Hope after Brokenness

How to rebound after disappointment?

This week has been one week in this world of a roller coaster. Granted most of my own doing, and its taken a while to regain any kind of footing of stability.

Yesterdays disappointment was so completley devistating that for a moment I wasn’t sure I would stabilize at all. But when the news came through and I expressed it in part to my Life Coach/Pastor she told me be sure to express it how I am feeling so that the emotion of pain and hurt doesn’t get suppressed.

I am surely known for supressing things and not expressing in thr moment and allowing stuff to get burried deep inside to only fester and create infection in my soul that can damage everything.

So, after I got off work and the news had time to sink in as I wasn’t so focused on other things tears and much emotion swelled up. The disappointment flowed, negative flowed, hurt flowed of wanting to know why. When there are no answers in full. I had to express and begin to allow the faith to begin to come in from the spirit.

This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, a hope both sure and steadfast and one which enters within the veil,
Hebrews 6:19 NASB

To renew my mind from the hurt and disappointment I felt I had to pull on hope from the Word of God in a sermon/teaching session she had talked on times and seasons. I gleaned on this message to renew my mind and the spirit of my mind (Romans 12:2 & Eph 4:23). The more I pullef from this message the more it helped turn me back toward being positive and of faith.

If I go unrenewed I can dwell in a place of negative and doubt and that produces nothing good. This is why I am seeing that it is important to renew and get back on track. Hope and faith in God produce the good in life where as I have dwelled in the doubt and negative it too produced things, just not the goodness of God.

Renew in Hope is the only way to recover after disappointment.

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~Cynthia 😍

Faith & Hope When Disturbed

My inner disturbance has disrupted faith & hope!

Yes! This is true, my faith has waivered back to a place of fear. And fear has as much power as faith just in the opposite outcome. What do I do now?

Before feeling lost, hopeless with no hope in sight I would and have given into it. I would wallow in self pity, become a person that wasn’t pleasant to be around due to the amount of negativity that flowed from me.

Now, yes I still battle that same cycle. The difference is that I have councel in my leadership of my Pastor Juanita Gibbs of Reformation Developmental Center. She has shown me when I enter self pity and wallow, I am giving into my flesh (soul) and allowing it to rule me. Instead of turning to the spirit and allowing it to rule me in difficult times.

Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why have you become disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him For the help of His presence.
Psalms 42:5 NASB

By not allowing my soul/flesh to rule me I can regain a renewal in God by His spirit. This is hard work to do when I have allowed my soul to be that strong for years and years and years without going unchecked to get right.

Now because of her realness and calling me to a place of being real and clear that I have to be real with the fact that fear at times over powers my faith. By this admission I want that stronghold to loose its tight grip of me.

My soul is disturbed within me because I haven’t renewed my mind (Romans 12:2) to renew my mind I have to clear out by casting my cares (1 Peter 5:7) and then meditate on the word, prayer and listening to Gods voice.

~Cynthia 😍

Steafast Confession 🗣

Life and Death are in the tongue!

(Blog inspired by Pastor Juanita Gibbs Wednesday Night Teleclass)

I dove into her teaching of Wednesday night it was so very powerful. I am glad I got to record it so I can keep renewed in that message. She spoke on the word of God being seeds.

Gods word is supreme, it has great power, and cannot end. The more we use His word in our daily language how much more can we shift our life around.

She teaches us about what we think and what we say reveals our heart and those things make the world we live in. She often quotes the change your mind change your life in relation to this.

When we shift our mind and let it infiltrate our heart, from the abundance of the heart the mouth will speak thus creating newness.

Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful;
Hebrews 10:23 NASB

The more I begin to confess the word of God as my confession of hope(faith) it can implant into my soul from what my spirit already houses. It takes time and much practice. She says:

Reptition is the mother of success!

-Juanita Gibbs

Its very true the more and more you do somthing it begins to change everything. The more I consciously discard negativity and choose positivity the choices to choose good words of life begin to become more aware of the negative death talk words.

This is pulling on those promise seeds of God and keeping them watered and in son light to grow in good soil as it is renewed in good things over the old bad that the soil use to contain.

Lets hold fast to a new confession. The confession of faith(hope).

~Cynthia 😍


Many times I feel weak in the faith. But, in my weakness He is strong.

In my own personal weakness I need to lean on the strength of God to see me through. Gods strength comes through His word, prayer, having that personal relationship with God and through yielded vessels to be Gods voice of wisdom in the earth.

Im greatful for the personal relationship I have with God, as well as, the chosen vessel of my Pastor Juanita Gibbs to be the voice of wisdom, comfort, and Gods love in my life.

