Road to Recovery after COVID

The path to recovery from COVID is full of uncertainty!

Since the last time I blogged, I have been deeply into getting my body steered toward being COVID free and toward rebounding from the effects of this slow moving virus that has so greatly impacted the world we live in today.

I spent 22 days in isolation to prevent the spread of this virus. I kept it from my aging father of whom lives in the same dwelling as I, and I didn’t pass it on to anyone in whom I had any contact with. Praise God!

In the days of knowing I contracted the virus, in the small area of which I am employed it became a virtual witch hunt of who infected who and how and all the scenarios that we none had any full control over. I may have mentioned it in my previous writing, that at the time I contracted COVID there was a highly concentrated number of cases in that small town. This fact alone makes it mute on how I contracted it as in such a small area, this spread faster and quicker! If your someone like me that works in the public, handling funds, face-to-face encounters, then its bound to happen.

As soon as folks heard my story of having COVID hysteria kicked in, everyone I had been in contact with rushed to get tested. Which is all fine cause that was the point on making it aware that I contracted the virus. Many got tested and one after another came back negative, I was so thankful to hear it as I am around some more advanced in age men and women that have underlying medical conditions that needed to be careful around with this.

One that I work with about 14 days after I had the virus, she contracted it. It was told to me by someone in their circle that this person told most that she had communication with, that she had contracted the virus from me. Smh. We shared the same work space yesterday and from her lips she said I didn’t get it from you, but in her continuing story said that on a day she went into a shared office space (now mind you. This was a week after our office had been shut down and sterilized) said she went to my desk and got something and felt horrible since. So in one breathe she says she didn’t get from me and with another she between lines said I got it from you! The heart will always reveal itself if you pay close attention to the words.

Its amazing to also see how you are treated once you have had COVID. I went to work to attempt to get back into some level of normalcy after the testing reveled I was now negative. You walk into a place and immediately you hear “RONA” and the sound of ur not allowed in here coming from the lips of people as you see from your peripheral vision the ones on the side of you step back as if you was so super contagious they could not share the same air in-which to breathe.

Its also been super refreshing to be welcomed back into the presence of people. I am very much a people person, I like to connect and plug into peoples energies especially people you get good vibes from. Some have been so welcoming of me returning back to health that its a reflection of Gods loving character in the earth. Of which is something I may write about in blogs to come what my time of isolation revealed about me to work on for my own personal development.

My body is still in recuperation mode as I still have not regained the full taste and sense of smell and as of late really bad tinnitus has developed. This is where the path to my recovery is uncertain. I went to my family physician Monday to kinda be left feeling as if I was crazy for having tinnitus and refusing to get their flu shot among other things. Because of all the strict guidelines at doctors I had to be sure I made them away I had, had the corona/covid-19 and that I was now clear.

Then it was pressure to get a flu shot. I had to stand firm that I didn’t want and will not get a flu shot! They didn’t understand my reasoning after just surviving COVID, why would I purposely insert flu into my body that still hasn’t full rebounded from the corona virus. They insisted, well it doesn’t give you the flu! I said no! Four times I had to tell them No! They gave no treatment for my tinnitus and only said allow time to pass to see if it goes away as she never heard of this being a side effect from COVID. I’m like do you want my head to see if what I am telling you is true!?

I have begun doin my own therapy on sound treatments for the ringing, taste therapy to attempt to get that back and Smelling therapy to begin to have that come back. I have also enlisted the wisdom of a retired medical care worker whom knows a lot about things in homeopathic ways of treatments and therapy to help me along and her wisdom has proven time and time again. She made me her own healing soup therapy that she uses countlessly time and time again that has prevented pneumonia and more in her close connections to keep them healthy and from worser sicknesses.

It is my firm belief that getting this soup in the early phases of being diagnosed with Covid-19 that this soup kept the virus from moving into my heart and lungs. That of which I am thankful for. The studies show that COVID effects vital organs like heart, lungs, and now recently they are seeing the effects on the brain with the side effects that I am experiencing. The part of my brain for my sensory reception has been impacted the most in my case of COVID.

