Faith Pleases God!

Without having faith it is impossible to please God!

The more I come up in the Word of God the more my faith activates. The more my faith activates fear has to leave, worry has to move out, doubt got divorce papers and faith is taking residency. Faith slowly unpacks itself in my soul the more I seek God.

The more I seek God the trust grows, His love for me floods my soul filling the voids and nourishing the soil in my soul to as I keep planting His word and cultivating His word in my life a manifestation of that seeking shall come forth.

Seeking God is seeking Him in His word. Seeking his voice in meditative times as I calm my soul with the techniques Pastor Juanita Gibbs has given us. Seeking Him in worship, praise and thanksgiving for who He is and grandure of His majesty.

And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him.
Hebrews 11:6 NASB

I want to please God, live to serve Him, bring Glory to his name in and through my life. He has done great things for me and I anticipate more great things ahead.

But, I must have faith in God for it all! There is a blessing in seeking him as he reward those who do so. He also proclaimed Seek first the kingdom of God and Hid righteousness then all things will be added.

God has a set order. He wants us to put Him first. In Revelation He told them they had forgotten their first love. He called them out on not keeping Him first. Seeking Him in everything I am finding is very important, especially to remain in His will for my life.

God has a set purpose and plan for all of us. Its up to us to choose our own will or Gods will. By faith I am choosing Gods will.

When I have done things in my own will and strength they have ended. When it is of Him it shall endure for it will be of Him, blessed by Him and have the favor of God on it.

~Cynthia 😍

πŸ’–Faith Steadies the HeartπŸ’–

A steady heart keeps on going…

The more I learn to trust in the leading of the spirit and His guide to my steps my heart can become steady.

When I don’t trust I am full of worry, doubt, fear, anxiety so much so that my heart cam race, cause panic attacks, anxiety attacks, and deep crippling fear to take me over.

Thats not a fun feeling when this times have come upon me I must say. But, but with thr help of the Lord and the God in my leadership they have been teaching me layer by layer to gain control over those things.

Am I perfected in it?

No!

Its a continual process as Pastor Juanita Gibbs tells me that will occur at each level of faith in the journey. There will be times that things deep within will rise up to show itself and I will need those calming tools to deal with it and replace it.

They have prepared a net for my steps; My soul is bowed down; They dug a pit before me; They themselves have fallen into the midst of it. Selah. My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises! Awake, my glory! Awake, harp and lyre! I will awaken the dawn. I will give thanks to You, O Lord, among the peoples; I will sing praises to You among the nations. For Your lovingkindness is great to the heavens And Your truth to the clouds. Be exalted above the heavens, O God; Let Your glory be above all the earth.
Psalms 57:6‭-‬11 NASB

I want the Lord to lead me along in this life and guide my steps by the leading of the Holy Spirit. This is a sure footing with God that I must put full and complete trust in. I know I say that alot in my posts as I am still journeying through my trust issues. But it is getting better slowly.

The more I trust the steadier my heart becomes. The more it does so my praise, thanksgiving and worship can increase and believe me I desleratly want that. God has and is good to me and I give Glory and Honor to all He has done for me in my life especially in the last few months and in my entire life. God has kept me and I praise him for that.

My soul will learn as I keep using the tools given to me to bow to the lead of the spirit. This soul (mind,will and emotions) has a mind of its own at times. It may sound a little cliche but the soul wants its leading role in my life and that is not how our lifes werr originally built to be.

We were built to be spiritual lead. He place the first man in the garden and he was spiritually lead by God when they talked in the cool of the day. Its when satan came in form of a serpent and brought doubt in that spiritual leading of man kind died when the tree was partaken of.

To get that back God sent His son Jesus to restore us to what once was originally destined for his creation. A life once resembling that of when He placed man in the garden and spent time with him and spoke to him and lead him and guided him.

Adam had no worries until that spiritual death came. He worried about his nakedness and hid. I hide in my worries also like its shameful to be so consumed, when God wants us to bring them to him, cast our cares and steady our hearts once more.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith in the Spirits Guide

My spirit guide is the Holy Spirit!

