Seasons Change

“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:”
‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭3:1‬ ‭KJV‬‬

It’s hard to understand sometimes why seasons change, especially when we aren’t the one’s in charge of making the change.

Like last year about this time the global season of being outgoing, carefree, vivacious, and free came to a screeching halt during the time the pandemic of COVID-19 become more impacting to us all.

The season of the pandemic seemed to take us back to yester year when we connected genuinely with one another. A season in which family became more paramount. A season of loss in many ways, such as life, job, finances, and so much more. A time this has been, that I would say probably six months of 2020 really revealed what and who was important in this world. The shops we went to closed cause they were deemed “non-essential” the sporting events deemed “non-essential” what became essential where Parents to be home while their children home schooled from computers. Front line workers of Doctors, nurses, EMTs, truck drivers, teachers, and anyone working in essential business became what was vitally important in the season.

What’s begun to happen since that season came upon us?

The restrictions and limitations have been slowly shedding…

What’s been happening as a result of that?

We’ve not stayed so deeply connected with one another. We are allowing the times to go right back into ruling our schedule. When, I wholeheartedly believe that season of shutdown globally, if people had allowed God into it, they would see that He used that season to show us what was TRULY important. He to me revealed the level of Christian brotherly and sisterly love that could come forth during such isolating times. People genuinely checked on one another, people begun to see their deep need of true community, people could see that being an island to ourself is lonely.

When the world used it to say, ok the shops are open go spend your money. Go out and support local! Which, there is nothing wrong with doing that in a way that it doesn’t consume your entire life. Helping one another yes is a God command, but why soon as restrictions let up we are all ready to head to the shops and hang out on isle 7. Yet, we still refuse to gather in Houses of Prayer due to fear of the virus. How is the virus not on isle 7 and yet its on the third church pew, that is some thinking I will never understand.

Seasons Change and some we have control in making come about, when I changed jobs that was one season change I had a hand in. Yet still even before the verdict of being accepted at the new job, God presented a choice, remain or leave… the choice was mine as we have all been given free-will to choose. I chose to leave the old job, and since I have, my anxiety level has drastically decreased. My level of worries changed. My thought shifted to new things.

Don’t get me wrong sometimes season change and bring wonderful things like new love, a wedding, a child, a promotion, a raise. Seasons changing is part of life whether we have a say or not… it will forever be what we make of the season while we are in it. That lesson alone has taken me a while to grasp in my mindset. I’m slowly getting there!

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These are the days…

Of Life During A Global Pandemic!

I don’t know about the rest of my readers, but this whole thing has taken my stress level to a new all time high!

Every day the rules change! Every day things are getting more scarce! Every day a new way to go about daily life is implemented!

When all this began it wasn’t to the level that it is now. Back then social distancing was a thing that was new. Then limits on how many people could get together. Then stores shutting down that were deemed non essential. Dining facilities closed, but allowing for take out or drive threw only.

Now government offices are closed. How you pay your bills has drastically changed many have closed down in person transactions and implemented non personal contact to conduct business. As of late we are now encouraged to wear masks when interacting in the public.

So, I had seen a tutorial on how to make some inexpensive cloth masks. So, I made some to have on hand. Even some extra to give to someone, but that changed so now I will just wait and see how things go, as I may need them as I still have to deal with public on the regular.

My daily living is constantly being challenged and constantly changing to the point its hard to keep up. So much so that its affecting my interpersonal stuff. But thats a whole blog post in itself that I will spare the world from of the betrayal and revealing of the truth of the matter that folks will stand hard with people who shorted them in things and use another to get what they want and just discard folk. But, thats ok like any other situation. It will only make me stronger!

In my down time yesterday, I needed an escape. An escape from everything! An escape from people! An escape from feeling closed in! An escape from feeling like my freedoms I still had weren’t being taken away. So, on my way home I took a brief detour. I visited the tulip fields that the near by Dutch heritage farmers plant yearly.

