Broken Inside

There are times the infection seeps through the broken pieces.

Been going through some things. So I took some time away from blogging so as not to spew that onto my community platform.

My soul(mind,will, and emotions) has been getting in the way of my faith. So much in fact I didn’t walk in any fruit or spirit by any means of the word.

I allowed myself to stand in the way and perceive my faith had failed me. When it had not and my own thinking had failed me. What I thought was true has been brought to light that in reality it was all a lie and a long believed deception within my inner most being.

“Simon, Simon, behold, Satan has demanded permission to sift you like wheat; but I have prayed for you, that your faith may not fail; and you, when once you have turned again, strengthen your brothers.” But he said to Him, “Lord, with You I am ready to go both to prison and to death!” And He said, “I say to you, Peter, the rooster will not crow today until you have denied three times that you know Me.”Luke 22:31‭-‬34 NASB

To have a Pastor like Juanita Gibbs to stand with me in the very ill behavior, way of being, and attitude says alot about her level of love walk she has. She could and had every reason to not help me any longer.

She has stuck it out with me from the depths of pure hell almost from my inner most being to want to see me change and transform.

For that I am greatful and want to continue to change. The infection that resides within me that comes out through the broken pieces has the ability to destroy and that I dont want to continue to carry around.

Peter had Jesus praying for him even before the trial of his soul would come up. Jesus said I have prayed for you that your faith not fail you. My Pastor aliken to Jesus has done the same for me before this soul of mine became unruly and obstinate.

I have work to do to continue to change and I have to be committed to it to see it as a long lasting change and be a person that doesn’t destroy but one that walks in the fruit of the spirit.

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~Cynthia 😍

Strength for Others

God hasn’t provided us strength just for ourself, but its also for our neighbor!

There have been countless times in my life when I felt so weak in faith, drive and passion to go forward that I gave up a many a time.

It took people that were strong in the areas that I wasn’t to hoist me up by the under arm and tell me I could make it, God was with me and that I could do all things through Christ that strengthens me.

Now we who are strong ought to bear the weaknesses of those without strength and not just please ourselves. Each of us is to please his neighbor for his good, to his edification.
Romans 15:1‭-‬2 NASB

Those that have come along side ne and remained a constant in my life helping be a strength have never been stingy with sharing their strength with me. They have lifted me up and helped me walk in things, they have shown me I could do things I didn’t think possible.

They have gave of there abundance of strength even when theirs was lower than usual. We are to be a burden lifter for our neighbors.

It is by there example that I have learned to share my strength with others to help them if its not but listening, a kind word, a smile.

Strength that God has for us is not just for our own pleasure but to use to help others. This is a way to spread the love of God to the world.

Share your strength with others and be a light of Gods love!

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~Cynthia 😍

His Strength Can Help You

When fear creeps in look to God.

There have been numerous times fear has come into my life and took its grip on me. So much so, in areas of life I was paralyzed in moving forward in.

Fear can be a dibiliating faction in a life if it is left undealt with. Much of my life has been lived out of a place of fear over faith and trust.

‘Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10 NASB

When it was made aware to be through councel that I wasn’t living or acting by faith and it was through fear I was presented the choice to make the change to either remain living in fear or begin to trust and live by faith.

Pastor often reminded me of 2 Corinthians 5:7 where Gods word proclaims that we are to live by faith and not by sight.

This one was baffaling to a mind that had constantly tried to figure everything out, to want to know what God will do next, to over plan and prepare to the point of never living in the moment.

The more I learned to let go and have faith its slowly set freedom from planning, stressing, over preparing to the point of not living in now, and worry. That I can and have been finding the now moments are where it matters.

That now knowing God is in control and I have nothing to worry about if I fully beleive Him at His word and name sake. God is not a God that should lie, he takes every thing that happens to us in life to use if for the good.

He knows us and its up to us to get to know Him. He wants that desire in us to develop a close personal relationship with Him so we can look to Him in all things, be our strength in times of weakness and help bring peace to us during any anxious situation.

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~Cynthia 😍

Strength

In the power of His might…

There are times in life we can feel like a lion, ready to take on anything and every thing that comes along. But what happens when the lion becomess battle worn and strength is fading.

Well I know I have found myself slowly down the years becoming battle worn. It was for a good solid ten years plus that each year or every six months it was something new that came along to deal with.

From 2007 til even still now currently there have been many medical emergencies or issues or treatments that have taken place. Each requiring time away from home, traveling long distances and little to no sleep.

Much of that now as I look back on it was done within my own strength. Yes, I beleived in God during the midst of all of it, but I didnt trust and rely on Him to see me through alot of it. It been in coming to Reformation Developmental Center, that has taught me some fundamentals of how God works. He works when I am at rest.

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might.
Ephesians 6:10 NASB

How is that so right?

Hebrews 4:11 says our labor should be to enter rest. When my soul is inwardly busy trying to do everything on my own then I am not at rest, I am also operating from my own strength.

The teaching I have been sitting under has helped me learn to calm my soul at times. Learn to pray and cast things and wait for God to speak on what should be done.