When the deep voids scream out from within that need a filling of some kind I have resorted to other things to bring comfort or consolation of some sort to the depths that longed for what it has not known.

The depths of lack deep with my soul on occasion cause havoc in my life, its so bad and so deep I often times am not aware of it until its way too late and the emotions and logic have had a hayday.

You know it makes sense now when folks have told me I am senstive and take too much to heart. Cause now I see it is in fact true. When I get in my head it runs off to a far off distant land of make believe where everyone is against me. Some fairy tale right? NOT! But that is my reality, sadly to say.

Let me hear Your lovingkindness in the morning; For I trust in You; Teach me the way in which I should walk; For to You I lift up my soul. Deliver me, O Lord , from my enemies; I take refuge in You. Teach me to do Your will, For You are my God; Let Your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For the sake of Your name, O Lord , revive me. In Your righteousness bring my soul out of trouble.
Psalms 143:8‭-‬11 NASB

I have to work to shut down that part of my soul leading my life so strongly that it has caused so much disaster in any personal connection that then I make myself feel victimized when I was and am the culprit for instigating the separation.

I need to allow the loving words of the Father to infiltrate my soul through putting more of it into my spirit. This is gonna take work on my part. But, I know the depths my soul need to know the Father’s love. The dark night of the soul where things die off is hard, ugly, painful, almost to the point of death.

But to know the Fathers love is to allow the Holy spirit to lead me to what I need in this time to do better, get some healing, get some deliverance, make some changes in what has presented itself that is troubling in my life.

God can bring me out of the troubledness of soul in layers and I am gonna have to trust him for that. I need more of the truth to replace what has been within me of my oen logic and reasoning through wounds and damaged emotions for so long that has raised itself up against the truth.

I have work to do, but I will hold onto God is with me, He hasn’t forsaken me and has good plans for my life and these issues that are coming up need to be dealt with. Cause if unchecked the trajectory of my life could have a whole other path. To remain in His will and way submission to what I need to do is called for.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith Holds βš“βš”

The more of the word I get inside my soul the more unmoved by the world I can become!

With working to remove a layer of negativity through the 40 day detox I have seen why the more I was easily moved into doubt, fear, worry, and anxiety to much.

I didn’t have firm rooting in the word of God, which has been causing me to be easily moved and swayed no matter what the situation that arose.

Those who trust in the Lord Are as Mount Zion, which cannot be moved but abides forever.
Psalms 125:1 NASB

The more I abide in Gods word the more unmoved I can become.

But, it takes me being diligent about studying the word, practicing the word as Pastor Juanita Gibbs teaches us by Prayer, meditation, fasting from thoughts that exalt themeselves above the word of God.

I am not fully unmoved yet, but I am striving that day by day, moment by moment I can learn to lean on God beyond my own limited understanding that He knows what He is doing and trust Him to see me through.

He will you also!

I have only drowned or sunk into things because I didn’t have firm grip of the life saving source.

That source is the power of His Word, a personal relationship through prayer and being lead by a surrendered vessel in the leadership He placed before me.

Taking hold of His word can do great wonders for your life.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith Moves

The mountains before me that attribute to the adversity will move by my faith!

Most of the times in adverse situations or trying times I would look at the mountain and wallow in the despair of my emotions.

Doing that is not having faith! Turning more toward faith and away from worry, doubt, fear, anxiety is a bit of a challenge as that is what my soul (mind,will and emotions) has been long programmed to operate from.

Renewing my mind (Romans 12:2) and the spirit of my mind (Eph 4:23) to deeply embedd the word of God into my conscious and subconscious parts of my mind take diligent work and effort to reprogam what I glow out of.

It is easy?

NO! But it is possible!

The power of the word of God is a sword (Hebrews 4:12) to come through and divide out what is not of him and be cast down (2 Corinthians 10:4-5). The more I allow the removal of anything toxic within me the more faith can arise and begin to make moves.

