of God, when its gone we become devistated, well thats how it was in my case.

Don’t just hook up with people to say your in a relatiomship. Wait for the proper time when its not out of desperation but out of complementation.

When they come to complement your life. The hook ups with wrong people in wrong times are distractions and can even pull you away from God given destinies. When its right it will be evident as there won’t pressure, haste, anxiousness, but a peace as it will be of God and not what we could devise in and of our own self.

Be discovered for having a beautiful mind, and quiet and gentle spirit, fully knowing your worth based on who you are in Christ, accepting your baggage you come with, in knowing your working and growing to overcome them, be healed, delivered and whole in Christ.

Then the Lord answered me and said, “Record the vision And inscribe it on tablets, That the one who reads it may run. “For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay.
Habakkuk 2:2‭-‬3 NASB

Make sure you have a great support system. The fellowship of like minds can help keep you on course, be there in times of weakness ehen you need to talk things out and pray you through difficult times. The time will come if its a desire placed in your heart by God. The vision has an appointed time though it may delay it will come and be on time meaning His time!

Don’t Give Up Hope!

~Cynthia 😍

Waiting

Answers will come at times from the opposite direction.

What happens when we get so fixated for God to move in certain ways. God never acts or does the same thing in the same way even in the word of God. How many times in the word of God was a blind man healed? Not one of them was healed in the same way he healed the other.

Humans we are creatures of habit. Well some of us anyway, ok I know I can be. We see God used a certain person to bless us or help be an answer to a prayer, or something mysterious happens for our good and we begin to think/assume that well, God moved this way before He will move that way again. That isn’t how God operates.

To have utter and complete trust in Him we have to remain in faith, keep hope alive, and rest in what He said He would do. Our job is trust, believe and work on ourself. We have to have a unmovable, unshakeable belief that God will gome through for is in whatever way we need, we need not fixate on how, who, when and where so much as to just be open to receive it from the direction it comes in.

In these lay a multitude of those who were sick, blind, lame, and withered, [waiting for the moving of the waters; for an angel of the Lord went down at certain seasons into the pool and stirred up the water; whoever then first, after the stirring up of the water, stepped in was made well from whatever disease with which he was afflicted.] A man was there who had been ill for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he had already been a long time in that condition, He said to him, “Do you wish to get well?” The sick man answered Him, “Sir, I have no man to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up, but while I am coming, another steps down before me.” Jesus said to him, “Get up, pick up your pallet and walk.” Immediately the man became well, and picked up his pallet and began to walk. Now it was the Sabbath on that day. John 5:3‭-‬9 NASB

In the scripture passage here above we see an example of this. The man knew that the angel would come and stir the waters and he would be healed, of course there are other things I could talk about in relation to this but for now I want to keep focused on He looked to an angel of God coming to stir the waters only to get his healing. Had he not been open to receive the blessing of healing when He shifted his view to Jesus, he may have missed it all together.

He could have been so fixated that the angel stirring the waters was His only way to be healed that He would have missed the greatest opportunity in his lifetime. Don’t we get like that at times? I know I have! When he shifted his focus to Jesus at the question He posed to him by Jesus “do you wish to be well?” and what Jesus was saying the man opened himself up that his blessing could come from a different direction then he had thought the last 38-years of his life.

The man did verbally rationalize with Jesus about how he could be healed, but Jesus knowing the man been long time in that condition saw He longed to be healed of his affliction. He still in his heart opened up to Jesus that healing could come a different way. How many times had the name of Jesus come up in discussions by the pool of water. With the news spreading far about the miracles Jesus was doing I am sure that the man by the pool side had some knowing that miracles were taking place by the man named Jesus.

Shift our focus to God by trusting in Him. This also is seeking Him and His kingdom first. When we look to Him in genuine relationship He knows the intentions of our heart. He knows our thoughts, our cares, concerns, worries, etc. But, He wants to know that we fully rely on Him for everything. Seek His face, worship and praise Him! Resting in His faithfulness while doing what we know to do until answers come.

Waiting Is Hard – Leibester Award

Allowing your soul to enter a space of wait is difficult.

So many in this day and age and yes I include myself in this find it easy to get caught up in everything. We see people doing things we wanted to do, having things we want to have, etc. This over time if not handled properly can create idolitry, causes comparison, leads to self-works. Can cause strife, bitterness, pride and many other things.

I wait for the Lord , my soul doth wait, and in his word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 KJV

Doing things in self-work eventually wears you down. Cause if it is outside the will of God for your life you will find a constant depletion of energy. Working and doing things within Gods will, will still be work, just not exhaustive work. Many times we know we are operating outside his will as we have no peace thus causing exhaustion. We entertain worry, doubt, fear of losing what we worked to get

Allowing God to do things on His time will save you peace and energy. Gods time is outside of our time. Thats why many times we get caught up in the notion God isn’t working or moving I got to do it all myself. He is at work, He is moving, perhaps not in the way hoped. He wants to develop character, integrity, fruit, prudence in your life before bringing things waited for.

Allowing waiting to be a time of preparation shifts focus from what you don’t have to what can I grow and develop in, in my here and now. In states of self-work we are consumed with obtaining what we waited for so much it can blind us to things we need to see that could be hurt down the road. When our focus shifts blinders come off and then we can see the real deal of reality.