It was such a moment of pure escape that a storm began to creep up on me and I had to leave the experience. But, learning in these times to stop, slow down and experience life in a different way from the hustle and bustle is what this Pandemic is doing.

Earlier this past weekend I stopped to smell the roses and brought them home! They have opened up so beautifully the look like lil sunbursts on my desk.

The place I have found to go for walks has slowly been closing down parts to the public to implement social distancing and from large groups to be gathering. The fishing piers are slowly being closed off to prevent many from being in same close place together. Stores have begun to have door ways locked to deter inflow and outflow. A major chain box store only allows one way in and one way out currently. Gas stations are beginning to do the same.

So, what would be my encouragement to you in all this as I am sure other more impacted areas are having tighter restricitions.

Live the life you have been given to the best of your ability while staying safe and abiding the laws of the land. Is it fun or easy right now? No! To be honest I have complained the whole way through, now it is time for me to see the silver lining in it and keep putting one foot in front of the other.

So, when on my most recent walk to the park I took some pics of things I hadn’t really payed attention to out there before. I will share them below:

Taken while on a drive Monday
Moon Bloosoms
Bridge over trouble waters
Storm coming while at tulip farm
Clouds that resembled a feather while on a drive

One thing I will take away from all this is that sometimes its best to go back to just looking after your own self and taking care of your mental health.

“Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:12‬ ‭KJV‬‬

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Freedom Calls!!

The freedom we have been given came at a high price!

Most of us took time recently to celebrate the 4th of July. Well if your an American you did any way. The limitation of this is broad and Americans understand it. Not saying other contries don’t, but using it to make a point.

What about the freedom we all have been granted by the blood of Jesus. This freedom is a universal freedom..its not isolated to a certain country or age or nationality. The freedom of the savior is for all.

For you were called to freedom, brethren; only do not turn your freedom into an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another. Galatians 5:13 NASB

We are all called to be free. Jesus came to set the captive free! Those that hear the good news of what He came to do for us.

Our freedom is not to be taken lightly! It is to be reveared, appreciated, and cherished because God didn’t have to give His only Son to die for the sins of the world and rise agaib restoring the relationship He had intended for us to have back in the Garden of Eden.

As we walk in this freedom of our spirit our soul still needs to be set free from things. Like old ways of thinking, old ways of feeling, old ways that just do no good and don’t produce any good things in your life we also need freedom from.

The work is hard! Your flesh if it is anything like mine it has taken comfort in the bad, wrong and unfruitful things and they had to be attacked by the word of God to tear down, as well as, God using an anointed vessel of my Pastor in my life to do so in me.

Freedoms call is ours to receive! We see it come through and we can either accecpt it or slide the lil red phone and reject the call. The choice is ultimatley ours. But many are called, few choose to answer.

Will you answer?

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Freedom by Faith

Escaping Prison!

I have come to learn that how I am doesn’t always like the truth. I woukd take a lie as truth in a hot minute over the true truth.

This has kept me in prison if sorts. A prison of deception and hindered growth, maturity in areas, as well as, enforced a stronghold of deception in my mind.

How did I know I was in prison?

Well…

When truth has come I fight it. God has been very instrumental in using my Pastor Juanita Gibbs in my life. She is a realist and operates from realness and truth and this has been very much what I needed in my life.

Someone who would keep it real and genuine and yet still love me when the reality of my truth has surfaced.

Not many people are mature or capable within to handle another persons truth. So many will sit back and pass judgement and pray not spiritual prayers this creating an even bigger problem.

and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.”
John 8:32 NASB

To be set free I have to continually see the truth so it can cut the bonds of deception to release its hold within my soul.

Slowly freedom is coming, but I first had to see I was in a prison of my own making. God had nothing to do with me being in a prison of deception, I chose to be there by my choices.

He has given us the power of choice to walk in deception or to be free. We can walk around and knowingly or unknowingly be deceiving people.