And Jesus answering saith unto them, Have faith in God. For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.
Mark 11:22‭-‬23 KJV

I want to have mountain moving faith! That no matter of the mountain doesn’t move when I want it to move, but when God says its time for it to move and learn what I can from the trial faith will see me through it all!

~Cynthia

Faith through adversity

What greater comfort to know that someone is beside you in rough times!

In the journey of faith it is a key component to have a trusted person at your side. David had Johnathan, Elijah had Elisha, Jesus and Peter and on and on we see people having trusting bonds of connection.

As Pastor Juanita Gibbs told me when I first moved over to Reformation Developmental Center that God didn’t make us an island to ourself!

For most of my life through fears, anxieties, worry, and doubt that I had made myself an island by manifesting the very things I gave power to.

To want a friend/trusted companion in life I first had to be one. Im still learning, but I do hope that I am getting better with the one God has given me that I can trust my secrets with, my darkness with, and the light with. She has allowed me to grow my trust and heal it at my own pace and for that I am greatful.

I have and want to continue to learn that I must not be selfish and learn to fight the fight of faith not just for myself but for my trusted person along my side.

I need to soldier up in the word of God and continue to learn the fruit of the spirit and grow in their usage in my life to stand firm along side them if they need it and not just me needing that support from them all the time. But to give some in return what has been graciously given to me.

The things which you have heard from me in the presence of many witnesses, entrust these to faithful men who will be able to teach others also. Suffer hardship with me, as a good soldier of Christ Jesus. No soldier in active service entangles himself in the affairs of everyday life, so that he may please the one who enlisted him as a soldier.
2 Timothy 2:2‭-‬4 NASB

Being a devoted soldier is going through the boot camp training of the word and allowing its power to convict the wrong/toxic things within me to allow cleansing to please God and be a good soldier for the Kingdom of God walking in my purpose and Gods plan for me.

Is it easy?

No, but it is a matter taking more of the old person I have been off and putting on the new that is in Christ Jesus.

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Pressing Faith

Perseverance to get through the trial will reveal your level of faith.

Pastor Juanita Gibbs so wonderfully expounded upon so many great things in Bible study last night and this one fits so well in with my Faith posts I had to share some of what she brought out.

She taught us that the word of God is a weapon to fight with. It is our ammunition. It is what we are to use to shoot down negativity, doubt, fear, strongholds to get to a place where our faith is more active and vibratly at work in our daily life.

To live by to word she expounded upon is to live a renewed life, as well as, a life walked out in the spirit. To do this she explained is to depraive the fleshly/carnal nature to cripple its controlling lead of our life from out of our soul. A life walked out in the spirit is being spirit lead.

But…

To even get there she explained we must realize where the battle really is! The battle is not just between us and Satan, but it is our inner battle of spirit verses soul. The spirit verses the flesh. (Galatians 5:16-18)

To begin to win the war she told us we must have that ammunition of the word inside of us. We must practice what is brought forth to teach and train us. We must study, meditate, keep it held in our thoughts and have it flow from our mouth to keep loaded for the fight.

The pressure of life, trials and tribulations will come but leaning on our faith and the spirit will see us through far better than fear and flesh. Its that inner press we need to have so deeply rooted inside our inner being that we can with Gods help get through all things. He is for us and not against us. He loves us and as we walk by His spirit grace abounds.

And there came a man named Jairus, and he was an official of the synagogue; and he fell at Jesus’ feet, and began to implore Him to come to his house; for he had an only daughter, about twelve years old, and she was dying. But as He went, the crowds were pressing against Him. And a woman who had a hemorrhage for twelve years, and could not be healed by anyone, came up behind Him and touched the fringe of His cloak, and immediately her hemorrhage stopped. And Jesus said, “Who is the one who touched Me?” And while they were all denying it, Peter said, “Master, the people are crowding and pressing in on You.” But Jesus said, “Someone did touch Me, for I was aware that power had gone out of Me.” When the woman saw that she had not escaped notice, she came trembling and fell down before Him, and declared in the presence of all the people the reason why she had touched Him, and how she had been immediately healed. And He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.”
Luke 8:41‭-‬48 NASB

In the good times and bad times I must renew in the word of God. His word is light, truth, food, and healing the more I learn to lean on His word over my own logic and reasoning. His ways and thoughts are higher than mine and I must learn to get them to submit to his leadership to press in the faith properly.