We have to allow waiting to be seen in our mind as a preparation time and not as a punishment. Believe me having that kind of mindset keeps you in a defeated place. Grow in womanhood or manhood. Grow in God dive into His word and study it out. Be part of a church that leads you to growth in spirit, soul and body (1 Thess 5:23). Learn to take charge of your mind and shift it by renewal (Romans 12:1-2 & Eph 4:23). Having the right Pastor, Spiritual mother and father makes a huge difference. I know I am thankful for mine.

They know there are things I am waiting on God to bring and do in my life. They pour into me to help me get renewed to shift my mind back if I gone astray and its causing character defects. I will keep waiting patiently, all the while growing, developing and praying until doors open. This keeps me in a place of operating in faith with works.

I pray this encourages anyone waiting for things to happen in their life.

For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.
Habakkuk 2:3 KJV

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Leibester Award

Many gracious thanks to Laura M Bailey of All The Shoes I Wear for this nomination and sharing my blog space with your followers. Be sure to visit her blog 🙂

RULES

Acknowledge the blogger that gave it to you and display the award

Answer 11 questions that the blogger gave you.

Nominate 5 other bloggers and notify them of their nomination

“This award is meant to encourage new bloggers. From The Global Aussie: “The earliest case of the award goes as far back as 2011. Liebster in German means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome.”

To my Nominees, choose any or all the question above OR you may instead, list 11 random facts about yourself.

My Random 11 Facts

  1. I am part of a wonderful church family at Reformation Developmental Center in Tarboro, NC. Pastored by the amazing Juanita Gibbs of whom is a Pastor, Blogger, Life Coach, Author and Professor, Inspiritation to many on many ways. She has helped culivate my writing, ordained me as a youth teacher and has helped uncover gifts, talents and abilities within me.
  2. I love being a youth teacher to my lil joys and developing lesson and plans to bring the word of God to them on their level
  3. I enjoy writing and studying the word.
  4. I will be an author one day.
  5. I enjoy a cup of coffee
  6. I love Lush Cosmetics for their Sleepy lotion and bath bombs
  7. I love doing administrative works
  8. I enjoy encouraging people
  9. I love Mexican food
  10. I want to travel to many foreign destinations.
  11. Photography I love

My Nominees Are…..

Kelleydiy

Kathleenriley777

Saving Joyfully

Queenie

Laci, McGee Travel Tales

Seek Wisdom

Wisdom is a precious jewel!

For someone like me I am quick to get right into my head and think think about everything. This causes me to get into more logic than I do faith.

My logic and reasoning can be so loud that the voice of the spirit in me trying to speak is squealched out. I have been learning to stop that when my logic kicks in. Its just like starting a car you know when you put the key in to start it up. I have had to become aware of when I do that and hault it.

I directed my mind to know, to investigate and to seek wisdom and an explanation, and to know the evil of folly and the foolishness of madness.
Ecclesiastes 7:25 NASB

In this season I am learning that I have to re-direct my mond from what it may know, assume, view as suspecious, see as fear and shut it down at the gate and turn to voice of reason.

God has placed before me in my leadership sound coucel, a woman of God whom is full of wisdom. Pastor Juanita Gibbs is one that I am greatful that I can turn to and present what is currently going on in my life and world to get the wisdom I need to navigate life, the situation and things better.

My foolishness has been keeping the issues I face to myself in a way of pride, not allowing voices of wisdom to help me out. This has been the fown fall of many a folly in my life. I have been the cause of much of my own pain and hurt cause of leaning on my own limited understanding.

Seeking good Godly councel has been definitley a trajectory changer. I am finding I am getting through things better than I was doing it in myself;(pride).

I am so eternally greatful for her and my whole church family for the love, support, ear and arms in times like there have been. As Pastor beautifully brought out last Wednesday in teleclass. Find your spiritual family that will help you grow and mature.

~Cynthia 😍

Thank You!

Just a quick note!

First and foremostly I would like to thank my dear Pastor Juanita Gibbs (website, facebook, and book link) for suggesting that I begin to blog! You my dear Pastor have labored for me to begin to exercise my gifts, talents and abilities by your encouragement, love, care and support of me and what you saw in me as potential to walk out for that I am greatful.

She blogs also you guys check out and follow her blog: Pastor Blog Link

My blog finally reached 50+ followers from around the world.

Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin… Zechariah 4:10

I have only been blogging since August and the progress I pray continues to build.

Never would I have imagined I would be a blogger and writing like I do without my wonderful Pastor seeing this ability within me to bring forth through labors in prayer on my behalf that I will forever be greatful for all she has and is and will do in my life as a great influence on my life.

~Love Life~Live Life~😍

~Cynthia 😉

Walk with me…

We are not to be an island to ourself!

Human nature longs to feel needed, wanted, desired, appreciated, and ao many other things that God built within us to need Him and to need people in our life that are filled with him.

We can isolate due to many things like hurt, rejection, acceptance issues, being an introvert, or so many other reasons as to why we disconnect from others of humanity to not go through some things again or to not deal, whatever the case may be we are not to go at things alone.

I know for myself I have done some isolating in my past when things happened I wanted to be far away to not open my heart, my ability to love (which was small-it needed work), my obcessive care, etc.

But, what has happened is that my Pastor has lovingly shown me that is not only error to live as such a way as God built us for human connection. He built us to love one another as ourself, we are built to love our enemies, we are built to love our neighbor, we are built to guard our heart, we are built to observe the fruit of a person to know if its genuine or deception.

This is how we can know who is to walk with us in life and those who may be passing through your life to teach us something or to show us where we may need to improve. Iron sharpens iron in the life of a believer. But we to are called to love which is the greatest command of all.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia