Biblical Identification

Martha Faith vs. Mary Faith

I was coming into work this morning and after spending some time in prayer and worship and meditation I was driving and in my spiritual minds eye a scene played in me.

That scene was when Lazarus had died and the very two different sisters if Martha and Mary had their own greeting for Jesus when he came to them in Bethany.

Mary so full of faith took Jesus at his every word. She said for when you say my brother will rise again I believe it that whatever you say shall be. (Paraphrased)

Then as she went on knowing that Jesus would do as he daid he would she went on to call for her sister Martha to come to see the teacher and she greeted him with a scalding “Jesus had you been here my brother Lazarus would not be dead” (paraphrase).

Martha so deeply saddend at the death of her brother mounrd as well as the weepers around. Which moved on Jesus as Lazaurus was his friend and “Jesus wept”.

Jesus told Martha:

Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me will live even if he dies, Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?”
John 11:25‭, ‬40 NASB

Martha had to have more reinforcement from Jesus as if to prove to her that He would do what He said he would do.

I can so relate to Martha on many levels and at different times she is mentioned in scripture. But in this case the more as Jesus by the Holy Spirit has been using my leaders to tell me the same message as if to finally get me to trust His word.

Now I know for myself my issue stems from broken trust from people. But, when will I finally disconnect Gods from mere humanity? In the last few days with undergoing a program by my Pastor Juanita Gibbs to 40 day detox from negativity has begun to aide my trusting in God.

Its a work and truthfully its only 3 days into it but I am fully committed to bring the inner changes I need in my soul. These first 3 days are beginning to heal my trust issues with God. But, to also learn to be patient while God does a work in my life.

The Holy Spirit has said through my leaders allow patiencr to have her perfect work. Trust God that he will come through as there is a time and season for all things and this season is to plant me by the stream of the living waters to grow and flourish and in time a harvest will come.

I need to get so deeply rooted by the streams of living water that I will flourish in season and out of season. That is when the glory of the Lord can be fully manifested in my life the more as the empowerment comes by His spirit as I send my roots out deep to have His spirit flow through my spirit. This is how pastor says I live more by the spirit.

I may have been a Martha in my faith for a good portion of my faith life these last 11 years since I wasnt raised in church as a kid, but even as a kid in the faith it is time to take off the Martha faith and put on the Mary faith!

Faith can be transformed as I allow the process God wants me to ealk through mold and shape my life! In time it will be a transformed faith testimony I will have! Its begun by the wonderful 40-day program that Pastor started and I look forward to my faith coming up and not going back to what it has been!

What do you see?

The lenses we peer through and the mindset behind the eyes is a filter for how we gain perspective!

Do you see what I see?

Probably not…

We are looking through different filters.

Comparison is a huge battle for me in many ways and different areas.

Lets think about this senario with me if you will…

Stand in front of the mirror what do you see?

Hear those thoughts, ideas, notions, whispers, screams?

That is how you view what you see.

Now the same thing stand in front of a mirror, but this time ask someone to come stand behind you and tell you what they see.

Hear the perspective coming from the other person?

Hear anything similar or in likeness to what you heard within when you alone stood before the mirror?

Probably not… Then again some may…

For me on the other hand my inward comparison has never been the same from what others see or saw in me as I have a very negative view of myself. Which comes from down the years of trauma to my soul.

Some without such trauma may be well balanced and have good environments that stimulate confidence, good worth, and proper perspective.

For me, it wasn’t until I came into a ministry that has helped me deal with the contents of my soul. The comparison issue housed in my soul has to be dealt with.

When I find myself comparing myself or at times being compared which opens me up to my comparison. That time I spend comparing myself to another only takes away what is definitivly me.

What my Pastor has been teaching me is that I need to know myself in genuine truth. Know who I am beyond comparison. Know who I am uniquely as Gods creation born for such a time as this.

So….

How am I to know just who that person is right?

I need to shut down the negative perspective, accept who I am made to be by knowing who I am made to be by searching for that truth within and in truth from Godd word.

