Personal Acceptance

Discovering How Fearfully & Wonderfully Made I Am!

The subtitle of this blog is one that is near and dear to me, as it is the subtitle to my book Beauty from Ashes that is available on amazon.com. See link below the image to shop!

I am a woman that has battled personal acceptance, low self-esteem, low self-worth, lack of self-care, and having an over all bad view of myself. It was a pivotal turning point in March 2016 when on a trip it was brought to my attention just how negative I spoke about myself. I, in myself had no self awareness of the fact that I was so deeply negative I was inwardly.

Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flows the springd of life.”

Proverbs 4:23 AMP

Every word from my lips dripped with disdain of life, existence, purpose and destiny. It revealed a bitterness of heart due to roots of lack of self-acceptance and self-love! I was asked at that time, why was I like I was. My answer outright was “what does it really matter” in a sarcastic tone. That no matter what I did or do it never made any difference.

It was then that grace and patience with understanding and compassion were extended to me to help begin to uproot bad things and cultivate a new way of being. This work has been ongoing and will continue as it is needful in becoming a better woman for life!

Your thoughts create your reality!

~Juanita Gibbs

40 Day Detox of Negative Thinking

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She began working with me in the key fundamentals of personal care, life care, home care, developing a healthier interior, then working on my self esteem and self love. Others in the past that may have tried to assist me didn’t extent long periods of grace to help me grow and develop the way my counselor has in these last three years.

It has taken this long to grow even a lil sprout of self-acceptance. I have made progress in being more positive and speaking with hope. Being I would pick apart everything about me from my looks, my weight, my hair color, and more. It was when I realized that I am running down Gods creation that I have had to work through that.

I have been walking through a phase of discovering who I am, learning how I am made and slowly embracing the facts and truths about me, then learning what I need to do to work on becoming a better woman. Its not been easy for me and it wont be easy to continue to change and grow.

Growth is pain!

Development is a journey!

But, what I can say is that no matter how offended I may get at the truth, I need it. No matter how sensitive I am emotionally, I need tough love. Yes the wounds are there! Yes the strongholds are there! But, they are within my power to take them down within myself and get the healing I need deeper.

My encouragement to you is this: If me as stubborn as I am and can be can change, heal, and get delivered, then take this as a sign that you can too. It takes steps, falling down, getting back up, taking steps again and often falling and getting back up in a cycle to keep working to bring about change to your life as I am working to in mine.

Thank you for reading if you reaching this point leave me a comment below! 💝

Cynthia 💞

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Life and Death are in the tongue!

(Blog inspired by Pastor Juanita Gibbs Wednesday Night Teleclass)

I dove into her teaching of Wednesday night it was so very powerful. I am glad I got to record it so I can keep renewed in that message. She spoke on the word of God being seeds.

Gods word is supreme, it has great power, and cannot end. The more we use His word in our daily language how much more can we shift our life around.

She teaches us about what we think and what we say reveals our heart and those things make the world we live in. She often quotes the change your mind change your life in relation to this.

When we shift our mind and let it infiltrate our heart, from the abundance of the heart the mouth will speak thus creating newness.

Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful;
Hebrews 10:23 NASB

The more I begin to confess the word of God as my confession of hope(faith) it can implant into my soul from what my spirit already houses. It takes time and much practice. She says:

Reptition is the mother of success!

-Juanita Gibbs

Its very true the more and more you do somthing it begins to change everything. The more I consciously discard negativity and choose positivity the choices to choose good words of life begin to become more aware of the negative death talk words.

This is pulling on those promise seeds of God and keeping them watered and in son light to grow in good soil as it is renewed in good things over the old bad that the soil use to contain.

Lets hold fast to a new confession. The confession of faith(hope).

~Cynthia 😍

Faith over poison!

Toxic from negativity in my soul is like intoxication to the body.

The longer my soul indulges in the negativity it intoxicates my mind. Much like how alchol intoxicates and impairs, so can negativity the longer I don’t deal with it.

I must begin to chip away harder at the negativity I house within my soul. It can begin to be like a viper and constrict the flow the longer it goes from being loosed from having such a strong control.

Who has woe? Who has sorrow? Who has contentions? Who has complaining? Who has wounds without cause? Who has redness of eyes? Those who linger long over wine, Those who go to taste mixed wine. Do not look on the wine when it is red, When it sparkles in the cup, When it goes down smoothly; At the last it bites like a serpent And stings like a viper. Your eyes will see strange things And your mind will utter perverse things. Proverbs 23:29‭-‬33 NASB

The 40-day detox has been rough and will be rougher soon as I begin to take and loose the viper hold and bring sobriety to my mind. As thats what God wants for us to be spirit-lead and not soul lead.

A sober spirit leading our life:

Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.
1 Peter 5:8 NASB

The more I allow the negativity housed within lead me and guide me thats not sober or spirit lead. To stop whats been going on in me, we find in the above verse “be on alert”. I have to become keen to know what I am thinking and what comes from that, ie., attitudes, words, actions, passiveness and lack of sobriety.

I have been in the negativity so long that it has kept its appeal to keep it around much like an addiction. The feelings associated with it, the attitudes that came from it, the false humility and pride.

Well perhaps its safe to say:

I am addicted to negativity!”

But now…

I am tired of the by product that the negativity has caused from such mindset that I have had. This detox by the end of it in another 20 days I want to see progress and change the more, thats my goal and determination to obtain. Pastor Juanita Gibbs taking us on her detox plan for 20/21 days its been real but about to be the more real.

Faith from the word of God is the antidote to the poison of negativity!

~Cynthia 😍

Weakness

Many times I feel weak in the faith. But, in my weakness He is strong.

In my own personal weakness I need to lean on the strength of God to see me through. Gods strength comes through His word, prayer, having that personal relationship with God and through yielded vessels to be Gods voice of wisdom in the earth.

Im greatful for the personal relationship I have with God, as well as, the chosen vessel of my Pastor Juanita Gibbs to be the voice of wisdom, comfort, and Gods love in my life.

She has taught me the power of having a Word Life all the more! How the more of it I plant inside of me helps me to align my soul to be lead by the spirit.

I can see the changes as I have heeded her wisdom and begun to study and seek out things in the word and meditate on them and speak them.

My weakness in this life has been dwelling on the bad, thinking negative, acting negative, having negative attitude, etc.

Not a very pleasant person to be around was I?

Nope!!!

Most in the natural sense negativity is a deturant to connection. It took one person in my Pastor to ride it out with me to being to reform my life in small stages.

Am I free from it all?

No!

But, I am still working to have it better managed and under subjectiom to the lead of the spirit. For my weakness has been to allow the negative to run my life.

The more I detox and manage it by using the scriptures Pastor give and the ones I study that I meditate on to have a firmer word life His spirit comes into my weak places as His strength and not mine. For I cannot change with out God aiding my transition.

It has taken me to surrender to the Word Life to begin to see the growth that I dont remain as negaitive for long.

That I have a weapon to fight the fight if faith with.

That I have a support covering that prays and loves me for who I am even while I am being transformed.

My foundation in the faith can only be made firmer by what is happening now in my life, as well as, establishing myseld and a root system to be fueled from the spirit and not my soul.

My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Psalms 73:26 NASB

As Pastor says this takes dedicated commitment to the work and true desire to see change come in life. I definitly will keep fighting my way through to have more of God be the strength of my heart when I have my natural limitation of weakness.

~Cynthia😍

⚔Faith Is A Sword ⚔

With proper training the word of God can be our most powerful weapon!

The more I go through this 40 day detox its like the more negativity has been dug up to come up and out of me.

It is in this time also that when the negativity and toxic comes out I must unload it then begin to renew with the word of God. As it says in Hebrews 4:12:

For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.
Hebrews 4:12 NASB

I have to gave enough of the word of God hidden away in my heart so yhat when temptation comes, the enemy comes in through a wound in my soul or my environment produces wrong thoughts I can yield my sword and cast them down before I take thought of them and allow further wrong fruit to be bore in my life.

It is only by Pastor giving me key scriptures to focus my mind on and meditate on, as well as, study to get them deeply ingrained into my soul. Her 40 day detox notes for the daily area to tackle I have to renew in daily and use other key teachings on calming my soul to use the word of God to combat the negativity that has been so much a part of mh being.

