My inner disturbance has disrupted faith & hope!
Yes! This is true, my faith has waivered back to a place of fear. And fear has as much power as faith just in the opposite outcome. What do I do now?
Before feeling lost, hopeless with no hope in sight I would and have given into it. I would wallow in self pity, become a person that wasn’t pleasant to be around due to the amount of negativity that flowed from me.
Now, yes I still battle that same cycle. The difference is that I have councel in my leadership of my Pastor Juanita Gibbs of Reformation Developmental Center. She has shown me when I enter self pity and wallow, I am giving into my flesh (soul) and allowing it to rule me. Instead of turning to the spirit and allowing it to rule me in difficult times.
Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why have you become disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him For the help of His presence.
Psalms 42:5 NASB
By not allowing my soul/flesh to rule me I can regain a renewal in God by His spirit. This is hard work to do when I have allowed my soul to be that strong for years and years and years without going unchecked to get right.
Now because of her realness and calling me to a place of being real and clear that I have to be real with the fact that fear at times over powers my faith. By this admission I want that stronghold to loose its tight grip of me.
My soul is disturbed within me because I haven’t renewed my mind (Romans 12:2) to renew my mind I have to clear out by casting my cares (1 Peter 5:7) and then meditate on the word, prayer and listening to Gods voice.
Believe that what you ask of God is done!
I have to admit that for a long time I would pray and ask God to do things for me, but in my heart I didn’t trust God to come through for me.
This has definitly manifested itself in my life. God cannot work where there is no genuine faith. It has and it will take me time to keep moving toward faith. It has begun to shift things in my life around and manifest His goodness of what He has had stored away for me.
Therefore I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them, and they will be granted you.
Mark 11:24 NASB
He has moved mightly in my life from December through February in big ways that I didnt think back prior was possible, but having faith and having leadership that is anointednin a way to help break me free from things that were hindrances has brought those things to life. I am greatful for their anointing at Reformation Developmental Center of which is Pastored by Juanita Gibbs.
Thay was only the beginning. God is going to do more great and mighty works in my life. Its only a matter of time that they will begin to burst forth. Life and death is in the power of the tongue and now when I ask God for my request I truly believe He will answer and come through in time for all things concerning me.
Pastor went live this morning for a brief encouragement for us. She said don’t give up on your prayer life because things are hard, you haven’t gotten what you asked for yet, or it don’t look like its working. For it is working in waya we do not see just yet. This live stream confirmed my blog post today in so many ways.