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Tested for Covid

This stuff is every where and even working in a small rural community it is making its presence known.

In the last few weeks in the small community where I work and formally resided businesses have begun to close up for safety precautions when employees of said businesses tested positive for COVID-19 aka Corona Virus.

Two restaurants closed up, the town hall, and another communications place began remote working when employees tested positive for Corona. Its even been made aware to me that a substitute delivery driver who was on our route for two weeks that their mother died from this horrific virus. To make it worse that person lives next door to their parents and you know visiting sick parents is a given. Needless to say all this going on I fell down the rabbit hole of worse case scenarios. With all this goin on the local health department ran a testing drive on Monday. August 17th.

The testing was free. All you had to do was drive up, fill out a few forms, then they tested you. To be honest I’ve had my conspiracy theories about all this Corona testing like how people got tested, then turns out they had it and all the randomness of this thing. I watched the nurse put on new gloves, new gown, new mask, my new tube from which my sample will go into, as well as, the new plastic tester brush as she approached my vehicle window. She had me verify my info then she opened the plastic brush and took the same from inside one nostril. For about 3 hours it felt as though that brush was still up my nose, if anything she cleaned out the whole cavity!

Afterward she told me I would get a call within 24 to 36 hours with my result. That is the wrong thing to tell someone that thinks as much as I do.

Tuesday came and everytime my cellphone rang my heart would sink thinking ok here your results. But, none of the calls I got that day were from the health department. Wednesday came and still no call I was beginning to get worried. By Thursday I was so on edge, but I had stepped away from my phone and missed a call. I called it back and it was the health department with my results.

She proceeded to say: “We are calling you with your results of your COVID-19 testing you had done at the health department testing drive” I said “yes ma’am ok”. She said, “your results came back Covid NEGATIVE”

I have never been so relieved in my life yo hear that phrase! But, do many that it has hit my heart and deepest healing prayers go out to each and everyone. It has been ravaging families with the deadliest impact in some cases. I pray this epidemic ends soon its doing a toll on people emotional, mental, physical and financial state.

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Personal Reflections

Corona Virus and Quarantine Slowed Down The World

I have come to realize that when I allow people into my life, I become to dependent on their need of me. This slowing down has really brought this reality to the surface of my existence.

Being an essential worker and still working through the pandemic and more work being placed on my shoulders at work that has been seen as a reason to not need me in areas any longer. So in a sense the work I used to do was outsourced to another to complete in fear that my overwhelm at work wouldn’t be able to withstand critique.

When countless times in the past it was explicitly stated by me that that work wasn’t burdensome. So assumption has been on the scene that I couldn’t handle one more thing. I love how people think for me, but you better not even think of thinking for them.

At this point I need to evaluate who I have become dependent on and why I have done such, to then begin to work on building myself to where; as I am replaced it wont be so heart wrenching.

This life during this pandemic has not been all sugar and spice. There are times I question my faith and ask whats the point any more. Only to realize its only myself and dealing with humanity that brings on those pondering questions. God doesn’t change – people do! This last few months have been like the 8th circle of hell. To be perfectly honest, I am tired of fighting!

I have some changing myself to do at this point and learning how to keep fighting against all odds when folks tell you that your beyond help!

When you fall from Grace, look up to see who is standing over you saying “i told you so”…

I hope everyone is doing way better at this then I am..

Cynthia 🌺

Keep on Walking

Be watchful of the traps people set for you on your path of life!

“Establish my footsteps in Your word…”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭119:133‬ ‭NASB‬‬

When your in a season of growth and development, many want to come along and hinder that growth!

When your trying as hard as you can to change in areas that need to be changed in to only be told things that only cause you depression, the notion to give up, walk away from God, walk away from the church and spiritual family… those are things I have had to learn to become aware of and take a stand up against. Many see it as being combative and it is, but when you are run down you have every right to defend yourself!