James 1:23-25 says the word of God is to be our mirror.

Its become my job to get into the word of God to find out who I am through the eyes of God. The treasure of truths is mine for the discovery as I peer through the proper lenses of that truth.

I have found some great ones to hold onto and I keep looking to discover more in which to house in my soul. These are a new perspective in which shift away the old soul view of negative.

So, now when I go and stand infront of the mirror I can have God within me and behind me speaking the way I am to view myself. That comparison superceeds what I compared myself to in others.

The true mirror is the word of God not a looking glass. The looking glass will and can decieve as it has me for far too long. I am to measure myself against myself not measure myself against a brother or sister in the faith.

God help me not forget your perfect law as it relates to me and my uniqueness so that in all I do shall be blessed.

~Cynthia 😉

If we commend ourself more highly than we ought then that can be a prideful deception that is without understanding of proper view of self.

Be bold enough to not compare with them who do have a high commendation of themself for in their view you will never measure up!

It is only in the view of God that we are to compare who we are, our behavior, attitudes and demeanor as it lines up with His word or if it doesn’t then we need to correct that.

~Love Life ~ Live Life ~ 😍

Foundational Relationships

God given bonds of connection make the world of difference in a life!

All it takes is one God given person to change the entire outlook. All it takes is one to help heal wounds from broken relationships of the past. All it takes is one being used and filled with the Holy spirit that is able to walk unconditionally with you to encourage you on to the next phase.

Have I or am I that friend?

No not yet, but I am striving toward such as things become aware to me that need to grow or develop in.

Is it easy? It can be by not overthinking, stressing or getting all anxious which only causes paralyzation of oneself.

Depending on many factors its within us only that we make changes easy or hard. Pastor taught us sunday in a section of time about “be still” (Psalm 46:10). Beautifully ellaborated we are to be still in our inner processes of thinking. Not being still in the natural as in unmoving. No!

Her teaching and her leadership of me has been that one connection/relationship that I needed in my lofe to begin to turn my life around, grow out of things to begin to mature and able to handle better what life throws out at us and what we get from choices we make.

When someone takes set apart time to pour into you truth, wisdom and be loving and accepting of you then that is a treasured gift that only God could give.

Do you have someone like that in your life?

If not pray to God he send you someone. If you do thank God for what He gave you and ask Him like I am doing to help you to be a better friend in turn. Relationships/Friendships/Godly connectiond help us enjoy life.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

Now that I have asked, now prepare!

We are to prepare for what we pray for!

In my time as it has been if singlehood it has provided me time to pray and seek the Lord and its a great time to spend with my Savior. Developing that true and lasting relationship with communication and worshipping his majesty, thanking him for his goodness, grace and mercy in thanksgiving. To study and delve into his guide book for all things concerning life to navigate the path here on the earth.

In times past though I hated continuing to remain single. It was as if my mind decided to name it a plague or something. But when God got hold of me through my wonderful Pastor Juanita Gibbs to show me in reality it is a blessing and a prepatory time was revolutuonary for me. It held begin to reshape my thinking on the whole thing.

Later, as time has gone on she has helped me tackle some wring stronhild thinking that I have had about it and to begin to bring healing to places from damage in my soul from my past, how I have lived this life that seriously needed attention as I had tried for so long to put a man in those places and always ended up hurt and the more empty due to the contents of my soul.

Her book up above(which can be purchased on Amazon) has helped me have a paradigm shift to loose fear, doubt and worry and begin to have faith, hope and trust in God that in time He provides whats needed. Where I had thought it may just bot happen for me and that thought is not in line with the word of God. So it is to he captured when comes and cast down (2 Corin 10:4-5).

Freedom from old stuff is a process and it takes time. As to why the word of God is the best guide book to have in this life as it touches all subjects including relationships. Her book has helped me begin to shift my mind and see myself as a winner in the faith and trust in God and His timing.

