Road to Recovery after COVID

The path to recovery from COVID is full of uncertainty!

Since the last time I blogged, I have been deeply into getting my body steered toward being COVID free and toward rebounding from the effects of this slow moving virus that has so greatly impacted the world we live in today.

I spent 22 days in isolation to prevent the spread of this virus. I kept it from my aging father of whom lives in the same dwelling as I, and I didn’t pass it on to anyone in whom I had any contact with. Praise God!

In the days of knowing I contracted the virus, in the small area of which I am employed it became a virtual witch hunt of who infected who and how and all the scenarios that we none had any full control over. I may have mentioned it in my previous writing, that at the time I contracted COVID there was a highly concentrated number of cases in that small town. This fact alone makes it mute on how I contracted it as in such a small area, this spread faster and quicker! If your someone like me that works in the public, handling funds, face-to-face encounters, then its bound to happen.

As soon as folks heard my story of having COVID hysteria kicked in, everyone I had been in contact with rushed to get tested. Which is all fine cause that was the point on making it aware that I contracted the virus. Many got tested and one after another came back negative, I was so thankful to hear it as I am around some more advanced in age men and women that have underlying medical conditions that needed to be careful around with this.

One that I work with about 14 days after I had the virus, she contracted it. It was told to me by someone in their circle that this person told most that she had communication with, that she had contracted the virus from me. Smh. We shared the same work space yesterday and from her lips she said I didn’t get it from you, but in her continuing story said that on a day she went into a shared office space (now mind you. This was a week after our office had been shut down and sterilized) said she went to my desk and got something and felt horrible since. So in one breathe she says she didn’t get from me and with another she between lines said I got it from you! The heart will always reveal itself if you pay close attention to the words.

Its amazing to also see how you are treated once you have had COVID. I went to work to attempt to get back into some level of normalcy after the testing reveled I was now negative. You walk into a place and immediately you hear “RONA” and the sound of ur not allowed in here coming from the lips of people as you see from your peripheral vision the ones on the side of you step back as if you was so super contagious they could not share the same air in-which to breathe.

Its also been super refreshing to be welcomed back into the presence of people. I am very much a people person, I like to connect and plug into peoples energies especially people you get good vibes from. Some have been so welcoming of me returning back to health that its a reflection of Gods loving character in the earth. Of which is something I may write about in blogs to come what my time of isolation revealed about me to work on for my own personal development.

My body is still in recuperation mode as I still have not regained the full taste and sense of smell and as of late really bad tinnitus has developed. This is where the path to my recovery is uncertain. I went to my family physician Monday to kinda be left feeling as if I was crazy for having tinnitus and refusing to get their flu shot among other things. Because of all the strict guidelines at doctors I had to be sure I made them away I had, had the corona/covid-19 and that I was now clear.

Then it was pressure to get a flu shot. I had to stand firm that I didn’t want and will not get a flu shot! They didn’t understand my reasoning after just surviving COVID, why would I purposely insert flu into my body that still hasn’t full rebounded from the corona virus. They insisted, well it doesn’t give you the flu! I said no! Four times I had to tell them No! They gave no treatment for my tinnitus and only said allow time to pass to see if it goes away as she never heard of this being a side effect from COVID. I’m like do you want my head to see if what I am telling you is true!?

I have begun doin my own therapy on sound treatments for the ringing, taste therapy to attempt to get that back and Smelling therapy to begin to have that come back. I have also enlisted the wisdom of a retired medical care worker whom knows a lot about things in homeopathic ways of treatments and therapy to help me along and her wisdom has proven time and time again. She made me her own healing soup therapy that she uses countlessly time and time again that has prevented pneumonia and more in her close connections to keep them healthy and from worser sicknesses.

It is my firm belief that getting this soup in the early phases of being diagnosed with Covid-19 that this soup kept the virus from moving into my heart and lungs. That of which I am thankful for. The studies show that COVID effects vital organs like heart, lungs, and now recently they are seeing the effects on the brain with the side effects that I am experiencing. The part of my brain for my sensory reception has been impacted the most in my case of COVID.

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Broken Inside

There are times the infection seeps through the broken pieces.

Been going through some things. So I took some time away from blogging so as not to spew that onto my community platform.

My soul(mind,will, and emotions) has been getting in the way of my faith. So much in fact I didn’t walk in any fruit or spirit by any means of the word.

I allowed myself to stand in the way and perceive my faith had failed me. When it had not and my own thinking had failed me. What I thought was true has been brought to light that in reality it was all a lie and a long believed deception within my inner most being.

“Simon, Simon, behold, Satan has demanded permission to sift you like wheat; but I have prayed for you, that your faith may not fail; and you, when once you have turned again, strengthen your brothers.” But he said to Him, “Lord, with You I am ready to go both to prison and to death!” And He said, “I say to you, Peter, the rooster will not crow today until you have denied three times that you know Me.”Luke 22:31‭-‬34 NASB

To have a Pastor like Juanita Gibbs to stand with me in the very ill behavior, way of being, and attitude says alot about her level of love walk she has. She could and had every reason to not help me any longer.