But the moment you do that you become the bad guy, your messing with a call on someones life, your twisted, sick, immature and how you are is unacceptable. Never mind what they did, said or how they took the situation and said things that were hurtful. So yes, I in-turn unleashed hurtful things as a retaliation.

The bible says turn the other cheek, but baby I can assure you that is hard for this one to do. I took hurtful, hateful words most all my life and I will not just take them anymore! You cause me pain, I will cause you pain in return!

Is that being petty?

Yes!

Is it mature?

No!

When your a wounded soul fight or flight is an automatic response mechanism! Will I justify what I have done to harm another? Already done that by blaming it on wounds and by retaliating because sore places within me are touched!

The only thing now to do is keep on walking! (Psalm 119:133)

Seek forgiveness from the Lord and plead mercy on the reaping that will take place from all thats been sown!

When your cover is blown seek the refuge of the shelter of the wings (Psalm 91).

“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High Will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the LORD, “My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust!” For it is He who delivers you from the snare of the trapper And from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His pinions, And under His wings you may seek refuge; His faithfulness is a shield and bulwark. You will not be afraid of the terror by night, Or of the arrow that flies by day; Of the pestilence that stalks in darkness, Or of the destruction that lays waste at noon. A thousand may fall at your side And ten thousand at your right hand, But it shall not approach you. You will only look on with your eyes And see the recompense of the wicked. For you have made the LORD, my refuge, Even the Most High, your dwelling place. No evil will befall you, Nor will any plague come near your tent. For He will give His angels charge concerning you, To guard you in all your ways. They will bear you up in their hands, That you do not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread upon the lion and cobra, The young lion and the serpent you will trample down. “Because he has loved Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him securely on high, because he has known My name. He will call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him and honor him. With a long life I will satisfy him And let him see My salvation.””
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭91:1-16‬ ‭NASB
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Relationship Status

Don’t give up on hope that the right one will come along!

Many times as a Single person we can get discouraged seeing others pairing off, getting to go on dates, getting engaged, getting married while we may still be waiting for someone to come into our life.

We are bombarded with questions at times by folks asking especially around the holidays:

Don’t you want to be married?

Don’t you want to have a family?

Why are you single?

The list can go on and on!

These things can become depressing if dwelled on in relation to feelings of hopelessness. But, I have to say and encourage you to not give up. There are times that will come that you will feel like throwing in the towel of hoping and believing for that to happen.

but just as it is written, ” Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard , And which have not entered the heart of man , All that God has prepared for those who love Him .”
1 Corinthians 2:9 NASB

In the time of waiting spend it getting to know yourself. Grow in areas that need maturing or need more adult mindset in. Grow in who you are as a woman or man.

For me as a woman of Faith in God I want to grow in who God says I am, who I can be, and who I can grow to be. Many times we think we are ready for something but God knows our character may not be just there to handle it.

Had I been involved in a relationship while growing in some of the things I needed to develop in, I probably would have destroyed the thing, just being honest.

Becoming secure in who we are as a person is vital also I have been finding. Because if our worth, image and confindence is given to anyone or anything outside of God, when its gone we become devistated, well thats how it was in my case.

Don’t just hook up with people to say your in a relatiomship. Wait for the proper time when its not out of desperation but out of complementation.

When they come to complement your life. The hook ups with wrong people in wrong times are distractions and can even pull you away from God given destinies. When its right it will be evident as there won’t pressure, haste, anxiousness, but a peace as it will be of God and not what we could devise in and of our own self.

Be discovered for having a beautiful mind, and quiet and gentle spirit, fully knowing your worth based on who you are in Christ, accepting your baggage you come with, in knowing your working and growing to overcome them, be healed, delivered and whole in Christ.

Then the Lord answered me and said, “Record the vision And inscribe it on tablets, That the one who reads it may run. “For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay.
Habakkuk 2:2‭-‬3 NASB

Make sure you have a great support system. The fellowship of like minds can help keep you on course, be there in times of weakness ehen you need to talk things out and pray you through difficult times. The time will come if its a desire placed in your heart by God. The vision has an appointed time though it may delay it will come and be on time meaning His time!

