Faith Holds βš“βš”

The more of the word I get inside my soul the more unmoved by the world I can become!

With working to remove a layer of negativity through the 40 day detox I have seen why the more I was easily moved into doubt, fear, worry, and anxiety to much.

I didn’t have firm rooting in the word of God, which has been causing me to be easily moved and swayed no matter what the situation that arose.

Those who trust in the Lord Are as Mount Zion, which cannot be moved but abides forever.
Psalms 125:1 NASB

The more I abide in Gods word the more unmoved I can become.

But, it takes me being diligent about studying the word, practicing the word as Pastor Juanita Gibbs teaches us by Prayer, meditation, fasting from thoughts that exalt themeselves above the word of God.

I am not fully unmoved yet, but I am striving that day by day, moment by moment I can learn to lean on God beyond my own limited understanding that He knows what He is doing and trust Him to see me through.

He will you also!

I have only drowned or sunk into things because I didn’t have firm grip of the life saving source.

That source is the power of His Word, a personal relationship through prayer and being lead by a surrendered vessel in the leadership He placed before me.

Taking hold of His word can do great wonders for your life.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith Moves

The mountains before me that attribute to the adversity will move by my faith!

Most of the times in adverse situations or trying times I would look at the mountain and wallow in the despair of my emotions.

Doing that is not having faith! Turning more toward faith and away from worry, doubt, fear, anxiety is a bit of a challenge as that is what my soul (mind,will and emotions) has been long programmed to operate from.

Renewing my mind (Romans 12:2) and the spirit of my mind (Eph 4:23) to deeply embedd the word of God into my conscious and subconscious parts of my mind take diligent work and effort to reprogam what I glow out of.

It is easy?

NO! But it is possible!

The power of the word of God is a sword (Hebrews 4:12) to come through and divide out what is not of him and be cast down (2 Corinthians 10:4-5). The more I allow the removal of anything toxic within me the more faith can arise and begin to make moves.

And Jesus answering saith unto them, Have faith in God. For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.
Mark 11:22‭-‬23 KJV

I want to have mountain moving faith! That no matter of the mountain doesn’t move when I want it to move, but when God says its time for it to move and learn what I can from the trial faith will see me through it all!


Faith through adversity

What greater comfort to know that someone is beside you in rough times!

In the journey of faith it is a key component to have a trusted person at your side. David had Johnathan, Elijah had Elisha, Jesus and Peter and on and on we see people having trusting bonds of connection.

As Pastor Juanita Gibbs told me when I first moved over to Reformation Developmental Center that God didn’t make us an island to ourself!

For most of my life through fears, anxieties, worry, and doubt that I had made myself an island by manifesting the very things I gave power to.

To want a friend/trusted companion in life I first had to be one. Im still learning, but I do hope that I am getting better with the one God has given me that I can trust my secrets with, my darkness with, and the light with. She has allowed me to grow my trust and heal it at my own pace and for that I am greatful.

I have and want to continue to learn that I must not be selfish and learn to fight the fight of faith not just for myself but for my trusted person along my side.

I need to soldier up in the word of God and continue to learn the fruit of the spirit and grow in their usage in my life to stand firm along side them if they need it and not just me needing that support from them all the time. But to give some in return what has been graciously given to me.

The things which you have heard from me in the presence of many witnesses, entrust these to faithful men who will be able to teach others also. Suffer hardship with me, as a good soldier of Christ Jesus. No soldier in active service entangles himself in the affairs of everyday life, so that he may please the one who enlisted him as a soldier.
2 Timothy 2:2‭-‬4 NASB

Being a devoted soldier is going through the boot camp training of the word and allowing its power to convict the wrong/toxic things within me to allow cleansing to please God and be a good soldier for the Kingdom of God walking in my purpose and Gods plan for me.

Is it easy?

No, but it is a matter taking more of the old person I have been off and putting on the new that is in Christ Jesus.

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Pressing Faith

Perseverance to get through the trial will reveal your level of faith.

Pastor Juanita Gibbs so wonderfully expounded upon so many great things in Bible study last night and this one fits so well in with my Faith posts I had to share some of what she brought out.

She taught us that the word of God is a weapon to fight with. It is our ammunition. It is what we are to use to shoot down negativity, doubt, fear, strongholds to get to a place where our faith is more active and vibratly at work in our daily life.

To live by to word she expounded upon is to live a renewed life, as well as, a life walked out in the spirit. To do this she explained is to depraive the fleshly/carnal nature to cripple its controlling lead of our life from out of our soul. A life walked out in the spirit is being spirit lead.