She has stuck it out with me from the depths of pure hell almost from my inner most being to want to see me change and transform.

For that I am greatful and want to continue to change. The infection that resides within me that comes out through the broken pieces has the ability to destroy and that I dont want to continue to carry around.

Peter had Jesus praying for him even before the trial of his soul would come up. Jesus said I have prayed for you that your faith not fail you. My Pastor aliken to Jesus has done the same for me before this soul of mine became unruly and obstinate.

I have work to do to continue to change and I have to be committed to it to see it as a long lasting change and be a person that doesn’t destroy but one that walks in the fruit of the spirit.

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~Cynthia 😍

Stand Firm in Faith

Take your stand!

What is the first thing a child does when it goes from crawling to walking?

Establishing thier stand, gain balance, learn what caused them tip or fall. That is how it has been for me going from unbelief to faith as I wrote on yesterday.

I have stood by faith and waivered and fallen.

I have stood by faith and crossed right back into unbelief which landed me on my butt so to speak (LOL).

Its a trial and error to find a balance in standing in the faith.

But he who stands firm in his heart, being under no constraint, but has authority over his own will… 1 Corinthians 7:37a NASB

It been a matter also of establishing my authority as a believer within myself. The more I am able to do this, this can bring about a balance. Knowing exactly who I am in Christ and what He has given me dominion over I have to learn to walk in.

I have also been able to tap into learning that I can control myself and subject my will, choices and desires to God.

By doing this it has alleviated some drama by not going into any and everything. As to know that everything isn’t Gods perfect will for my life.

To know His will for my life has had to come with a learning of Him and who He is, as well as, what He is purposing in my life currently. Anything outside of that could wear me out, cause overwhelm or burnout.

By learning to take that stand it has also helped bring some balance. It will take time and a few tries but balance does eventually come then the walking begins.

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~Cynthia 😍

This post is inspired by the teachings I receive at Reformation Developmental Center that is lead and founded by Pastor Juanita Gibbs

Faith

Faith relationships continued…

To know Him on a deep intimate level takes time Pastor Juanita Gibbs expressed to me recently. Its a time of building, knowing and trusting in Him at His character and love.

All relationships take time to build and our relationship with God takes just as much time and effort to build as it does in the natural with a person.

I want to know and experiance God on deeper levels. But, I know I must work to keep His word supreme. This is how a depth can come by allowing the Word of God to superceed my thoughts and emotions.

When I have not been diligent in my relationship its evident as I easily slip into a fleshly/carnal/soulish nature. This is when my thoughts, emotions say its is right and true even above what God says.

These are the things that have to be captured and cast down(2 Corinthians 10:4-5) as they exalt themeselves above the word of God and His word is suppose to be high and lifted up!

You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:13 NASB

To seek him on that deeper level I must know His word intently amd have it in my heart so much so that it is the first thing that comes out of me in pressure.

From the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. I have to have some heart transformation to change what comes up and out of me. This has thus created my life. For by our words our world is created.

Your words create your reality.

-Juanita Gibbs

By faith in phases stages and degrees as Pastor has taught it can and will change, as long as, I am diligent in it and pursuing to change and my fruit reflects it.

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~Cynthia 😍

Faith Rests

This is a rest not from outer workings!

It wasn’t until I came to Reformation Developmental Center Pastored by Juanita Gibbs that it was finally enlightened to me that I wad doing alot of work inwardly.

My soul (mind, will and emotions) were a busy metropolis inside my being. How do I know this right?

Well, I have been for the most part consumed with doubt, unbelief, fear, worry, anxiety which opened the door for depression, paranoia, panic attackes and much negativity.

My every word spoken was doubt filled, negative ridden laced with depressive unbelief and thus creatung the life I was living. When Pastor opened up this verse below I wanted to know some of that rest that was made available for me.

For the one who has entered His rest has himself also rested from his works, as God did from His.
Hebrews 4:10 NASB

I have had to learn to become aware when I am worrysome, anxious, fearfilled etc and its hard most times. I can catch myself other times it runs on autopilot so strong that its not until depression hits me that I am like oh I have not been aware of myself.

Other times its so strong I don’t see it, but my Pastor can pick up on it and she lets me know I have been in her spirit to pray for me.

Then she just talks to me to help me flush out whats I have going on inside to release and cast and pray and get deliveres and set free slowly. I am greatful for her leadership in my life its been a life changer for me.

The only way to rest is to pull on the word that says rest, learn to calm my soul and make it submit to the word and allow the spirit to lead, guide and be at work for me in ways that I cannot work.