Gird Your sword on Your thigh, O Mighty One, In Your splendor and Your majesty! And in Your majesty ride on victoriously, For the cause of truth and meekness and righteousness; Let Your right hand teach You awesome things.
Psalms 45:3‭-‬4 NASB

The word of God needs to be so close that its always within grasp like a weapon to a skilled fighter, the fight of faith with the word of God is just the same but in the spirit of things. As the word proclaims the weapons of our warfare are not carnal (of the world) but mighty in the spirit.

The more I detox the negativity the more word I need at the ready to slice the negativity to break it apart of its once stronghold on my soul. A newness will come forth the more I battle using my sword of the word of God.

Say What?!?! 🕪🔊

I cannot believe I said that!

Have you ever heard what came from your lips only after you said them, to only respond as “why did I say that”.

Well…

If not you are certainly blessed. I on the other had have not been as such in some things, especially as it regards to myself.

Yesterday, I blogged how I have been filled with doubt, fear, negativity, worry, and unbelief as a profess believer of Jesus.

It is those very things inside of me that shaped my words. The issues within seeped out into conversation, daily life, and thus making my life what it is and was all this time.

Have you ever been listening to someone and they say “what if” “how is this gonna happen” “Its not for me”, just for example. Just listening to them begins to pull you into the same tailspin of thinking unknowingly.

Well for very long time I was that kind of person and still working toward overcoming that deep set negativity. Only those solid in the faith could take me on for long peroids of time and some even then was limited.

Until one!

Yes just one and all it takes is one!

My Pastor (be sure to see blog sponsor vid at bottom) armored up to take on my deep set strongholds that have lived in me a good chunk of my life if not all my life.

Early this year it began while we was away on a trip she began to chisel at my negative speaking. Later as time has passed she kept chiseling at it til the wall on one side was compromised enough to attack with word of God force to bring it down!!!!

She preached a superb message of faith this sunday right after the time of tearing down my wall. It has been my replacement to begin to have a new stronghold of faith!

Now, instead of speaking to my mountain “well mountain I dont if God wants you to come down or not, maybe I am to scale the mountain, but I am tired to climb, maybe I am to wander around it like the children of Isreal did theirs.”

God said not one word back to me in all the negative doubt!

But after Sundays message whe Pastor gave us Mark 11:22-23 that we are to speak to our mountain in faith. Gave a wonderful demonstration about destroying strongholds and replacing them that when I left the building fhat day.

In the car I began to speak postive faith filled words to my mountain. I said to the mountian “God is with me, he is for me, every hindrance will be moved. Blessings will begin to flow answers to my prayers will begin to flow. Everything thats been waiting for me to use my measure of faith to get be activated and begin to burst forth in my life.”

I kid you not blog people!! Sunday after I spoke positive faith went to a store and got a blessing small but im still greatful. He said be thankful on the small then he can trust with greater. Monday came and by the evening I got an answer to something in a positive regard that I been waiting for 3 weeks to hear.

Could the answer have been delayed for me to hear faith amd begin to use my faith! I would like to thinks so. God is an on time God. He shows up when he see’s faith and if it took 3 weeks for me to get faith for it then all things worked together for the good.

But I know many prayers of faith went up on my behalf from my leadership and the anointing at Reformation Developmental Center destroyed the yoke and brought this in for me.

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When the news graced my ears I could hardly believe it was true! But it was!!

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As a professed believer in Jesus Christ I suffer from yes unbelief.

But how is that possible?

Well, for me unbelief, doubt, negativity, and fear have run my life from my soul. They were set ways built inside of me through my life to the point of the discovery.

A believer has unbelief, have you ever heard of such a thing?

I had areas of unbelief living on the inside of me thus as my Pastor told me creating my world.

Yes, I believe in God, Son and Spirit!

It was my personal belief system toward myself that God would do miracles for me as I have doubt and negativity within my mind. I doubted that God would come through in things for me. I have fear he would forget me. I worried wouldn’t God show up in my trouble.

My inner factions of those very things needed to be touched and challenged with truth of the word as those things became lofty within me and set themself up as supreme in my being!

My wonderful Pastor (see blog sponsor) took on the challenge to hit every one of the factions living in me that my inner workings made rule my life.

The anointing destroyes the yoke and the anointing she carries has moved through and has begun to tear down those lofty things to be replaced with faith, hope, and love in God for who He is!

I am now working my way from unbelief toward belief!

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