Faith with trust issues!

Over time of broken trust in people it became issues in trusting in God also.

Having faith in God the unseen creator of all things we see today is tough at times when there are trust issues in the soul of broken trust in humanity.

But, God word proclaims I shouldn’t trust in the flesh/humanity as it is imperfect, it is flawed, it is conditional, broken, wounded, etc.

So by doing so that opened me to hurts and wounds that came from my relations with people, that spilled over to my relationship with God.

God is faithful, trustworthy, dependable, on time, ever present, not as man that would lie, fulfills his word, keeps his promises.

So what do I do when I have deeply rooted trust issues?

Begin to progress toward trusting in God and the God in people again. I saw this quote alot monday and it just resonnated:

Faith is taking the first step eveb when you don’t see the whole staircase. Martin Luther King Jr.

The way to begin to trust is by risking the first step by faith that God and the God in the person will lead you the right way.

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs quotes Joyce Meyer in the regard of “do it afraid!” Then she goes on to say take the step of faith that God will meet you as you walk in faith, walk as the spirit leads you as He leads you trust in Him.

The positive God given influences in my life have aided in my beginning to trust in people again and God again. Where there is any bond of connection trust is important Pastor tells me. So, I need my trust to grow to be able to have good relationships with people and God.

As trust grows my measure of faith can be exercised more and become more effective in my spiritual journey.


Faith is a substance!

But what is faith?



  1. complete trust or confidence in someone or something
  2. strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof.

So, how is that a substance right?


Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Hebrews 11:1 NKJV

When I feel hopeless that reminds me that I am in my natural 5 senses looking for evidence of God being at work in my life.

But, thats not living by faith searching and looking for proof. Pastor Juanita Gibbs tells us at Reformation Developmental Center the scripture that the just shall live by faith.

Faith is a key component in this life. Gods word also proclaims that we are to live by faith and not by sight as pastor also reminds me of often to help me renew. Yet I have gone around by sight looking to have faith.

How backwards is that right!

It was the mind set of show me then I will believe. But, God says have faith then you shall see. Seek me first and my kingdom and my righteousness then watch for all the things I will add unto you.

Faith and hope work together as a powerful force. But they need to be firmly rooted in the spirit of God. By that I mean that the contents of my soul (mind, will, and emotions) will at times try to move me from standing in faith. The spirit leading my life needs to be supreme.

When my faith and hope are bound to my emotions and how I am thinking at the time that is an emotional rollercoaster of ups and downs.

God wants me to be firm and untossed as the changing tides, anchored deeply in his love and trust that all that comes my way in life will work together for the good.

Faith anchored in the finished work of the cross as Pastor tells us will help us to endure and exercise our measure of faith and remain being lead and guided by the spirit over my soul.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

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I will say that it is only because of my Pastor Juanita Gibbs, that she encouraged me to begin to blog and write.

Without her encouraging voice I wouldn’t be doing any of this. Thank you Pastor for your impact and influence in my life!

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What is hope?

When all hope feels lost!

So what is hope by term of definition:



  1. a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen.
    “he looked through her belongings in the hope of coming across some information”
  • archaic
    a feeling of trust.


  1. want something to happen or be the case.
    “he’s hoping for an offer of compensation.”

What is hope in terms of God:

In the same way God, desiring even more to show to the heirs of the promise the unchangeableness of His purpose, interposed with an oath, so that by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have taken refuge would have strong encouragement to take hold of the hope set before us. This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, a hope both sure and steadfast and one which enters within the veil, where Jesus has entered as a forerunner for us, having become a high priest forever according to the order of Melchizedek.
Hebrews 6:17‭-‬20 NASB

So, what does this have to do with anything right?

Hope seems to be a key factor in motivation to go forth in anything.

Hope to change our weight, our health, grades, education, career, etc. The obtaining of the end goal we shoot for and hopes to attain it are a driving force.

But, what about when hope feels lost?

We have to either encourage ourself or if you have someone close that is a great encouragement in your life to pull from in a time of weakness.

Those who can encourage you are great assets to have in this life.

I mean, I look back over my life and see where I lacked motovational encouragment in my life up until about 2013 when a lady came into my life and she is a pastor up a few counties away by the name of Juanita Gibbs.

She has been the only voice of genuine encouragment in my life to change and pursue all things. Had it not been for her voice would I be blogging today?

Would I been writing my book to put out soon?

Probably not!

With how I am surrounded in my day-to-day environment there is severe drought of encouraging hope filled voices. Many around will in not so many words be like give up, its not worth it, you haven’t achieved much in life to date, do what makes you believe it could be different? Those thoughts play often in hard times.

But, then Pastors words of the scripture that with God all things are possible. Her words have begun to dispell the dark give up thoughts of others implantes in my soul to even begin to change on any level.

Have I changed fully to where hope resides abundantly?


Hope is a daily struggle for me! Its only up to me to keep and maitain a level of hope to be in faith to see God begin to even give a glimmer of wanting to do a new thing in my life.

With Pastors encouragment in my life I wouldn’t be doing most of what I do even now like working with the children teaching them. But, as long as she I along side of me its like I can go further than I or anyone else imagined for me. As God is within her and using her to transform my life!

(Pastors website, facebook and blog linked above. Check the links out on her webite check out her book and her store. Every tuesday on facebook she does a live teaching.)


Remain Calm!!

This is a test of the inner soul system!

Kinda reminds me of when the weather alert system message comes on doesn’t it?

Just how the weather is on alert for bad weather our inner should be reaching a place the more I practice using the tools my Pastor Juanita Gibbs has been teaching me to know when things are on approach to arise.

I was in my prayer time this morning and found that I spent longer than usual in that time with God.

Ohhh did I find out later as to why. Here in the south (North Carolina) it is unusually cold. I think this is the coldest its been in a very long time. The job where I work there was no gas for heat, pipes were frozen. Being as we are a telecommunicationd company the systems were down until 11:30am.

Needless to say with no heat and no restroom facility it wasn’t the normal of a day. I could feel the anxiety rising slowly with each call about why stiff wasn’t working. Finally got the word to close the office to discover my cell phone had been disconnected, so had to call and see what was going on with my carrier.

Had I not spent that extra time with God would I have been so aware of my anxiety rising? Probably not! I could have walked out a soulish way in the chaos.

My spirit was already aware that I needed that time as to why my time in communion was extended. The spirit is always willing, my soul not so much , the more it submits to the spirit as Pastor teaches that life by the spirt will grow.

Is it easy to live by spirit over my soulish ways? No!! But the more I use the tools given to me, the more i cam shift how I live out life from my spirit more than my soul.

This is my work to do to practice the wisdom shared with me to apply it yo my life. Not just in merr word alone, but in action also. Faith without works is dead. For it to be alive I must in faith use the tools to be effective.


O my soul, why are you so anxious?

The more I learn to manage things that make me anxious the more I can lean on the spirit leading me over my soul.

When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Your consolations delight my soul.
Psalms 94:19 NASB

My mind and my emotions have been my driving force for as long as I can recount, so that essentially means most of my life.

Its not been until coming to ministry that have foundational verses of:

  • 1 Thess 5:23
  • Romans 12:1-2
  • Ephesians 4:23

These verses deal with the inner life!

My soul layer by layer is being transformed and yes it can be painful to change from old ways!

But the word proclaims we are to put off the old man and put on the new!

Thats what transformation is, is the changing of my ways in different phases, stages and degrees that my beloved Pastor Juanita Gibbs of Reformation Developmental Center has been bringing to light.

My inner anxiety being confronted so it can submit to the word of God!

When things inwardly go undealt with or unconfronted they run your life!

~Juanita Gibbs

My soul says be anxious!

Gods truth says “be anxious for nothing”

So, I have to stop what my soul is saying and submit it to the word of God. That is the beginning of confronting my inner issue and beginning to deal with it.

The more I become aware of my soul being anxious in the beginning before my thoughts and emotions run with it, I can say “soul why are you anxious?”

Managing my anxiety is firsty confronting it and beginning to deal with it using the tools and weapons my Pastor has been teaching me to use!

Where can I find peace?

Peace is it a destination or some far aloof ideal?


Peace for me has only come in small amounts. For as it is said that happiness is an inside work, so is peace.

Peace is an inside work!

My inner life of my soul is such a busy metropolis at times that its no wonder peace is limited!

People who become accustomed to the constant noise can find it strange to be in peace and quiet. We have seen it in movies when the city person goes to a country for restful time and they may have to play sounds of the busy city life to even fall asleep.

Then comes a time that they readjusted to the not being in the clammer of hustle of the noise that peace has begun to come into their life.

I am finding myself at a place where I long for the peace within myself! My inner anxiousness is much like a busy metropolis.

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs (Note: Each part of her name is linked to her book, facebook, website) spoke on last sunday that God wants to lead me beside the still waters. That referance can be found in Psalm 23.

He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul;

Psalms 23:2‭b-‬3a NASB

I have to begin to allow God to hold my hand and lead me beside still waters. By that is embracing and submitting to the teaching my Pastor has been imparting to all of us. This way He can begin to restore my soul.

As my soul (inner life) becomes more accustomed to peace it will not want to go back to anxiety.

I began to write out some highlights of her teaching in a new notebook lastnight to be my quick referance guide to get back to peace when anxiety needs to be caught and dealt with.

She has imparted so much when I recapped the teachings it was a vibrant refresher to my spirit.

The more I lean on my spirit where the spirit of God dwells within me the anxiety in my soul can begin to be starved out. Thats what I would like for it to do anyway.

I want to move out of the anxiety and take up new residency in peace. Its up to me to keep moving along beside the still waters!