To even get there she explained we must realize where the battle really is! The battle is not just between us and Satan, but it is our inner battle of spirit verses soul. The spirit verses the flesh. (Galatians 5:16-18)

To begin to win the war she told us we must have that ammunition of the word inside of us. We must practice what is brought forth to teach and train us. We must study, meditate, keep it held in our thoughts and have it flow from our mouth to keep loaded for the fight.

The pressure of life, trials and tribulations will come but leaning on our faith and the spirit will see us through far better than fear and flesh. Its that inner press we need to have so deeply rooted inside our inner being that we can with Gods help get through all things. He is for us and not against us. He loves us and as we walk by His spirit grace abounds.

And there came a man named Jairus, and he was an official of the synagogue; and he fell at Jesus’ feet, and began to implore Him to come to his house; for he had an only daughter, about twelve years old, and she was dying. But as He went, the crowds were pressing against Him. And a woman who had a hemorrhage for twelve years, and could not be healed by anyone, came up behind Him and touched the fringe of His cloak, and immediately her hemorrhage stopped. And Jesus said, “Who is the one who touched Me?” And while they were all denying it, Peter said, “Master, the people are crowding and pressing in on You.” But Jesus said, “Someone did touch Me, for I was aware that power had gone out of Me.” When the woman saw that she had not escaped notice, she came trembling and fell down before Him, and declared in the presence of all the people the reason why she had touched Him, and how she had been immediately healed. And He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.”
Luke 8:41‭-‬48 NASB

In the good times and bad times I must renew in the word of God. His word is light, truth, food, and healing the more I learn to lean on His word over my own logic and reasoning. His ways and thoughts are higher than mine and I must learn to get them to submit to his leadership to press in the faith properly.

~Cynthia 😍

πŸ›‘Faith as a shield!πŸ›‘

Fighting the good fight of faith requires proper gear!

In this 40-day detox I have had to yield the weapon of the sword of the word! But, I must also use faith to br my shield for the things that come at me in my environment from other people, influences like tv and radio, etc.

This inward detox of another layer of negativity has been the most challenging, but it is needful to change things in my life.

I have to be patient in my process as Pastor just shared with me last night. I am breaking up over 3 decades of issues my soul houses and they won’t go away over night. It takes time and diligent work on things to bring about changes.

I not only have to guard what comes up and out of my soul, but what comes at me from outside sources. This is where I need a firm shield of faith to help me guard and take no thought on things that come my way that are contrary to the truth of the word of God.

For so long I have allowed the things in my soul and words of others to come in and take root. Unaware that they caused doubt, worry, fear, anxiety, and later as it festered within me depression.

Do not be afraid of sudden fear Nor of the onslaught of the wicked when it comes; For the Lord will be your confidence And will keep your foot from being caught.
Proverbs 3:25‭-‬26 NASB

I have to not be afraid when things happen as when things do happen and rock me that reveals that I have leaned too hard on my own understanding. When your understanding has been hinged off of fear, doubts and worries like mine has then my confidence was placed in my own workings and not what God could do in my life.

Learning to not be afraid when trails come, casting my care on the Lord, leaning not to my own logic and reasoning and in full confidence trust God as Pastor Juanita Gibbs has been teaching me is a transition to get there from how I have done things to how I should do things.

The more truth of His word, promises I find and rise up in the power given to me as a believer things are beginning to settle out, but its still my daily work to manage.

The daily fight is getting better and as Pastor is showing it takes 21 days to break and old habit and its mid-way point at 10 days in and its getting better in small ways and I am greatful for what she is walking so many of us through in this process.

Faith will be my shield and the word of God my sword to keep fighting to change my life for the long haul.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith brings Peace

God is a God of Peace! He is the great Jehovah Shalom!

Anxiety from carrying unresolved issues and wounds of the past have kept an open door in my soul for much trouble in my inner being.

For much of my life I didn’t dwell in the present as I should. I was living of the present but keeping everything of my past at the forfront with me. I had suppressed dealing and confronting my inner issues for so long.

Thus creating an anxious way of living in my inner being of my soul. There was no shred of peace to be found within me. One small thing would send me back into an old place and I would retake up residency there for a while to bathe the sorrow in more pain or what I perceived as pain.

You have held my eyelids open; I am so troubled that I cannot speak. I have considered the days of old, The years of long ago.
Psalms 77:4‭-‬5 NASB

It was so bad that for probably over a year sleep was illusive and I wouldn’t sleep well, my mind would race, it would relive every conversation, it would replay where I could have done or said something different in efforts in me to have either a different outcome or better result of what happened. It would take it all forward into my future and plan days ahead around the pain and wounding.

To say the least my mind was a busy factory manufacturing all kinds of untrue and unrealistic things that brought, worry, doubt, fear, anxiety, negativity and depression.