Don’t Give Up Hope!

~Cynthia 😍

Waiting

Answers will come at times from the opposite direction.

What happens when we get so fixated for God to move in certain ways. God never acts or does the same thing in the same way even in the word of God. How many times in the word of God was a blind man healed? Not one of them was healed in the same way he healed the other.

Humans we are creatures of habit. Well some of us anyway, ok I know I can be. We see God used a certain person to bless us or help be an answer to a prayer, or something mysterious happens for our good and we begin to think/assume that well, God moved this way before He will move that way again. That isn’t how God operates.

To have utter and complete trust in Him we have to remain in faith, keep hope alive, and rest in what He said He would do. Our job is trust, believe and work on ourself. We have to have a unmovable, unshakeable belief that God will gome through for is in whatever way we need, we need not fixate on how, who, when and where so much as to just be open to receive it from the direction it comes in.

In these lay a multitude of those who were sick, blind, lame, and withered, [waiting for the moving of the waters; for an angel of the Lord went down at certain seasons into the pool and stirred up the water; whoever then first, after the stirring up of the water, stepped in was made well from whatever disease with which he was afflicted.] A man was there who had been ill for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he had already been a long time in that condition, He said to him, “Do you wish to get well?” The sick man answered Him, “Sir, I have no man to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up, but while I am coming, another steps down before me.” Jesus said to him, “Get up, pick up your pallet and walk.” Immediately the man became well, and picked up his pallet and began to walk. Now it was the Sabbath on that day. John 5:3‭-‬9 NASB

In the scripture passage here above we see an example of this. The man knew that the angel would come and stir the waters and he would be healed, of course there are other things I could talk about in relation to this but for now I want to keep focused on He looked to an angel of God coming to stir the waters only to get his healing. Had he not been open to receive the blessing of healing when He shifted his view to Jesus, he may have missed it all together.

He could have been so fixated that the angel stirring the waters was His only way to be healed that He would have missed the greatest opportunity in his lifetime. Don’t we get like that at times? I know I have! When he shifted his focus to Jesus at the question He posed to him by Jesus “do you wish to be well?” and what Jesus was saying the man opened himself up that his blessing could come from a different direction then he had thought the last 38-years of his life.

The man did verbally rationalize with Jesus about how he could be healed, but Jesus knowing the man been long time in that condition saw He longed to be healed of his affliction. He still in his heart opened up to Jesus that healing could come a different way. How many times had the name of Jesus come up in discussions by the pool of water. With the news spreading far about the miracles Jesus was doing I am sure that the man by the pool side had some knowing that miracles were taking place by the man named Jesus.

Shift our focus to God by trusting in Him. This also is seeking Him and His kingdom first. When we look to Him in genuine relationship He knows the intentions of our heart. He knows our thoughts, our cares, concerns, worries, etc. But, He wants to know that we fully rely on Him for everything. Seek His face, worship and praise Him! Resting in His faithfulness while doing what we know to do until answers come.

Waiting Is Hard – Leibester Award

Allowing your soul to enter a space of wait is difficult.

So many in this day and age and yes I include myself in this find it easy to get caught up in everything. We see people doing things we wanted to do, having things we want to have, etc. This over time if not handled properly can create idolitry, causes comparison, leads to self-works. Can cause strife, bitterness, pride and many other things.

I wait for the Lord , my soul doth wait, and in his word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 KJV

Doing things in self-work eventually wears you down. Cause if it is outside the will of God for your life you will find a constant depletion of energy. Working and doing things within Gods will, will still be work, just not exhaustive work. Many times we know we are operating outside his will as we have no peace thus causing exhaustion. We entertain worry, doubt, fear of losing what we worked to get

Allowing God to do things on His time will save you peace and energy. Gods time is outside of our time. Thats why many times we get caught up in the notion God isn’t working or moving I got to do it all myself. He is at work, He is moving, perhaps not in the way hoped. He wants to develop character, integrity, fruit, prudence in your life before bringing things waited for.