But self-control allows us to choose to knowingly or unknowingly accept or reject the deception of others.

We shall know the truth and the truth alone makes us free!

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👄What you say matters!👄

Words carry so much more power than we give them credit for.

Our words can either be life and blessings or death and curses. Its how we guard them as to what their impact will be once they have left our lips.

My words have often been negative and that has most definitley been death and cursing that has escaped my lips. The contents of my soul are damaged to the point of needing healing in areas.

The words I have taken in from hearing others speak of me for years has created its own dwelling place within me. So much so that when they come even in my current they go right on in as a welcomed guest. Then they begin to talk. They begin to say “you know they are right, you are what they said about you” or “its all your fault things don’t work out”.

Then from my mouth comes that same negative talk that has flowed for as long as I can recall. To have such a sensitivity in me that when things that seem bad are spoken of me that I dwell in the declaration of “your an aweful person” or “no wonder God isn’t moving on your behalf yoir jusy too messed up”.

Maybe I am the only one who battles this stuff. But, this is my fight that wages within me day in and day out. There are days when the battle is so wearing on me its like just give up its not working for you like it is others. Therefore, back up the already negative that has come that “no wonder God isn’t moving on your behalf”. Thus triggering states of depression and hopelessness.

I have to fight my way out of the box of that to get loosened from my chains.

Is it easy?

NO!

Is it possible to overcome?

Yes…

But, as long as I do the work to make my way out of it. Pastor tells us that scripture all the time faith with out works is dead. And it works vice versa also that works without faith is also dead.

I have to begin to stand and fight with faith. The fighting to get the old out is the work. So, I am just praying that over time I will be able to guard me better to shield from going into the depths of darkness to the brightness of light. To speak power words of faith over the old power words of death to my life.

~Cynthia

Now that I have asked, now prepare!

We are to prepare for what we pray for!

In my time as it has been if singlehood it has provided me time to pray and seek the Lord and its a great time to spend with my Savior. Developing that true and lasting relationship with communication and worshipping his majesty, thanking him for his goodness, grace and mercy in thanksgiving. To study and delve into his guide book for all things concerning life to navigate the path here on the earth.

In times past though I hated continuing to remain single. It was as if my mind decided to name it a plague or something. But when God got hold of me through my wonderful Pastor Juanita Gibbs to show me in reality it is a blessing and a prepatory time was revolutuonary for me. It held begin to reshape my thinking on the whole thing.

Later, as time has gone on she has helped me tackle some wring stronhild thinking that I have had about it and to begin to bring healing to places from damage in my soul from my past, how I have lived this life that seriously needed attention as I had tried for so long to put a man in those places and always ended up hurt and the more empty due to the contents of my soul.

Her book up above(which can be purchased on Amazon) has helped me have a paradigm shift to loose fear, doubt and worry and begin to have faith, hope and trust in God that in time He provides whats needed. Where I had thought it may just bot happen for me and that thought is not in line with the word of God. So it is to he captured when comes and cast down (2 Corin 10:4-5).

Freedom from old stuff is a process and it takes time. As to why the word of God is the best guide book to have in this life as it touches all subjects including relationships. Her book has helped me begin to shift my mind and see myself as a winner in the faith and trust in God and His timing.

These books below are others that I have read in time past before going to the church that has so wonderfully aided me in my life far more than theae books as my lraders know me and my battles and issues as they have taught the best knowledge is your own personal experiance and gaining wisdom from those who know you personally to help naviagte the journey.

In no particular order:

This book is great for understand yourself and how you commincate in showing/displaying love to those in your life.

This book mainly focuses on enjoying single life! I passed my copy on to encourage other single sisters, but God replaced the copy when He sent me a leader in my Pastor who tells me the same thing. Enjoy, live, focus on God, walk in my purpose and his will. She is my book of wisdom since the others fully cannot relate to me as she can relate me to my story and prepare me.

This book was pretty much a reinforcement to my Pastors councel to trust God. As this spoke about divine timing and God doing the work to bring about His will and plans for my life.