~Cynthia 😍

πŸ›‘Faith as a shield!πŸ›‘

Fighting the good fight of faith requires proper gear!

In this 40-day detox I have had to yield the weapon of the sword of the word! But, I must also use faith to br my shield for the things that come at me in my environment from other people, influences like tv and radio, etc.

This inward detox of another layer of negativity has been the most challenging, but it is needful to change things in my life.

I have to be patient in my process as Pastor just shared with me last night. I am breaking up over 3 decades of issues my soul houses and they won’t go away over night. It takes time and diligent work on things to bring about changes.

I not only have to guard what comes up and out of my soul, but what comes at me from outside sources. This is where I need a firm shield of faith to help me guard and take no thought on things that come my way that are contrary to the truth of the word of God.

For so long I have allowed the things in my soul and words of others to come in and take root. Unaware that they caused doubt, worry, fear, anxiety, and later as it festered within me depression.

Do not be afraid of sudden fear Nor of the onslaught of the wicked when it comes; For the Lord will be your confidence And will keep your foot from being caught.
Proverbs 3:25‭-‬26 NASB

I have to not be afraid when things happen as when things do happen and rock me that reveals that I have leaned too hard on my own understanding. When your understanding has been hinged off of fear, doubts and worries like mine has then my confidence was placed in my own workings and not what God could do in my life.

Learning to not be afraid when trails come, casting my care on the Lord, leaning not to my own logic and reasoning and in full confidence trust God as Pastor Juanita Gibbs has been teaching me is a transition to get there from how I have done things to how I should do things.

The more truth of His word, promises I find and rise up in the power given to me as a believer things are beginning to settle out, but its still my daily work to manage.

The daily fight is getting better and as Pastor is showing it takes 21 days to break and old habit and its mid-way point at 10 days in and its getting better in small ways and I am greatful for what she is walking so many of us through in this process.

Faith will be my shield and the word of God my sword to keep fighting to change my life for the long haul.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith brings Peace

God is a God of Peace! He is the great Jehovah Shalom!

Anxiety from carrying unresolved issues and wounds of the past have kept an open door in my soul for much trouble in my inner being.

For much of my life I didn’t dwell in the present as I should. I was living of the present but keeping everything of my past at the forfront with me. I had suppressed dealing and confronting my inner issues for so long.

Thus creating an anxious way of living in my inner being of my soul. There was no shred of peace to be found within me. One small thing would send me back into an old place and I would retake up residency there for a while to bathe the sorrow in more pain or what I perceived as pain.

You have held my eyelids open; I am so troubled that I cannot speak. I have considered the days of old, The years of long ago.
Psalms 77:4‭-‬5 NASB

It was so bad that for probably over a year sleep was illusive and I wouldn’t sleep well, my mind would race, it would relive every conversation, it would replay where I could have done or said something different in efforts in me to have either a different outcome or better result of what happened. It would take it all forward into my future and plan days ahead around the pain and wounding.

To say the least my mind was a busy factory manufacturing all kinds of untrue and unrealistic things that brought, worry, doubt, fear, anxiety, negativity and depression.

The more throught this detox of negativity I am fighting my way through to rid myself of a level that needs to come off my life for as Pastor Juanita Gibbs taught us last night that those things are poison to God manifesting goodness in our life.

So, I have to be determined to not allow poison to continue to pollute my now or what I hope to be down the road for me. It will take faith in God, a confident assurance that He will not disappoint me, and patience to develop in me what needs to be developed.