πŸ‘„What you say matters!πŸ‘„

Words carry so much more power than we give them credit for.

Our words can either be life and blessings or death and curses. Its how we guard them as to what their impact will be once they have left our lips.

My words have often been negative and that has most definitley been death and cursing that has escaped my lips. The contents of my soul are damaged to the point of needing healing in areas.

The words I have taken in from hearing others speak of me for years has created its own dwelling place within me. So much so that when they come even in my current they go right on in as a welcomed guest. Then they begin to talk. They begin to say “you know they are right, you are what they said about you” or “its all your fault things don’t work out”.

Then from my mouth comes that same negative talk that has flowed for as long as I can recall. To have such a sensitivity in me that when things that seem bad are spoken of me that I dwell in the declaration of “your an aweful person” or “no wonder God isn’t moving on your behalf yoir jusy too messed up”.

Maybe I am the only one who battles this stuff. But, this is my fight that wages within me day in and day out. There are days when the battle is so wearing on me its like just give up its not working for you like it is others. Therefore, back up the already negative that has come that “no wonder God isn’t moving on your behalf”. Thus triggering states of depression and hopelessness.

I have to fight my way out of the box of that to get loosened from my chains.

Is it easy?


Is it possible to overcome?


But, as long as I do the work to make my way out of it. Pastor tells us that scripture all the time faith with out works is dead. And it works vice versa also that works without faith is also dead.

I have to begin to stand and fight with faith. The fighting to get the old out is the work. So, I am just praying that over time I will be able to guard me better to shield from going into the depths of darkness to the brightness of light. To speak power words of faith over the old power words of death to my life.


πŸ™ŠπŸ™…Why Did I Say That?!?!πŸ™…πŸ™Š

Have you ever heard something you said only to regret saying that very thing that was said?


I know I sure have! If you haven’t then that is definitley a blessing!

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs has been teaching me that my words either good or bad, faithful or doubtful create my life. Words have power she says!

She backs it all up with scripture.

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.

Proverbs 18:21 NASB

That has been so my case! I have been eating the fruit of so much negativity, doubt, worry, fear, anxiety that my soul had come to love it.

When the spirit living within was like please reject the bad fruit and try the new fruit God by his spirit and the fruits of His spirit have provided. So, I could not only nourish my spirit man but my soul man the more I reject the bad fruit and choose the good fruit.

I said, “I will guard my ways That I may not sin with my tongue; I will guard my mouth as with a muzzle While the wicked are in my presence.”
Psalms 39:1 NASB

I have been graced by God to take dominion over my tongue and tame it. His word proclaims that from the abundace of the heart the mouth speaks. My words reveal my heart!

I have to begin to catch the thoughts before the set into my heart and take root as to what words flow from my lips. I can then muzzle my tongue even now after those things have taken root and filter them as to does my words line up with Gods word or no?

If they do not I need to refuse to say them and speak only truth! Our words have power, the same power of the creator of us that spoke this world into exsistance we can speak our world into exsistance. Guard our hearts and mouths to produce the God kind of life you want to see.

~Love Life~ Live Life ~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

πŸ’¦Splish Splash πŸ’¦

After mountain highs and entering the valley you may find a stream! What are the contents of your stream?

You know what?

Last week my stream went through a cleansing. It needed that cleansing to remove pollution and some toxic waste that was choking/killing the contents of my stream. My stream was not a place to go for a leisurly swim I can assure you of that.

That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither- whatever they do prospers. Psalm 1:3

My “inner” stream went through a filtering process or a cleansing. That cleansing can only be done by someone anointed for the job and whom is firm in truth to take down the strongholds(2 Corinth 10:4-5) with the sword of truth(Hebrews 4).

That such person was and is my Pastor Juanita Gibbs of Reformation Developmental Center. She came in with grace and love to begin to skim the contents of my soul that no longer needed to reside within me that were hindering me, chocking my faith walk, and killing dreams and desires.

That net was a fine net of the word. If it wasn’t in line with the word it was caught up in that net and challenged to be fully removed as they had become living and breathing organisms in my stream inwardly. As they were caught up and challenged they had no choice but to die and be tossed to not abide in my stream any longer.

Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them. John 7:38

As a professed believer in Jesus Christ and batteling things like worry, doubt, anxiety, fear, unbelief, and so many other things that I confess them in these blogs they loose power to hold me to them. There tactic may shift and I have to be aware, but its the word of God that will help me remain in the God provided living water stream of His truth.

The world, our environment, things that have yet to surface from my soul will still happen in my stream. I just have to be diligent about not letting them remain to contaminate the flow in me. This has already been graced for me to do, to govern and guard my inner stream.

As I keep doing my work to keep my stream clean, I can be that woman planted by streams of living water that my yield fruit in season and my leaf don’t wither and all I do shall begin to prosper. I believe in Christ and he gave to us all ariver of living water that flows from within.

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