This principles that Pastor Juanita Gibbs has taught me have helped me not be so overwhelmed, burnt out, and anxious in things as they arise in life. This keeps my weaknesses where I can pull on Gods perfect strength to make it through anything.

Recognizing I am not strong in things and humbly asking God to meet me has helped so much. I still have much more of this to practice, but what I am practicing in my life has helped so much.

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~Cynthia 😍

Gladness of Heart

Seeking God’s will for your life brings gladness of heart.

In coming to Reformation Developmental Center that is Pastored by Juanita Gibbs (read her blog post from today) that I stepped into God’s will for my life.

The reason I know I am in God’s will where I am at is because growth is happening, cultivation of gifts has been occuring, purpose has come forth and an overwhelming sense of fulfillment has come within.

Glory in His holy name; Let the heart of those who seek the Lord be glad.
1 Chronicles 16:10 NASB

Never in my wildest dreams did I think that one day I would be truly and completley happy in my life. I had spent so much of it being negative and looking at things from that perspective dampened every outlook I had.

To work with the children at church as an ordained Youth Teacher, to blog 4 to 5 days a week, work on projects that have kingdom impact. Write a book (of which I am still writing) and have two more potential books to write. Being part of a family of God that loves, accepts and helps me continue to grow.

These things came only by seeking the Lord and asking Him where did He want me to be. My soul had done made the choice 2x before and the tenure with those ended and to much pain I have to say.

The gladness of heart has only come by seeking God for what His will for my life was to be, and its been a joyous thing ever since.

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~Cynthia 😍

Stubborn Heart

My heart has been stubborn!

In coming to join Reformation Developmental Center Pastored by Juanita Gibbs that I have come into an awareness that change begins on the inside first.

Chane happens from the inside out and not the outside in.

-Juanita Gibbs

I had to begin to work on changing some core inner issues and stop fighting against what Gods word says about things. My stubborn ways bucked, fought, kicked and screamed to prevent me from changing and remaining the way I was.

The way I was, was a pathway to nothingness honestly. Being full of doubt, fear, worry, anxiety, negativity are all things counter intuitive to God and He wont show up in anything less than faith!

Therefore, change your hearts and stop being stubborn.
Deuteronomy 10:16 NLT

In a way God spoke through my Pastor about I need a genuine change at the heart of me to change what I have going on outwardly around me, how I handle outside circumstances and not be moved so much out of faith in God.

The stubborn heart of mine that has baulked at changing has had to learn to come under submission to Gods word. I had/have to learn to cast down everything that comes up from within that is contrary to the word of God.

By using the word of God it attacks the barriers in my heart to knock them down. This is the only way to clear the field so to speak and make my heart free to take on the new of the truth of Gods word. The more I do this the stubbornness lesses to change my heart to bring about the genuine change in my life from the inside out.

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~Cynthia 😍

A Heart in Full Assurance of Faith

Cleansing the heart…

My old nature can keep me from feeling fully assured in God.

My old nature is my mindsets, stronghold, behaviors, and character that were not touched in my born again nature at salvation can and have at times prevented me from feeling secure in my faith in God.

The old nature resides in my soul(mind, will, and emotions). These components of by being have to go through a transformation to have better more active faith on God. Whereas, at salvation my spirit man was reborn and changed instantly, my soul and body went untouched.

You are a spiritual being that possess a soul that lives in a body.

-Juanita Gibbs, Pastor

Reformation Developmental Center

So, one third of my being was cleansed from old ways. The other two thirds have to be worked on to change. Faith without works is dead.

I have to take to heart that by faith I was saved by the finished works of Jesus on the cross, and thus begin to work on changing me at my soul (mind, will and emotions) and then it will reflect in the body the faith God had set out for humanity to have in Him.

Therefore, brethren, since we have confidence to enter the holy place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way which He inaugurated for us through the veil, that is, His flesh, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water.

Hebrews 10:19‭-‬22 NASB

Drawing near to God is the premise for cleansing my soul. By getting to know Him by His word on a deep level, worshipping God and expressing love for who He is in communion in prayer, thanksgiving, supplication to know whom I belong.

This opens me up to having the full assurance of faith in God. Getting to know Him and His character and love that He has for me and the world. To fully trust that He knows what He is doing in my life and His plans and purposes for me are good.

Its a journey to cleanse the soul and a worthwhile one at that. It has begun to change me on levels that is reflective in my body and character and more to come as I continue in it.

God set before me a wonderful leader of whom I quoted above that He uses to help cultivate and shape my life to be what He said in His word it should be. Without His using of her in my life my old nature would be continuing to run the day and my faith be small.

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~Cynthia 😍

By faith…

Christ dwells in our hearts by faith!

As Pastor Juanita Gibbs has taught us we are a spiritual being that possess a soul and live in a body. For this blog, I am going to focus on the soul aspect. (1 Thess 5:23)

My soul (mind,will, and emotions) is also referred to as our inner man in scripture. This soulish part of my being needs strengthening by the Lord to transform.

My spirit was reborn when I invited Jesus to come and live within my spirit. However, at salvation my soul wasn’t touched in the rebirth. My inner man of my soul takes work and time to change.