The more I lean on the word of God over the old that I have dwelled in peace slowly is coming in. I can begin to not have to fight my way to sleep. I am becoming less clouded in my mind by not continually looking to whats behind me and gone and finished but to learn from it and keep moving forward as best I can.

I still stumble with it as I am far from perfect. But, the difference now in my stumbling and my early in stumbling is I don’t try to dwell in my faults or errors for too long for the can paralyze me from moving forward.

As to why now the more I need to be fully committed to having a Word Life to close the doors in my inner being to stop giving the enemy opportunity within me as it is my job to guard my heart and mind.

It has been through Pastors loving leadership and example to show me that having a Word Life can and will make a difference and goodness from God can begin to flow through into my life. Peace has begun to push out anxiety as a result and I will keep pressing to see more change in my life.

~Cynthia 😍

But what about…

I can do it myself. What can you do to help me?

In the fleshly pride that it is that is the mindset I have had about some things in my spiritual journey of faith.

The last 2 days I must say have been the most interesting yet as its been consistent of God speaking and revealing and confirming things.

What a God I serve!

But….

Its all boiled down to dealing with my trust issue.

Yes!

I have trust issues and I can unashamedly confess this. For healing comes when confession takes place as the power of the issue looses its grip.

To take the first step to deal with my trust issue after confessing it is to go to God!

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 NASB

But, why am I weary? Oh yeah the trust issue…I figured I could work to make it go away, suppress it to make it go away, or be totally in fear and not do anything. To be honest in some degrees I have done all three of those.

I did not have enough trust in God to help me to find healing and wholeness. Not within my own strength anyway. I would say that it began to grow with the addition of my current pastor Juanita Gibbs. She has so lovingly came into my life to help me walk a process of transforming and growing in my soul!

Alot of my faith journey has been one of pleasing people over myself. Yes! I have been a people pleaser! What ddi it profit me, stress, much self work, rejection, etc.

Now with Pastors coaching of my life the people pleasing is getting tips and wisdom to manage it, but to know whats people pleasing and what is flowing in the fruit of the spirit.

Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.
Galatians 6:9 NASB

I put more trust in humanity than I did God by being a people pleaser. And that doesn’t please God! For if I do unto others as I would have done unto me that would be flowing from fruit and not stressing to please people. Trusting that God see’s a pure heart of service unto him over man helps me to build trust in God to begin to make a shift.

I have to begin to put more confidence in the truth of His word. It contains the power already, but I have to access it by faith and hope. The more my soul learns to wait on the Lord patience has to be at work.

I wait for the Lord , my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 NASB

God has me to wait on Him to grow in character, so He give me work on myself to do. My pastor coming along side as my inner life coach has begun to help deliver and heal areas of my soul.

For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think; but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith. Romans 12:3 NASB

There has been many times in my learning to trust God that I have doubted I had enough faith to grow or heal. Pastor has told me I have to use my measure of faith and work it to begin to be made whole. The contents of my soul have to be treated as they have caused infection in my life.

And Jesus answered and said to them, ” It is not those who are well who need a physician, but those who are sick. Luke 5:31 NASB

Jesus came and provided himself as a way for that to happen in my life. Isaiah 61 is one of my favorites that Jesus proclaimed in His time that the spirit of the Lord was upon Him to heal, deliver, and set free. That same is true even now the Holy Spirit os that very nature. But, I have to trust that nature to be made whole.

And He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.” Luke 8:48 NASB

The more I place my utmost full trust in God, manage people pleasing and trusting in humanity over God, stop doubting him, trust the God given people He has provided the more healing can take place and I can work toward wholeness and growing in maturity.

And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
James 1:4 NASB

I have to continue to be patient with God, but myself also healing and growing are a process of time and committed work of believing in God, hoping in His word, casting all my cares in God, dealing with stuff when things bother me, stop suppressing and work diligently toward being mature(perfect) and lacking in nothing. Seeing that He is my supply and all I have need of is found in Him and his love for me(the world).

With the help of My Pastor Juanita Gibbs and the Lord and doing my part in time being whole in my soul will be my testiment of faith!

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