Say What?!?! πŸ•ͺπŸ”Š

I cannot believe I said that!

Have you ever heard what came from your lips only after you said them, to only respond as “why did I say that”.

Well…

If not you are certainly blessed. I on the other had have not been as such in some things, especially as it regards to myself.

Yesterday, I blogged how I have been filled with doubt, fear, negativity, worry, and unbelief as a profess believer of Jesus.

It is those very things inside of me that shaped my words. The issues within seeped out into conversation, daily life, and thus making my life what it is and was all this time.

Have you ever been listening to someone and they say “what if” “how is this gonna happen” “Its not for me”, just for example. Just listening to them begins to pull you into the same tailspin of thinking unknowingly.

Well for very long time I was that kind of person and still working toward overcoming that deep set negativity. Only those solid in the faith could take me on for long peroids of time and some even then was limited.

Until one!

Yes just one and all it takes is one!

My Pastor (be sure to see blog sponsor vid at bottom) armored up to take on my deep set strongholds that have lived in me a good chunk of my life if not all my life.

Early this year it began while we was away on a trip she began to chisel at my negative speaking. Later as time has passed she kept chiseling at it til the wall on one side was compromised enough to attack with word of God force to bring it down!!!!

She preached a superb message of faith this sunday right after the time of tearing down my wall. It has been my replacement to begin to have a new stronghold of faith!

Now, instead of speaking to my mountain “well mountain I dont if God wants you to come down or not, maybe I am to scale the mountain, but I am tired to climb, maybe I am to wander around it like the children of Isreal did theirs.”

God said not one word back to me in all the negative doubt!

But after Sundays message whe Pastor gave us Mark 11:22-23 that we are to speak to our mountain in faith. Gave a wonderful demonstration about destroying strongholds and replacing them that when I left the building fhat day.

In the car I began to speak postive faith filled words to my mountain. I said to the mountian “God is with me, he is for me, every hindrance will be moved. Blessings will begin to flow answers to my prayers will begin to flow. Everything thats been waiting for me to use my measure of faith to get be activated and begin to burst forth in my life.”

I kid you not blog people!! Sunday after I spoke positive faith went to a store and got a blessing small but im still greatful. He said be thankful on the small then he can trust with greater. Monday came and by the evening I got an answer to something in a positive regard that I been waiting for 3 weeks to hear.

Could the answer have been delayed for me to hear faith amd begin to use my faith! I would like to thinks so. God is an on time God. He shows up when he see’s faith and if it took 3 weeks for me to get faith for it then all things worked together for the good.

But I know many prayers of faith went up on my behalf from my leadership and the anointing at Reformation Developmental Center destroyed the yoke and brought this in for me.

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I have been robbed!!!

Yes!! Shocking to say I have been robbed!!

But what is it that I have been robbed of?

Well…

For starters I can say I have been robbed of many things like joy, peace, love, etc. The theif comes but to steal, kill and destroy!

When I have allowed things to be stolen from my life it opens the door within me to allow my life to be killed in areas and destroyed in areas.

This happened because of my lack of the truth hidden in my heart!

This has happened because of lack of word life.

This has happened because lack of training in how to properly study Gods word.

This has happened because I didnt get properly fitted for armor to be able to with stand battles and fight the good fight of faith.

So many want believers to wear the armor of others instead of allowing them to be fitted for their own garments.

I am blessed to say when God aligned me with Reformation Developmental Center Pastored by Juanita Gibbs that it has been a place of take off the armor that was put on me to wear of others and be able to stand before God and the people as myseld and be fitted for my own garments, my own armor to fight my battles and begin on a path of victory.

As the book my Pastor wrote is about that very thing about changing a mindset to be victorious. That book I return to over and over again. I have mentioned it in previous blogs and especially in the blog I decated to her as she so wonderfully inspired me to begin blogging.

She has helped me in so many ways that I am eternally greatful for she has been helping me now make stronger my garments and stronger my armor. By putting more of the word inside my heart by meditating and thinking on Gods truths when the robber comes to steal from me.

I can begin to fight back with “it is written” resisting the urge to give into the lies do he can flee and begin to deminish such a strong influence in my inner life. As this happens more and more victory is mine!

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Soul memories

You may think you have overcome an area, but all it takes is one thing to show you that you haven’t!

In my soul comparison has been one thing that can be resurrected when you find yourself being compared and then sit back to self compare based off of others view of such comparison.