The more throught this detox of negativity I am fighting my way through to rid myself of a level that needs to come off my life for as Pastor Juanita Gibbs taught us last night that those things are poison to God manifesting goodness in our life.

So, I have to be determined to not allow poison to continue to pollute my now or what I hope to be down the road for me. It will take faith in God, a confident assurance that He will not disappoint me, and patience to develop in me what needs to be developed.

The more I lean on the word of God over the old that I have dwelled in peace slowly is coming in. I can begin to not have to fight my way to sleep. I am becoming less clouded in my mind by not continually looking to whats behind me and gone and finished but to learn from it and keep moving forward as best I can.

I still stumble with it as I am far from perfect. But, the difference now in my stumbling and my early in stumbling is I don’t try to dwell in my faults or errors for too long for the can paralyze me from moving forward.

As to why now the more I need to be fully committed to having a Word Life to close the doors in my inner being to stop giving the enemy opportunity within me as it is my job to guard my heart and mind.

It has been through Pastors loving leadership and example to show me that having a Word Life can and will make a difference and goodness from God can begin to flow through into my life. Peace has begun to push out anxiety as a result and I will keep pressing to see more change in my life.

~Cynthia 😍

But what about…

I can do it myself. What can you do to help me?

In the fleshly pride that it is that is the mindset I have had about some things in my spiritual journey of faith.

The last 2 days I must say have been the most interesting yet as its been consistent of God speaking and revealing and confirming things.

What a God I serve!


Its all boiled down to dealing with my trust issue.


I have trust issues and I can unashamedly confess this. For healing comes when confession takes place as the power of the issue looses its grip.

To take the first step to deal with my trust issue after confessing it is to go to God!

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 NASB

But, why am I weary? Oh yeah the trust issue…I figured I could work to make it go away, suppress it to make it go away, or be totally in fear and not do anything. To be honest in some degrees I have done all three of those.

I did not have enough trust in God to help me to find healing and wholeness. Not within my own strength anyway. I would say that it began to grow with the addition of my current pastor Juanita Gibbs. She has so lovingly came into my life to help me walk a process of transforming and growing in my soul!

Alot of my faith journey has been one of pleasing people over myself. Yes! I have been a people pleaser! What ddi it profit me, stress, much self work, rejection, etc.

Now with Pastors coaching of my life the people pleasing is getting tips and wisdom to manage it, but to know whats people pleasing and what is flowing in the fruit of the spirit.

Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.
Galatians 6:9 NASB

I put more trust in humanity than I did God by being a people pleaser. And that doesn’t please God! For if I do unto others as I would have done unto me that would be flowing from fruit and not stressing to please people. Trusting that God see’s a pure heart of service unto him over man helps me to build trust in God to begin to make a shift.

I have to begin to put more confidence in the truth of His word. It contains the power already, but I have to access it by faith and hope. The more my soul learns to wait on the Lord patience has to be at work.

I wait for the Lord , my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 NASB

God has me to wait on Him to grow in character, so He give me work on myself to do. My pastor coming along side as my inner life coach has begun to help deliver and heal areas of my soul.

For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think; but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith. Romans 12:3 NASB

There has been many times in my learning to trust God that I have doubted I had enough faith to grow or heal. Pastor has told me I have to use my measure of faith and work it to begin to be made whole. The contents of my soul have to be treated as they have caused infection in my life.

And Jesus answered and said to them, ” It is not those who are well who need a physician, but those who are sick. Luke 5:31 NASB

Jesus came and provided himself as a way for that to happen in my life. Isaiah 61 is one of my favorites that Jesus proclaimed in His time that the spirit of the Lord was upon Him to heal, deliver, and set free. That same is true even now the Holy Spirit os that very nature. But, I have to trust that nature to be made whole.

And He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.” Luke 8:48 NASB

The more I place my utmost full trust in God, manage people pleasing and trusting in humanity over God, stop doubting him, trust the God given people He has provided the more healing can take place and I can work toward wholeness and growing in maturity.

And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
James 1:4 NASB

I have to continue to be patient with God, but myself also healing and growing are a process of time and committed work of believing in God, hoping in His word, casting all my cares in God, dealing with stuff when things bother me, stop suppressing and work diligently toward being mature(perfect) and lacking in nothing. Seeing that He is my supply and all I have need of is found in Him and his love for me(the world).

With the help of My Pastor Juanita Gibbs and the Lord and doing my part in time being whole in my soul will be my testiment of faith!

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

πŸ™ŠRight to remain silent! πŸ™Š

The right to remain silent is an inner peace that has been made available!

Our inner silence is a work to obtain!

My soul filled with anxiety, doubt, fear, worry as mentioned in a prior blog is as likened unto a busy city!

