They know the right buttons to push!

Weaknesses are targets!

Without faith how can I protect myself against attacks on my weaknesses.

Weaknesses are those vulnerable places that some can easily spot or they get close enough that they study you out to know just where your weak.

Those are in my opinion the folks that you have to guard against. In my youth I was open to way to many folks! My trust has been broken so many times it has damaged me from even good that God sends. I didn’t know then what I have been taught by my Pastor Juanita Gibbs that I need to know a person by their fruit they bare in life over what they say!

She forever teaches us to listen beyond mere word to hear the heart. She has wonderfully taught that they may say they are with you but in thier heart far from you. Scarry but true so many have said you need me just say and I will be there. When in reality was in their heart: I hope they don’t call cause my life is too busy to help. But, to look like a good person I offered my assistance.

This can be very hurtful and painful when it is a continual repeat thing in a persons life. Well, it has been for me. When if true, genuine love amd compassion for a person is on the scene then it would help without being asked. It would go above and beyond with never being told.

When this has done damage to a soul that creates an inner weak point in a person that can easily be manipulated or exploited for self benefit and gain.

As Pastor so wonderfully taught last night to us is that it is our individual jobs to guard our heart/soul. So to say that is to say my lack of knowledge of the word of God didnt properly arm me for the battle of life. I knowingly opened myself up to people and things before coming to Reformation Developmental Center.

Those things prior coming into the knowledge of the word of God was of my own doing and to my own demise. Had I not allowed certain things the hurt, wounds, pain in my soul may not have been such as they have been.

Time and healing and the proper teaching had to be on the scene of my life to help me to begin to grow and mature.

Is it the fault of the other person that they exploited any weaknesses with in me?

No!

Its mine because I was wide open to allow the pain to come in!

They have their own amount of responsibility to own and that rests with them. As for me, I must learn from each encounter and grow to limit those things from happening any longer.

A properly guarded life is a life to be lived in the comfort that the spirit of God within will alert yoi as to who you can and cannot trust in this life if you allow him to do so!

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

But what about…

I can do it myself. What can you do to help me?

In the fleshly pride that it is that is the mindset I have had about some things in my spiritual journey of faith.

The last 2 days I must say have been the most interesting yet as its been consistent of God speaking and revealing and confirming things.

What a God I serve!

But….

Its all boiled down to dealing with my trust issue.

Yes!

I have trust issues and I can unashamedly confess this. For healing comes when confession takes place as the power of the issue looses its grip.

To take the first step to deal with my trust issue after confessing it is to go to God!

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 NASB

But, why am I weary? Oh yeah the trust issue…I figured I could work to make it go away, suppress it to make it go away, or be totally in fear and not do anything. To be honest in some degrees I have done all three of those.

I did not have enough trust in God to help me to find healing and wholeness. Not within my own strength anyway. I would say that it began to grow with the addition of my current pastor Juanita Gibbs. She has so lovingly came into my life to help me walk a process of transforming and growing in my soul!

Alot of my faith journey has been one of pleasing people over myself. Yes! I have been a people pleaser! What ddi it profit me, stress, much self work, rejection, etc.

Now with Pastors coaching of my life the people pleasing is getting tips and wisdom to manage it, but to know whats people pleasing and what is flowing in the fruit of the spirit.

Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.
Galatians 6:9 NASB

I put more trust in humanity than I did God by being a people pleaser. And that doesn’t please God! For if I do unto others as I would have done unto me that would be flowing from fruit and not stressing to please people. Trusting that God see’s a pure heart of service unto him over man helps me to build trust in God to begin to make a shift.

I have to begin to put more confidence in the truth of His word. It contains the power already, but I have to access it by faith and hope. The more my soul learns to wait on the Lord patience has to be at work.

I wait for the Lord , my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 NASB

God has me to wait on Him to grow in character, so He give me work on myself to do. My pastor coming along side as my inner life coach has begun to help deliver and heal areas of my soul.

For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think; but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith. Romans 12:3 NASB

There has been many times in my learning to trust God that I have doubted I had enough faith to grow or heal. Pastor has told me I have to use my measure of faith and work it to begin to be made whole. The contents of my soul have to be treated as they have caused infection in my life.

And Jesus answered and said to them, ” It is not those who are well who need a physician, but those who are sick. Luke 5:31 NASB

Jesus came and provided himself as a way for that to happen in my life. Isaiah 61 is one of my favorites that Jesus proclaimed in His time that the spirit of the Lord was upon Him to heal, deliver, and set free. That same is true even now the Holy Spirit os that very nature. But, I have to trust that nature to be made whole.

And He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.” Luke 8:48 NASB

The more I place my utmost full trust in God, manage people pleasing and trusting in humanity over God, stop doubting him, trust the God given people He has provided the more healing can take place and I can work toward wholeness and growing in maturity.

And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
James 1:4 NASB

I have to continue to be patient with God, but myself also healing and growing are a process of time and committed work of believing in God, hoping in His word, casting all my cares in God, dealing with stuff when things bother me, stop suppressing and work diligently toward being mature(perfect) and lacking in nothing. Seeing that He is my supply and all I have need of is found in Him and his love for me(the world).

With the help of My Pastor Juanita Gibbs and the Lord and doing my part in time being whole in my soul will be my testiment of faith!

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Reflections…

Fall can be a season of reflection.

Looking back over the course of the year and reflecting on all its happenings. What a year it has been! Changes in many things, but has the true change taken place. The change that matters most? Probably not!

Finding myself in a holding pattern to settle down and find out whats really going on with me on the inside and learning the truth of all things. Finally taking accountablity for myself and what I have allowed in this life.

Is it easy to walk through? Is fire not hot! But to know truth you have to walk through things and take the wisdom gained from them with you when out of the fire.

Have I obtained this revelation fully? No! But, I am learning that there is a plan and purpose for all things. Whether good, bad or ugly I am accepting their reality for what they are and working in the weaknesses to not succumb to the same things. Its a work and a work that needs done within me and I am the only one who can do the work.

For once my truth is accepted as what it is with in me its only then that I can begin to step toward freedom. One day in time as I keep working on myself and the issues of the soul that I have, freedom will be found. But only as long as I surrender to the work that God wants accomplished.

Have I fully surrendered? No! I have liked keeping a victim mentality, I have liked being seen as less then, but why right? Because those things have become a comfort in the soul, which, is truly deceit and dysfunction in the soul of mine.

So, now I am strivig to find my own sure footing and trust God in all things that He knows whats best. For his ways are higher than my ways and His thoughts higher than my thoughts.

~Love Life ~ Live Life ~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