It is in this way that Christ will be able to dwell with in our hearts by the faith that opened the door to invite him in. Its that faith that begins to root us and ground us in His love.

As, he has taken up residency within us as we work on strengthening our inner man to understand and take in the things of the spirit.

My old nature and new reborn nature are contrary to one another and will remain in emnity against each other.

That is a reason the inner man need strength for the battle to overcome the sin nature and turn more toward how God initially wanted man to be on the earth in relationship with God.

God wants that close personal relationship with Him, he wanted that from the beginning until deception entered the Garden and that deep connection was lost until Jesus came to restore it.

To know the depth and length of His love to give His only son for our sins so that we may know the fullness of who God really is, the author and finisher of our faith is the lengths that God will go to, to be rooted and grounded in His love, know His fullness, and strengthen our inner man of our soul.

For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:14‭-‬19 NASB

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~Cynthia 😍

Post inspired from teachings taken in at Reformation Developmental Center by Pastor Juanita Gibbs

Leibester Award

I would like to thank Laura M Baily, All The Shoes I Wear blogger for the nomination for this award. Click her name for link to her blog space and check out her writings and such.

What is the Liebster Award? The Liebster is an award that is given to bloggers by other bloggers. Liebster in German means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcoming.

The GUIDELINES for the Liebster Award are as follows:
1. Thank the person who nominated you
2. Display the award on your post
3. Answer the questions given to you
4. Nominate 5-11 other blogs for this award
5. Ask them creative and unique questions of your own
6. List the rules and inform your nominees of the award

My Questions

1. What is “your song” for getting you motivated, to work out, to accomplish a task etc.

-My current motivation song would be lots of songs love listening to music too many favs to name.

2. When you are down about something, what person do you contact and what is always their approach that gets you out of your rut?
-My go to person is my Pastor Juanita Gibbs, she is like such a great best friend to me. She hears me out lets me vent, then keeps it real with me in a counsel type way to show me things to work on in things again or what needs to be prayed about.

Visit her blog by clicking here.

3. Have you ever been so embarrassed you left a place and never went back? What happened?

-I cannot say that has happened to me. If it has I don’t recall it.

4. Do you have a childhood friend that you’ve never heard from since then, but think of often? Have you ever tried to get in touch with that person?

-Had a childhood friend, think of on occasion, but with the time we been apart we have grown in different directions. Seen them on facebook but were not connected via that medium at all.

5. Snakes or spiders?

-NEITHER

6. Have you ever tried to duplicate a meal or dessert that you had a restaurant? Was it epic or an epic fail?

-Yes I sure have it was a main course dish from Cracker Barrel I dont even think its on the menu any longer, but my version turned out just as good if not better than theirs.

7. The last wedding you attended – which guest were you? Life of the party? Hidden in the corner? So drunk you don’t remember? Mad at your date and left early? Feeling sorry for yourself and jealous of the bride and groom?

-Some how at the last wedding I attended I became the unofficial MC of the event and even caught the bouquet.

8. Of all the sci-fi movies you’ve seen, which one would be your “dream future”, the kind of life you could embrace even if not perfect?

-Not really been in to SyFy flix in a long time

9. If you could go back and tell your 12 year old self one piece of information that could change your life, what would it be?

-Change and adapt to things early on, don’t take so much to heart and guard who you think your close to, because they aren’t as close to you as you think they are.

10. What celebrity hairstyle did you try to copy in your teens or early 20s?

-Cant say I have ever copied a hair style ever in my life.

My nominees:

Judy @ Sensibledove

The Sun Shineth Again

Kelleysdiy

KathleenRiley777

GraceO @Gracelifecollections

Questions for my Nominees:

1) What is your favorite color?

2) Cats or Dogs?

3) Favorite book

4) Favorite tv show

5) Favorite movie

6) Favorite candy

7) Which season do you prefer?(Spring,Summer, Fall, Winter)

8) Time alone or got to be around people or both

9) Saver or spender

10) Dream vacation

Faith Seeks Councel Pt 2

The heart of man plans his course. But God directs each step.

For years I have planned my life out and nothing has gone according to those plans. God had sonething different in mind.

When I allowed my relationship with God to become more a focus in my life His leading my steps became very noticeable the more.

I may have had a plan to do something God had other plans of course. He knew I needed some growth and culitvation in areas before somethings I planned out I could walk in. God knows what is best and see’s the real deal.

Without consultation, plans are frustrated, But with many counselors they succeed.
Proverbs 15:22 NASB

Of course most of my plans were made within my will and not His. When God brought Godly counsel in my life it has begun to help shift me to where He wants me to be.

By the counsel that I have received from my Pastor Juanita Gibbs it has helped me begin to grow in my personhood (character), womanhood (Godly woman) and workin me toward my purpose.

By taking on this counsel it has helped me in my teaching of the children I work with, it has helped me transform my blog style into finding my message. Its through counsel we will find success.

By thinking we have obtained it all without counsel, which yes I have done is pride. God cant work with pride, keeping humble and taking counsel is the way of success.

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~Cynthia 😍

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