This book expounded on Ruths story. She focused on her purpose with Noami and Boaz found her. Our bishop has spoke on her story in times to wait to be found by him as we are about our Fathers business. To stop falling for the words of a Bozo (lol) but wait while God works. Wait patiently with good attitude.

This book also reinforced the concept of time and touched on boundaries and enlightened that if you have things going on in your life you may not need to be in a relationship where we need wait and get healing first just as my Pastor focuses on with us. Heal the inner and if its Gods will He will bring things to pass.

This one is a premartial counceling book. That focuses on reflecting marriage as marriage of christ and the church as to which that is what earthly union should reflect when 2 born again believers come together.

This book opened up more the concept from the prior book, but showed more the difficulty and challenges in union on one flesh. As my pastor has taught us that 2 becoming one is an undertaking of understanding, forgiveness, and unconditional love to not quit when things get hard, but to keep at it.

This one I have not read, but I have read the book Boundaries just not this targeted area. But my Pastor has been instilling in me boundaries are very important in all kinds of relationships.

I so love my church Reformation Developmental Center where they speak on practical wisdom tips as well as full depth of the word of God to bring us insight into all things in this life.

~Love Life~Live Life~😍

~Cynthia 😉

Love Affair Pt 2

Still just so scandalous…lol

Well todays love affair is about falling in love with the word of God. The true and living word that has the power to save and change our soul.

In my years in the faith I have over time been growing to learn to love the word, its truth and its abililty to transform me. In mt early time I would read the word just to read it and no real change came into my life.

As I began to study the word it helped me to begin to understand it some more. But with study there must be application to life. Now in thay I faultered! I read and studied to have a feel good emotion to get the through whatever was going on until it passed.

Where I attend church now in the last year and a half (almost) they have been teaching and emphasising the importance of study and life application of the truths from the word. To take them deep into my soul to right the wrongs, to heal the wounds, to loose the chains, to remove deception to grow to more in the image and likeness of Christ.

Change is hard and painful, but necessary to live out the plans, purposes, and call of God on your life. To change we have to be submissive to what the spirit of God wants. We may think we know whats best, but in actuality we don’t. For a man can plan his steps, but the Lord leads.

Learning to fall in love with the best love story ever given to us in humanity is also a journey. A God full of mercy and grace sent His only beloved son to earth to walk a life like we do, feel all that we feel, hurt like we have hurt, and still live out a ministry and gave his very lifes blood for the sins of us who sin where He knew no sin.

What a love for us that is provided. May that love flood our soul today and renew in it to keep feeling that love.

~Love Life~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

Love Affair Pt 1

Sounds scandalous right!!

The love affair I am beginning is well loving myself.

I have been on a journey of self discovery for a few months now. Its been a journey to say the least. Even my writing these blogs have helped me discover hidden parts of me.

But, in actuality the self discovery began with my church teaching us about self deception, knowing our truth, loving our truth no matter what it looks like. It was this that really began to set this all in motion.

I am learning to love myself beyond all the issues in my soul that has surfaced the abandonment, rejection, comparison, acceptance, fear, doubt, worry, anxiety and depression.

Learning to work through those issues to come to a level of healing. Learning that those issues don’t define me they are part of me but they will be learned of to take control of and manage them. Learning that just because I have issues is no reason to reject myself as I have been doing.

Everyone has issues of some kind I have also learned. Like me they hide the real you, they hide the issue, hide that all is perfect and well. But, when the real test comes thats when the guard is let down and the issues are revealed. Least thats how it has been for me, the test would come and show where I was at.

I am also learning that my love has limits as to why when I see I have issues I reject even myself. This is when the fruit of the spirit of love has had to come in the more. To pull on Gods eternal love for me.

To know even in my mess God still extends grace and mercy to me to work on my short comings and be healed amd walk free from them and to help others like me at some point overcome.