Allowing waiting to be a time of preparation shifts focus from what you don’t have to what can I grow and develop in, in my here and now. In states of self-work we are consumed with obtaining what we waited for so much it can blind us to things we need to see that could be hurt down the road. When our focus shifts blinders come off and then we can see the real deal of reality.

We have to allow waiting to be seen in our mind as a preparation time and not as a punishment. Believe me having that kind of mindset keeps you in a defeated place. Grow in womanhood or manhood. Grow in God dive into His word and study it out. Be part of a church that leads you to growth in spirit, soul and body (1 Thess 5:23). Learn to take charge of your mind and shift it by renewal (Romans 12:1-2 & Eph 4:23). Having the right Pastor, Spiritual mother and father makes a huge difference. I know I am thankful for mine.

They know there are things I am waiting on God to bring and do in my life. They pour into me to help me get renewed to shift my mind back if I gone astray and its causing character defects. I will keep waiting patiently, all the while growing, developing and praying until doors open. This keeps me in a place of operating in faith with works.

I pray this encourages anyone waiting for things to happen in their life.

For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.
Habakkuk 2:3 KJV

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Leibester Award

Many gracious thanks to Laura M Bailey of All The Shoes I Wear for this nomination and sharing my blog space with your followers. Be sure to visit her blog 🙂

RULES

Acknowledge the blogger that gave it to you and display the award

Answer 11 questions that the blogger gave you.

Nominate 5 other bloggers and notify them of their nomination

“This award is meant to encourage new bloggers. From The Global Aussie: “The earliest case of the award goes as far back as 2011. Liebster in German means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome.”

To my Nominees, choose any or all the question above OR you may instead, list 11 random facts about yourself.

My Random 11 Facts

  1. I am part of a wonderful church family at Reformation Developmental Center in Tarboro, NC. Pastored by the amazing Juanita Gibbs of whom is a Pastor, Blogger, Life Coach, Author and Professor, Inspiritation to many on many ways. She has helped culivate my writing, ordained me as a youth teacher and has helped uncover gifts, talents and abilities within me.
  2. I love being a youth teacher to my lil joys and developing lesson and plans to bring the word of God to them on their level
  3. I enjoy writing and studying the word.
  4. I will be an author one day.
  5. I enjoy a cup of coffee
  6. I love Lush Cosmetics for their Sleepy lotion and bath bombs
  7. I love doing administrative works
  8. I enjoy encouraging people
  9. I love Mexican food
  10. I want to travel to many foreign destinations.
  11. Photography I love

My Nominees Are…..

Kelleydiy

Kathleenriley777

Saving Joyfully

Queenie

Laci, McGee Travel Tales

Instant Gratification

Learning to wait on the Lord in a “gotta have it now” society.

Waiting nowadays is one of the hardest things imaginable. For example its getting colder now as Fall season is upon us and I happened to be a coffee shop this past saturday. The brood of people before me all placed their order and waited.

I placed my order then got to wait also. I went and sat down at the coffee bar and waited what I felt was very patiently. I saw all the folks ahead of me one by one obtain their drink order. The shop manager struck up a conversation with me as he was cleaning, taking out trash, I told him it was obvious it was the busy season amd many orders (like 6) were ahead of mine. The folks ahead of me ordering all left so I was so excited mine was next right.

But, that wasn’t the case at all. The baristas were behind the counter hustling and makin coffee for the drive through orders and in house orders all in a tizzy of coffee madness.

One by one the folks behind me got all their coffee also. By this time the shop manager came back out and asked me what had I ordered so my coffee could be located. It had already been made but was never called out. The young lady barista looks at the store manager in frustration declaring “well why didnt she say something before now”.