These books below are others that I have read in time past before going to the church that has so wonderfully aided me in my life far more than theae books as my lraders know me and my battles and issues as they have taught the best knowledge is your own personal experiance and gaining wisdom from those who know you personally to help naviagte the journey.

In no particular order:

This book is great for understand yourself and how you commincate in showing/displaying love to those in your life.

This book mainly focuses on enjoying single life! I passed my copy on to encourage other single sisters, but God replaced the copy when He sent me a leader in my Pastor who tells me the same thing. Enjoy, live, focus on God, walk in my purpose and his will. She is my book of wisdom since the others fully cannot relate to me as she can relate me to my story and prepare me.

This book was pretty much a reinforcement to my Pastors councel to trust God. As this spoke about divine timing and God doing the work to bring about His will and plans for my life.

This book expounded on Ruths story. She focused on her purpose with Noami and Boaz found her. Our bishop has spoke on her story in times to wait to be found by him as we are about our Fathers business. To stop falling for the words of a Bozo (lol) but wait while God works. Wait patiently with good attitude.

This book also reinforced the concept of time and touched on boundaries and enlightened that if you have things going on in your life you may not need to be in a relationship where we need wait and get healing first just as my Pastor focuses on with us. Heal the inner and if its Gods will He will bring things to pass.

This one is a premartial counceling book. That focuses on reflecting marriage as marriage of christ and the church as to which that is what earthly union should reflect when 2 born again believers come together.

This book opened up more the concept from the prior book, but showed more the difficulty and challenges in union on one flesh. As my pastor has taught us that 2 becoming one is an undertaking of understanding, forgiveness, and unconditional love to not quit when things get hard, but to keep at it.

This one I have not read, but I have read the book Boundaries just not this targeted area. But my Pastor has been instilling in me boundaries are very important in all kinds of relationships.

I so love my church Reformation Developmental Center where they speak on practical wisdom tips as well as full depth of the word of God to bring us insight into all things in this life.

~Love Life~Live Life~😍

~Cynthia 😉

Love Affair Pt 3 (Final installment)

The scandal continues!!

Well ya’ll in these months of coming to learn to love myself and the true word of God. The affair branches out one last time to include loving God for who He is!

Yes loving God just for who He is in my life! Learning to worship him in spirit and in truth and not just worship to get things.

Yes!! I confess I have only loved God at times for what I saw He can do for me. Treating God as a lucky charm, or a genie in a bottle as if he was some idol image of a God who would just give me whatever I want when I asked it of him. Boy has he proven time and time again that honey if what you ask for isn’t of me it will not come for you!

If it is of God it could be delayed as to if I serve or worship Him(his hands) merely to get from him then when I get will I abandon the faith? He knows our heart and the hidden intentions even if we ourself don’t see it or even want to admit it.

I am seeing that God is a good good father and yes withholds no good thing from us. But, if he does withhold or delay it is because we need character growth and stability in our now before any new can come in more of the blessings. Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness then all these things will be added unto you. God has an established order of thing and its reveal to us in His word.

He will block or cause to die anything that is outside of his will and yes it will hurt. Especially if it is a self work or faction of the flesh.

But its a necessary death to go into greater. God wants me to grow in patience and many other fruits of the Spirit. Taking rest in who He is and His provision. I am growing in my just love for Him as to worship in spirit and truth I must trust his plan and purposes. He knows exaclty where I am, He knows my trials, He knows my needs and He is with me and those facts of his goodness alone are a comfort to a soul that has searched for comfort and security in a world that is perishing over the eternalness of the Father and His kingdom.

Day by day I try lean on the fact He had me more secure than anything of this world could ever to keep me and slowly begin to love him more and more and his goodness begins to flow as a trickle of a stream of water in the beginning phases.

He knows I need to love hin with all my heart, soul, mind and strength for just who He is and that is an amazing Abba Father.

The journey may it just get sweeter day by day as I turn toward truth and His will and way of living.

~Love Life~Live Life~😍

~Cynthia 😉