I began to see myself through the light of their eye and began to sink based off of their view and description. I had to once I saw what I was doing capture those thoughts and discharge them.

Comparison is the theif of joy. Comparison robs you of enjoying life. Comparison is based off a inner issue of the soul based off of worldy factions that are contrary to the truth of what God says we are in Him.

Renew my mind and the spirit of my mind come to me when these inner issues surface. (Romans 12:1-2 & Eph 4:23) These core verses help trigger my awareness and bring me to a place of sobriety to wrestle my way back out of the place that tried to take root again to pull my soul back into the darkness.

The issues I have within my soul I have to managed by the fruit of self control and so many other scriptures and teachings my pastor Juanita Gibbs has imparted to me.

If you have facebook visit tonight EST http://www.facebook.com/innetlife88 for a 15 to 30 min segment of teaching.

Progressing through my next layer of my inner issues is the way to expose it and bring about healing by not holding it in any longer. What I stop feeding within stops growing and ruling and reigning in my life.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Take My Hand

Your only alone if you view your life as such!

Being a single I had battled for the longest time of being alone, remaining alone, ending up alone.

But the truth was and has remained I am never alone! Alone is just a feeling a feeling that is contrary to truth. When I am feel alone I can call out to the one close to me and that may be God at the moment or may be even my leader that loves and cares what we are going through and shows unending compassion for what we face.

When our feelings tell us we are alone we must find out why that feeling came up. Is it showing me some lack from my childhood, does it reveal an inner issue of lust, does it reveal a void that we try to fill with everything but God. It could be any of these things and more.

Its a work to feel the feeling, discover why and then begin to work to discharge the feeling and renew to a place where perspective can change. Reality can begin to be real and allow God, a leader, a Godly friend that exercises wisdom to come and take our hand in life, in the trial, in the battle to show you that your not as alone as you thought you were.

Well, that is how God has been working within me about it. In prior posts I have mention where I made Men idols and put them in my voids to replace God, but when God removed them it showed me where I was really at. That was in very desperate need of the God love to fill me up in my soul that no man could fill as humanity has limits without the power of God working inside the person.

Life knowing that I am not alone, will not end up alone has become such a lifted weight that enjoying life is well a joy. I am able to be content where I am knowing that with God and my God given leaders I am surely not alone.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Foundational Relationships

God given bonds of connection make the world of difference in a life!

All it takes is one God given person to change the entire outlook. All it takes is one to help heal wounds from broken relationships of the past. All it takes is one being used and filled with the Holy spirit that is able to walk unconditionally with you to encourage you on to the next phase.

Have I or am I that friend?

No not yet, but I am striving toward such as things become aware to me that need to grow or develop in.

Is it easy? It can be by not overthinking, stressing or getting all anxious which only causes paralyzation of oneself.

Depending on many factors its within us only that we make changes easy or hard. Pastor taught us sunday in a section of time about “be still” (Psalm 46:10). Beautifully ellaborated we are to be still in our inner processes of thinking. Not being still in the natural as in unmoving. No!

Her teaching and her leadership of me has been that one connection/relationship that I needed in my lofe to begin to turn my life around, grow out of things to begin to mature and able to handle better what life throws out at us and what we get from choices we make.

When someone takes set apart time to pour into you truth, wisdom and be loving and accepting of you then that is a treasured gift that only God could give.

Do you have someone like that in your life?

If not pray to God he send you someone. If you do thank God for what He gave you and ask Him like I am doing to help you to be a better friend in turn. Relationships/Friendships/Godly connectiond help us enjoy life.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Now that I have asked, now prepare!

We are to prepare for what we pray for!

In my time as it has been if singlehood it has provided me time to pray and seek the Lord and its a great time to spend with my Savior. Developing that true and lasting relationship with communication and worshipping his majesty, thanking him for his goodness, grace and mercy in thanksgiving. To study and delve into his guide book for all things concerning life to navigate the path here on the earth.

In times past though I hated continuing to remain single. It was as if my mind decided to name it a plague or something. But when God got hold of me through my wonderful Pastor Juanita Gibbs to show me in reality it is a blessing and a prepatory time was revolutuonary for me. It held begin to reshape my thinking on the whole thing.

Later, as time has gone on she has helped me tackle some wring stronhild thinking that I have had about it and to begin to bring healing to places from damage in my soul from my past, how I have lived this life that seriously needed attention as I had tried for so long to put a man in those places and always ended up hurt and the more empty due to the contents of my soul.