I looked as I felt my flesh rising with the snappy remark and I said to both I saw you were busy so unlike some I exercised patience. This is the busy season after all for warm beverages and I could wait patiently. The store manager thanked me for waiting patiently.

Now the quandry with this senario is, not long ago I probably wouldn’t have been so patient in this situation. I would have lost my cool and been very snappy back with the young barista lady. In a season of time my pastor has expressively stated about the importance of exercising/walking in the fruit of the spirit in hard press times.

I wait for the Lord , my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 NASB

My soul (mind, will, and emotions) has had to grow to a place of using the fruits of the spirit to grow in character. Believe me my personal character needed and needs to grow.

There have been times when I would wait on things from God and when they didnt come or happen when I wanted them too I would be just like a 2yr old having a tantrum. That was all the more unbecoming of someone in my physical age. This way of thinking had to be clipped as it kept me in a place of perpetual depression and anxiety. Plus, it wasn’t a full life of faith and trust in God.

Learning to wait on the Lord comes with many senarios of developing a patient way of being. The more I grow patient with the Lord and what He wants done in my character has proven to be far more important than receiving any blessing.

So, if your waiting on God please know your wait has purpose. It has character developing times if you allow that to happen. Waiting doesn’t mean doing nothing either. Waiting is a way of being and a way of thinking.

Waiting requires a mindset change, its one that is worth fighting to shift.

~Cynthia 😉

Seek Wisdom

Wisdom is a precious jewel!

For someone like me I am quick to get right into my head and think think about everything. This causes me to get into more logic than I do faith.

My logic and reasoning can be so loud that the voice of the spirit in me trying to speak is squealched out. I have been learning to stop that when my logic kicks in. Its just like starting a car you know when you put the key in to start it up. I have had to become aware of when I do that and hault it.

I directed my mind to know, to investigate and to seek wisdom and an explanation, and to know the evil of folly and the foolishness of madness.
Ecclesiastes 7:25 NASB

In this season I am learning that I have to re-direct my mond from what it may know, assume, view as suspecious, see as fear and shut it down at the gate and turn to voice of reason.

God has placed before me in my leadership sound coucel, a woman of God whom is full of wisdom. Pastor Juanita Gibbs is one that I am greatful that I can turn to and present what is currently going on in my life and world to get the wisdom I need to navigate life, the situation and things better.

My foolishness has been keeping the issues I face to myself in a way of pride, not allowing voices of wisdom to help me out. This has been the fown fall of many a folly in my life. I have been the cause of much of my own pain and hurt cause of leaning on my own limited understanding.

Seeking good Godly councel has been definitley a trajectory changer. I am finding I am getting through things better than I was doing it in myself;(pride).

I am so eternally greatful for her and my whole church family for the love, support, ear and arms in times like there have been. As Pastor beautifully brought out last Wednesday in teleclass. Find your spiritual family that will help you grow and mature.

~Cynthia 😍

Heart of Skills

At the heart of us we all have been given a skill!

Have you ever sat back and pondered life at times?

Questioning God Why am I here?

What is it I am suppose to do or contribute to the world?

Well, on more than one occasion I can honestly say I have had this trivial time with God. My soul (mind,will, and emotions) searched for purpose to the point it was so loud within that when or if God did speak I didn’t hear it.

All the women whose heart stirred with a skill spun the goats’ hair.
EXODUS 35:26 AMP

It took coming to where I am now at Reformation Developmental Center to finally hear what God had called and purposed me to for my life.

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs took me under wing to help bring out of me what God had placed within me to use for the building of His Kingdom.

She helped bring me to a place of understanding that I am called to be a teacher and was ordained as a Youth Teacher in January. Then that helped me step into the blogging and writing more as I plan to finish my book up soon to have it set for publishing.

Had I not come into a place where clarity could come on the scene my heart couldn’t have been stirred to perfect and develop the skills God has given to me.

He has done the same for each and everyone of us. Its just a matter of getting clear on it and chasing after it with your whole heart.

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~Cynthia 😍