Will I ever be fully free from my issues? Maybe in level as healing happens. Other issues within will require management on my part.

May I keep walking this journey day by day to love myself knowing by Faith God does no matter what.

~Love Life~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

Bad Friendship!

Rejection and fear have a friendship that work together in unity in a wounded soul.

When rejection happens many times over it brings damage to the soul. The soul begins to find ways to heal, but if not being healed with good methods then it adds to the wounding creating a scar within. Least thats how it has been in my life.

Wounds of rejection would happen and my healing method was to let fear come in and protect me. Fear soothed the wound that if I never get close to anyone again then the pain wouldn’t come again by another rejection. But what happened when another cane along into my life?

Well…

They would come and over time yup I let the next one right on into my heart. What happened next was any sign that they were rejecting me I would begin to close off as I was being deemed unacceptable to them. I would wall up and push them away to save the fragile pieces of my heart as best I could from fear of it happening again.

Once wounding began to create other ways of wounding myself within my soul. It was so strong the fear and rejection that I began to shut out good people that God had placed in my life making time with me very difficult. Difficult to the place that I began to expect them to leave me.

But that all stemed from fear and rejection of the past. When they have reinforced to me they are God sent and yes its proven that they are that I still fear the most that people will leave me.

I am told that faith and fear work similar just with different results. The very things I have feared that people would continually come and go has happened. But, I can only manage myself, if something about me is rejected and they want to leave then thats their reasons.

I just have to manage myself with overcoming the fear and rejection issue to not push people away and guard my heart to not take people into my heart so quickly or easily. I need to slow down allow time on the scene and let things be proven.

When God sends me people with a heart after his, yes they may judge and show concern, but also accept that they too have issues and we all are working to overcome and accept each other on our faith journey in life.

~Love Life ~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

Fear Management

Heard of anger management? Fear management is just the same its learning how to control this specific emotion!

Being a fear driven person as I have been can be a job to overcome. Going on a discovery mission to find the root causes of why such fear is felt deep within side of me.

I have blogged about some of my root issues I work to overcome, so I wont revisit them in this one, but visit my page to read about them if you like. My fruit of thoses issues has become fear. There is a quote by Franklin D. Roosevelt (FDR) that was penned “you have nothing to fear but fear itself”. So lets put that in the biblical standard when Gods word says He has NOT give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. (2 Tim 1:7)

My Pastor has been showing me that fear has power just like faith does just not in the good way. So where in lays my belief is it belief in the fear or is it belief by faith….ohhhh wow that one is heavy. That takes an examination of where in fact do we give the power to manifest through our beliefs.

Cause either the very thing I fear the most and believe will happen has been given legal power and authority by my belief to back it to manifest. Has it been so? Yes!

Where if I shed the fear I have, feel it but don’t let it rule me but see where I have an open space within that fear resides to work to replace the fear with faith. Then faith can grow as long as I feed faith with faith. My soul can begin to be healed of the fear and I learn to manage it in my life.

Fear won’t go away some fear is healthy. Like having a holy fear of God or fear when you feel in danger. The fear I am referring to is a fear that is unnatural or unfounded in a belief system.

Have I learned how to fully manage my fear? No! Each testing of my faith can reveal new levels of fear I house. So, the test shows me where I am at and how much work needs to continue to be done in my soul.

I will continue to work to grow in my soul to become stable in feeling fear by using truth from the word of God when a fear flair up happens. The word is a powerful sword to begin to divide me from deception of the world that says you need things now, yesterday, years ago, etc.

When God knows full well what I need within before I walk into something and destroy it whether it be a job, a calling on my life, a friendship/relationship, etc. He will not bless, promote, or exhault before proper time.

Thank God for His wisdom and that wisdom he place on others to help lead, guide, and direct you in this life. He placed before me a leader if great wisdom and she has imparted and taught me much that I will keep using to grow in areas to be perfect (mature) in the wisdom of God in the world today.

~Love Life~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

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