Her book up above(which can be purchased on Amazon) has helped me have a paradigm shift to loose fear, doubt and worry and begin to have faith, hope and trust in God that in time He provides whats needed. Where I had thought it may just bot happen for me and that thought is not in line with the word of God. So it is to he captured when comes and cast down (2 Corin 10:4-5).

Freedom from old stuff is a process and it takes time. As to why the word of God is the best guide book to have in this life as it touches all subjects including relationships. Her book has helped me begin to shift my mind and see myself as a winner in the faith and trust in God and His timing.

These books below are others that I have read in time past before going to the church that has so wonderfully aided me in my life far more than theae books as my lraders know me and my battles and issues as they have taught the best knowledge is your own personal experiance and gaining wisdom from those who know you personally to help naviagte the journey.

In no particular order:

This book is great for understand yourself and how you commincate in showing/displaying love to those in your life.

This book mainly focuses on enjoying single life! I passed my copy on to encourage other single sisters, but God replaced the copy when He sent me a leader in my Pastor who tells me the same thing. Enjoy, live, focus on God, walk in my purpose and his will. She is my book of wisdom since the others fully cannot relate to me as she can relate me to my story and prepare me.

This book was pretty much a reinforcement to my Pastors councel to trust God. As this spoke about divine timing and God doing the work to bring about His will and plans for my life.

This book expounded on Ruths story. She focused on her purpose with Noami and Boaz found her. Our bishop has spoke on her story in times to wait to be found by him as we are about our Fathers business. To stop falling for the words of a Bozo (lol) but wait while God works. Wait patiently with good attitude.

This book also reinforced the concept of time and touched on boundaries and enlightened that if you have things going on in your life you may not need to be in a relationship where we need wait and get healing first just as my Pastor focuses on with us. Heal the inner and if its Gods will He will bring things to pass.

This one is a premartial counceling book. That focuses on reflecting marriage as marriage of christ and the church as to which that is what earthly union should reflect when 2 born again believers come together.

This book opened up more the concept from the prior book, but showed more the difficulty and challenges in union on one flesh. As my pastor has taught us that 2 becoming one is an undertaking of understanding, forgiveness, and unconditional love to not quit when things get hard, but to keep at it.

This one I have not read, but I have read the book Boundaries just not this targeted area. But my Pastor has been instilling in me boundaries are very important in all kinds of relationships.

I so love my church Reformation Developmental Center where they speak on practical wisdom tips as well as full depth of the word of God to bring us insight into all things in this life.

~Love Life~Live Life~😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Single and Happy

There is a time and season for all things!

It is widely popular now that if your not with someone then there has to be something wrong with you.

Is there something wrong with me?

I am single and have been a very long time!

Does that make my humanity any less than someone involved with someone?

The world and times would say yes there is something wrong with me. In some cases yes the church world would also! Yes! I said it the church also!

Not to many in the area I reside have singles geared programs, teachings on how to be am effective single, being a single christian and devoting your time to God in that season.

It wasn’t until I started going to Reformation Developmental Center pastored by Juanita Gibbs where she began to open up my world to me that my time of singleness is a gift to be treasured.

I am free to serve the kingdom as much as I can without distractions. I dont have to subject my earnings to anyone else before I give to the kingdom. I don’t have to subject my body but to God in this time when I want to fast and such.

Yes, I admit being single and remaining as such has gotten me down in the past. I have allowed man made ideas, holidays and the like to tell me what I am suppose to be as a 30ish single.

But what does God say about it as His truth trumps the ideals of men. God says seek me with your whole heart. Seek me first, keep me first, surrender everything to me. That is Gods order and design.

As I mentioned in my last singles post by doing the seeking and work on my own that was my self will not Gods will. He killed every plan that was not of his plan and purposes. Thank God He did too.

My time of singleness is to work on my inner life to have my soul prosper. To correct the inner issues, to heal the inner wounds, to subject myself to the God who knows whats best for me. He proclaims His ways are higher, his thoughts are higher.

Man oh man are they ever. Had God not stepped in and stopped my plans how much heartache and pain in the long run has he saved me from and from inflicting on another.

My soul issues could and have done serious damage left unattended. I am learning slowly to love life as a single, give my all to God, serve him in my current purpose and seek him and keep him first.

