“When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Your comfort delights my soul.”
Psalms 94:19 NASB
More often then not, in this season of my life I find myself heavy with things on mind. I am currently walking through a detox and it has not been pretty. But, I will say it has been necessary for me to go through; to have revealed to me, about myself what in fact it has, to begin to change and develop in certain areas that need another layer of growth before promotion can come.
These above shown resources are what I am clinging too for the remainder of this 40 day mindset shift. Consider taking a look at them and investing in yourself as I am doing to work on things to be placed in alignment for the good that I’d like to see manifest this year.
As we all have walked through some of the most difficult last few years from the 2020 – COVID pandemic and the world shutting down. Loosing so many from the horrific virus/disease that spread so quickly. Many infections that resulted in irreparable damage to some with long-haul symptoms. The global economic crisis from the aftermath of the shutdown in the year 2021. The numerous mental illness cases and shootings at schools and riots and burning things down. Then in 2022 where some settled out from the huge economic crisis and the extent of the damage done by the virus to only culminate into the political circus that was had at the US nations capital to more hardships financially due to inflation and the cost of living sky rocketing to the point where the financial systems were so strained it almost brought on an economic depression. To the many natural disasters and the talks of war and talks of prisoner exchanges.
These last few years have been so rough with negativity that as a whole the world just seems more and more negative. All of environmental negativity is planted like seeds in the mind of the people that grow each day its left to take root and manifest.
On one of my most recent walks to go clear my head, listen to some music, reconnect with nature; I rounded a corner and the sun was just there as if almost eye level with me. I took my hand and blocked the sun to see where the path continued and how it winded as I’d never been that far before and I stopped at took that shot for this very moment. To remind myself of the daily choice I have to make to walk toward the light of positive thinking and mindset.
To unburden one’s mind is the beginning of the change. To cease all thoughts in their current place as if frozen to examine them, to look at how they’ve grown and why. To then detox from them with something different to slowly kill the rooted manifestations of the negativity to one day as there is consistent work and mindfulness to see positive manifestations.
“We use God’s mighty weapons, not worldly weapons, to knock down the strongholds of human reasoning and to destroy false arguments. We destroy every proud obstacle that keeps people from knowing God. We capture their rebellious thoughts and teach them to obey Christ.”
2 Corinthians 10:4-5 NLT
For myself, to gradually turn away from the darkness of negativity housed within my soul, that I am exposed to daily, that lives in my dwelling space not easily to escape as it comes from a level of darkness from whom I share space with. The environment around each of us that we allow our energies to be exposed to. Now I will not lie, it is so hard to go from negative to positive cause in the turning the soil from which you stand and base everything on gets turned up and exposed and comes to the surface in the light of day.
Just this last little while, one thing that came to light for me was that my level of faith has been once again slid back into seeing was believing when God says have faith when I cannot see. That my mind has been heavy due to me not trusting and having faith. Having thoughts of managing it all in my own weak and tired flesh and not casting the whole of my cares. Instead I have been holding every last one of them. Causing myself mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual exhaustion.
Its hard to see by faith why people walk away from us with out explanation, its hard to understand why the Doctor said someone has Cancer, its hard to understand why your division of work closed and you experience job loss. Its hard to understand a great many things by seeing only. But, the more I see by Faith I am coming to embrace the more that all things are working together for the good. Slowly unburdening my mind, learning to have faith and trust again. Learning to walk in not only love, but forgiveness as well. God is a person of giving many chances and I am grateful for that. Now, I too have to walk in that same mercy and grace that was extended to me cause thats how Jesus our example lived it.
“And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”
Romans 8:28 NASB
That pill alone is a hard one to swallow, to not allow things to make us bitter or angry with God about why things that create such havoc in our life can be really for our good. God works opposite to the factions of this world. The more depths of this understanding I can grasp hold of, it will help me to reestablish my relationship with him through prayer and trusting Him with every ounce I can.
All the circumstances that I have faced and left un dealt with until I had a raging volcano of emotion, over thinking, flesh living, and backslidden away from my once relationship with the Father and My Savior Jesus! This is helping me climb back to one day I can sit with him again so close that I can hear His heart beat for me. I will see that I am slowly turning to be more of what Im working toward is a more positive existence.
“Consider it all joy, my brothers and sisters, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.”
James 1:2-4 NASB
The more I progress with each day of the detox, I hope I get stronger to see a manifestation from the hard work I have been putting in on looking at my temperaments and how I am built, identifying trauma wounds of childhood that have been surfacing, knowing what were the environment influences that I was raised in that may need to change. Looking at everything and taking on one piece at a time for what needs precedence to continue on this journey called: Life.
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