She has taught me the power of having a Word Life all the more! How the more of it I plant inside of me helps me to align my soul to be lead by the spirit.

I can see the changes as I have heeded her wisdom and begun to study and seek out things in the word and meditate on them and speak them.

My weakness in this life has been dwelling on the bad, thinking negative, acting negative, having negative attitude, etc.

Not a very pleasant person to be around was I?


Most in the natural sense negativity is a deturant to connection. It took one person in my Pastor to ride it out with me to being to reform my life in small stages.

Am I free from it all?


But, I am still working to have it better managed and under subjectiom to the lead of the spirit. For my weakness has been to allow the negative to run my life.

The more I detox and manage it by using the scriptures Pastor give and the ones I study that I meditate on to have a firmer word life His spirit comes into my weak places as His strength and not mine. For I cannot change with out God aiding my transition.

It has taken me to surrender to the Word Life to begin to see the growth that I dont remain as negaitive for long.

That I have a weapon to fight the fight if faith with.

That I have a support covering that prays and loves me for who I am even while I am being transformed.

My foundation in the faith can only be made firmer by what is happening now in my life, as well as, establishing myseld and a root system to be fueled from the spirit and not my soul.

My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Psalms 73:26 NASB

As Pastor says this takes dedicated commitment to the work and true desire to see change come in life. I definitly will keep fighting my way through to have more of God be the strength of my heart when I have my natural limitation of weakness.


⚔Faith Is A Sword ⚔

With proper training the word of God can be our most powerful weapon!

The more I go through this 40 day detox its like the more negativity has been dug up to come up and out of me.

It is in this time also that when the negativity and toxic comes out I must unload it then begin to renew with the word of God. As it says in Hebrews 4:12:

For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.
Hebrews 4:12 NASB

I have to gave enough of the word of God hidden away in my heart so yhat when temptation comes, the enemy comes in through a wound in my soul or my environment produces wrong thoughts I can yield my sword and cast them down before I take thought of them and allow further wrong fruit to be bore in my life.

It is only by Pastor giving me key scriptures to focus my mind on and meditate on, as well as, study to get them deeply ingrained into my soul. Her 40 day detox notes for the daily area to tackle I have to renew in daily and use other key teachings on calming my soul to use the word of God to combat the negativity that has been so much a part of mh being.

Gird Your sword on Your thigh, O Mighty One, In Your splendor and Your majesty! And in Your majesty ride on victoriously, For the cause of truth and meekness and righteousness; Let Your right hand teach You awesome things.
Psalms 45:3‭-‬4 NASB

The word of God needs to be so close that its always within grasp like a weapon to a skilled fighter, the fight of faith with the word of God is just the same but in the spirit of things. As the word proclaims the weapons of our warfare are not carnal (of the world) but mighty in the spirit.

The more I detox the negativity the more word I need at the ready to slice the negativity to break it apart of its once stronghold on my soul. A newness will come forth the more I battle using my sword of the word of God.


Is it a lucky charm or way of life?


To be perfectly honest in my time I have used faith as a lucky charm. I would run to faith and get close to secure something I wanted or desired.

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs, I love her, she keeps it real with me, and well all of us at Reformation Developmental Center. She told me that faith isn’t just to get from God, but faith is a way of living. We need faith even when God doesn’t give us the thing we want. We need faith to see us through trying times. We need faith at times justo breathe, think, walk etc. Ok well I will say that is how it is for me anyway.

Her teaching over the last while has been making impacts so greatly in my life its unfathomable to know what life would be like had I not heard God to make a change in my spiritual nourishment.

She has showed me that God wants relationship and thats what faith is truly about. Seeking to know him, seeking to become like him. Knowing his love for me. Knowing who I am in Chirst by grace and mercy.

How I used to live was not seeking his face it was seeking His hands. It would be say if I wanted something in my life I would run and latch tight to faith to see it manifest. Some of those things haven’t manifested as God knew my heart and wanting his hand over His face.

He brought delay so that I would grow in patience, love, joy, faith that I really truly desperatly needed more of within over what I was seeking Him for. He knows how to groom us and grow us and He has marvelously used my Pastor to do such in my life, by bringing to light teachings of the fruit of the spirit to transform my life.

Has it been easy to move from lucky charm to faith?


But, its needful as God wants me to show him that I trust in Him, trust in His plan, trust His will for my life, trust that as I hear him he leads me on the path to becoming the woman He intended me to be.

No, I am not perfect in this by any means of the word. I fall at this constantly. But, I have to pick myseld up, renew my mind as Pastor has taught and keep moving. Life happens and faith is needed for every ounce of it.

~Cynthia 😉

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