Its a journey and a process like Pastor tells me. I have to be patient with myself and with God as I cannot get it in one day or two days this will be a journey for the rest of my life. This rest activates faith and allows God to move in ways that my work had hindered. God rests while we work, He works while we rest.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith Under Fire

The testing of faith refines it like gold!

The more trials we face it puts our faith on trial to see about how much it will endure and reveal weak places in our faith that the fire brings to the surface to pull out the impurity.

We want a pure faith just like pure gold. Free of debris and elements that can weaken or devalue the preciousness of it.

In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; and though you have not seen Him, you love Him, and though you do not see Him now, but believe in Him, you greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, obtaining as the outcome of your faith the salvation of your souls.
1 Peter 1:6‭-‬9 NASB

The more fire and trials I walk through the more impurities of my faith get pulled out. Like unbelief, doubt, fear, worry, depression, anxiety, etc.

These thing have had the be put on boil and rise to the surface to deal with them and remove them from my being in degrees. I am not fully there but it is better than it was.

The delicate nature of my soul yearns for the truth of faith and to be pure in faith and not contaminated in my faith to produce the God life He has available for me.

Its going to continue to be a process and journey throughout this faith life.

~Cynthia 😍

Steafast and Unmovable

It takes work to be unmoved!

In doing a work for the Lord it is a drawing closer to Him. The more I draw closer to Him the more firm in my faith I can become. But, it takes my efforts to draw closer to Him.

To do so that requires me spending time with Him, praying, meditating on truth from His word, fasting, praising and worshipping Him and giving thanks unto Him for all He has done and will do.

These are ingredients to growing my faith from level to level. The word proclaims we are to go from faith to faith. With each level and drawing closer to Him, the old has to be burned off, demolished, and not returned to for it is so far destroyed that there is no way to go back.

To have that also requires being under the right anointed leadership.

Not everyone can get to the root of things and destroy the yoke to set a person free. It takes a special call on a person by God to walk in that type of call. I am blessed to say that is what my leaders walk in on a day-to-day basis.

Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.
1 Corinthians 15:58 KJV

I want for each level of faith I climb to to help me become more steadfast in whom God is. Help me to be unmoved in each level when things arise, cause they will arise. To be in full confident faith that no matter what has arose that God is with me and He will help see me though it all.

This is an anchoring for my faith. To rest my soul against the chief cornerstone and when life comes crashing in waves I am firm and unmoved by the truth of who God is and all the word of God proclaims.

When life isn’t crashing and peace is there I can be assured I won’t drift away from Him, for in peaceful times He wants to know we still need Him and not become self-sufficient.

In the calm or in the storm I need God. At times with every breathe of every moment. I am not perfect in it and won’t be, but I can and am working to be better at becoming steadfast in the faith.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith in the Spirits Guide

My spirit guide is the Holy Spirit!

When the deep voids scream out from within that need a filling of some kind I have resorted to other things to bring comfort or consolation of some sort to the depths that longed for what it has not known.

The depths of lack deep with my soul on occasion cause havoc in my life, its so bad and so deep I often times am not aware of it until its way too late and the emotions and logic have had a hayday.

You know it makes sense now when folks have told me I am senstive and take too much to heart. Cause now I see it is in fact true. When I get in my head it runs off to a far off distant land of make believe where everyone is against me. Some fairy tale right? NOT! But that is my reality, sadly to say.

Let me hear Your lovingkindness in the morning; For I trust in You; Teach me the way in which I should walk; For to You I lift up my soul. Deliver me, O Lord , from my enemies; I take refuge in You. Teach me to do Your will, For You are my God; Let Your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For the sake of Your name, O Lord , revive me. In Your righteousness bring my soul out of trouble.
Psalms 143:8‭-‬11 NASB

I have to work to shut down that part of my soul leading my life so strongly that it has caused so much disaster in any personal connection that then I make myself feel victimized when I was and am the culprit for instigating the separation.

I need to allow the loving words of the Father to infiltrate my soul through putting more of it into my spirit. This is gonna take work on my part. But, I know the depths my soul need to know the Father’s love. The dark night of the soul where things die off is hard, ugly, painful, almost to the point of death.

But to know the Fathers love is to allow the Holy spirit to lead me to what I need in this time to do better, get some healing, get some deliverance, make some changes in what has presented itself that is troubling in my life.

God can bring me out of the troubledness of soul in layers and I am gonna have to trust him for that. I need more of the truth to replace what has been within me of my oen logic and reasoning through wounds and damaged emotions for so long that has raised itself up against the truth.

I have work to do, but I will hold onto God is with me, He hasn’t forsaken me and has good plans for my life and these issues that are coming up need to be dealt with. Cause if unchecked the trajectory of my life could have a whole other path. To remain in His will and way submission to what I need to do is called for.

~Cynthia 😍