But, my soul doesn’t have to stay in such a state of busyness. I can and have begun to cut down the noise that can be and has been on occasion so loud that my body wanted to just stop it was so overwhelming.

Yes! Even as a believer in Jesus this was going on in my life. The traditional/ religious follow the book and speak on only what will make people feel good while going through tough times was all I knew.

Now, if you are in a traditional/ religious based church and it works for you that is wonderful and this post is NOT knocking that as that is where I got some of my foundation in the faith!

For me it got to a place where the patch job wasn’t working any more and I longed for true deep inner change to silence the noisy soul I have.

One of the foundational verses for my now church is 1 Thessalonians 5:23:

Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you entirely; and may your spirit and soul and body be preserved complete, without blame at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.
1 Thessalonians 5:23 NASB

This verse a biblical truth proved that His peace was available to me in my soul! It shows the grace of God to provide peace to make me complete inwardly and not so broken by the chaos of my soul.

Jesus is known as the Prince of Peace or Jehavah Shalom that very part of Him came to dwell inside of me at salvation, it is up to me to pull on that of the fruit of His spirit to have that peace in my life.

Then my people will live in a peaceful habitation, And in secure dwellings and in undisturbed resting places; Isaiah 32:18 NASB

The more I am able to pull from His provided peace I can silence the noise within and begin to live in peaceful habitation and in undisturbed resting places with the tools provided me by my wonderful Pastor to not allow outer things to disturb my peace.

πŸ™ŠπŸ™…Why Did I Say That?!?!πŸ™…πŸ™Š

Have you ever heard something you said only to regret saying that very thing that was said?


I know I sure have! If you haven’t then that is definitley a blessing!

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs has been teaching me that my words either good or bad, faithful or doubtful create my life. Words have power she says!

She backs it all up with scripture.

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.

Proverbs 18:21 NASB

That has been so my case! I have been eating the fruit of so much negativity, doubt, worry, fear, anxiety that my soul had come to love it.

When the spirit living within was like please reject the bad fruit and try the new fruit God by his spirit and the fruits of His spirit have provided. So, I could not only nourish my spirit man but my soul man the more I reject the bad fruit and choose the good fruit.

I said, “I will guard my ways That I may not sin with my tongue; I will guard my mouth as with a muzzle While the wicked are in my presence.”
Psalms 39:1 NASB

I have been graced by God to take dominion over my tongue and tame it. His word proclaims that from the abundace of the heart the mouth speaks. My words reveal my heart!

I have to begin to catch the thoughts before the set into my heart and take root as to what words flow from my lips. I can then muzzle my tongue even now after those things have taken root and filter them as to does my words line up with Gods word or no?

If they do not I need to refuse to say them and speak only truth! Our words have power, the same power of the creator of us that spoke this world into exsistance we can speak our world into exsistance. Guard our hearts and mouths to produce the God kind of life you want to see.

~Love Life~ Live Life ~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰


It’s too loud in here!!

Sitting in the quiet is the time when what is in your mind truthfully begins to surface!

Well it does for me…

Finding things to do or music to hear or having a conversation to occupy the mind to hush whats really going on within!

When I am left to hear what I think, I begin to hear the doubt, fear, negative, worry come bubbling to the surface.

What has happened with that is before coming into a transformation ministry Pastored by Juanita Gibbs, is that I would hear them and run with them!

Yes! Every doubtfilled, worrysome, negative, depressive, anxious faction that came to my mind was agreed with and fully accepted. But now under this kins of ministry she teaches on how to stop being so ruled by those factions contrary to truth of the word of God.

Say for example I would hear:


Your uglyYou know thats true

Your dreams wont come trueYup thats right

How will you do all this!I have no idea

Your too sinful for God to bless!Thats true He don’t bless evil

These are just for example sake, you probably get the idea with this now.

Since my pastor has been helping me become aware of my thoughts! And when I am alone no talking, no music that is when the work begins.

So example of transforming my inner voices:

ThoughtNew Response

Your ugly I am fearfully and wonderfully made!

Your dreams won’t come trueTime is in Gods hand and he orders my steps

How will you do all this Trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my understanding

Your too sinful for God to bless! — I am the blessed of the Lord Jesus paid the price for me I am coveres by His blood!

Before in the pre-inner life ministry those bad things would just keep me hindered. They were being fed by me agreeing with them and adding more for them to work with. But now with Pastors help, I am working to starve the old to kill it out and turn toward the new life provided in Christ to transform by the renewing of my mind and the spirit of my mind!

Those verses of Romans 12:1-2 and Ephesians 4:23 are foundational pillars for Reformation Developmental Center. For Pastors close workings to transform my soul I am forever greatful!

~Love Life~ Live Life ~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