God says keep humble and at the proper time exultation will come for them who remain humble. Humble left the building on me the other day and seeing it deeply grieves me. Pride genuinley comes before the fall.

When you fall, fall and look at why you fell then see why you fell and learn from it to keep from repeating it. Only the meek can inherit the earth as the earth is His and the fullness there of and having a level of pride negates the capacity of God to show himself as He knows he wont be glorified.

Humble will glorify God over self. These are just things that I am learning and discovering about myself in my time now without distractions as I am finding contentmemt and trust slowly as it comes to my relationship with God.

As I allow Him into my life he is filling me with himself and His truth to be free from old bondage, be healed from past woundings, and to live a life that glorfies him over any thing and everything I can or have done.

My Pastor who has helped me embrace my singleness and learn about myself in this time. She does also teach on the fundamentals of relationships and the dynamics of it all.

Please don’t misunderstand these posting either of a bitter or hatefilled singlehood. No this is just an enlightenment on my journey.

Every single persons journey is different. I am just expressing and showing that you can find happiness in the status that is so widely not popular to have.

~Love Life~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Where the journey began…

Back track with me for today…

About 4yrs ago I met a woman on facebook that happen to be a Pastor. We befriended on facebook a year after a long journey I had been on. She would comment on my stuff now and then or we would talk and it continue to build to where we talked on facebook most everyday about something. In 2014 which was a hard year for me in ways I found myself leaning toward her councel heavily.

I was part of a local church at the time that under went a massive division and she reached out to me as she felt my pain I was going through.

Having her as an empath began to grow in me a level of trust. After the church division settled I found myself in another church she was still with me for councel and I so appreciated it having just someone to listen and be there for me and show me love was what I needed. When time came I left that church as took time to seek God about where I should attend church.

He lead me right to my facebook Pastor friends church and that has been the most divine leading in my life. This woman has been with me as I have left 2 churchs, lost my mom(death) and seen me battle with my fathers ailments. She has sacrificed sweat, tears, prayer, sleep and spiritual blood on my behalf. No other have I known has been to any degree of such for me in my life. Which brings us up to speed some… to current present year.

It began over 3 months ago now my Pastor Juanita Gibbs (her coaching page link on facebook) recommended to me that I seek the Lord about being a blogger.

So, when she presented the concept I took time to think on it, research what a blogger was so I would have information to ponder upon. After maybe two days of enough information hunt I just let the idea sit in my mind along with the info to see if it would come back and be impressed upon me to delve into.

Probably 2 weeks from the time Pastor Juanita Gibbs (her web page link)brought me the idea it flew up inside me hard one day while I was out and about doing things and would not let me go.

So, I reached out to pastor on facebook and talk to her like I always do, asked her some questions about the concept of me blogging and got around to telling her that her God inspired idea has inspired me to blog.

She is my full inspiration for blogging on two blogs 4 to 5 days a week. She has been helping to make my life beautiful inwardly and outwardly by her coaching and pastoring lead of me. To sit at her feet is to sit at wisdom and gain info and insight into all things that can and has been a great help me do life better and in truth.

She too has a blog page you should check it out: Pastor Juanita Gibbs (blog link-be sure to follow her blog) her teaching, writing and wisdom is always revolutionary.

It has greatly impacted my life. It began with her book long ago it is a must read. I highly recommend getting it. It is called: Developing a Winner Attitude in 7 days(click for amazon link). Her loving nudges have spurned in me the pursuit to write my book as it is underconstrution at this time. But soon I hope it to be ready. But i fully recommend her book to everyone.

My Pastor is a gifted woman of many talents and I am greatful I can call her Pastor. She is an amazing Pastor firstly, she has massive skillz in the kitchen, and is skilled at the makeup brush and many many other areas.

Her gifts, talents and abilities help me to want to push to see what all I am capable of, for now the blogging and writing my book will due as thats what has surfaced under my time with her. I am so thankfully blessed she helped pull that out of me to walk in during this time of my life.

We all need someone who inspires, encourages and helps us navigate life, pursue goals and walk toward a God given dreams. She has surely been that for me since coming to know her and in last few years learn of her.

She has helped me begin to:

~Love Life ~Live Life~ 😍

Pastor Juanita Gibbs my Inspiration

and myself lol

There is no amount of any prestige that I could so honor her with than dedicating this blog to her and her inspiration for me and gratitude for all she has invested in my life to this point.

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