Continuing Saga – Year 2020

COVID-19 Living

Maybe its just me, but there are days, weeks, and at times months when it has felt like we are in the Bill Murray Movie “Ground Hog Day”. Life perpetually stuck on repeat, same predictable stuff day-in and day-out.

But then something amazing happens that snatches you right out of the cycle and into something new! At the beginning of this month that happened for me. A group of us got together in socially distance manner and had a small party! It was so much fun! It was 60s & 70s theme and we all dressed up. I dressed up like a flower child hippie.

I had the bell bottoms and leather strapped sandals with my vibrant yellow retro top with sunflower headdress. It was fun to my soul to pull out my inner flower child persona. I got all dressed up for the event and ran in starbucks for a coffee before hitting the event, my local baristas erupted into “look at you” or “wow where are you off too” after light talks with the college age baristas i set back out for the days festivities.

Everyone at the event had a blast. We ate to our hearts content. Had party punch to our hearts content. And played game after game til we were all zonked. It was a much needed pace change from the whats become norm of covid living of life.

The festivities re-awakened the fact that I need to get back to what I was doing when lock down first happened. By taking a less stressful approach to daily life. So, one day I took my now only fur-child to the walking path. I needed the down time in nature and my Sweet Pea needed a new adventure since we lost her brother.

I’ve tried to keep in mind the “slow down” mindset to enjoy things, take things in, destress, decompress, shed worry, doubts and fears and just simply live. That is still a daily battle to fight.

Now that fall has begun, I have been brainstorming on how I can keep that slow down mindset as winter approaches. The best I could come up with is taking time to enjoy watching movies. I have found some fantastic deals in the Walmart $5 bin. I recently got a 3 dvd set in there of American Sniper, Sully and Grand Torino. I’m not a fan of the Grand Torino so I haven’t watched it as of yet, but the other two as they are based on real people and real events I highly enjoyed those.

I’ve even located some fabric squares at the Dollar Tree that I am gonna make into small decorative pillows. That will be a good mix up from when i want to slow down, but don’t want to watch movies.

Even recently I visited a sunflower patch. Watch the highlights of it on my youtube channel: Sunflower Field Trip 🌻

Slowing down has even catapult me into planning out what I can ahead of time. I am an admin for my churches page to aide in the ministry helping peoples souls. I post information that I have gleaned from since being there to help newcomers to the ministry. To aide leaderships plow of new ground within souls to be softened, if they take it in, the info that is shared.

I’ve begun adding for posting to my facebook ministry page as well, by posting daily moments of inspiration from the word of God, each week focusing on one area of the faith.

This adopting of a lifestyle of planning certain details gas allotted me more time as I have more time now it seems. So much so that I have begun trying to build my youtube channel with content on my coffee adventures and sharing encouraging words there also from Gods word. So far I post two videos a week. Consider subscribing, I would appreciate it.

Yesterdays: Youtube Video

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~Cynthia~

Anchor In Hope

Building Yourself Up!

“But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life.”
‭‭Jude‬ ‭1:20-21‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

There are days we experience in this lifetime that the sun won’t seem as bright. There are days that the clouds will seem too numerous. The scent of rain in the air too much for the emotions to handle holding together.

The dark nights of the soul are phases of growing from the old and toward the new. Think about it a baby is kept in the dark of a mother’s womb protected and safe until it is time for the baby to come into the light.

Our Savior was place in the darkness of a tomb after he was crucified. There he remained for three days, he plunged into the futher dark depths of hell to take back the keys to hell and the grave once and for all. On the third day he emerged into the light.

Dark days will happen!

But, the key is to learn to settle there and remain. The darkness of a cocoon for a caterpillar is only for a time, Jonah spent time in the belly of a whale for a dark night of the soul before the whale spit him out on the shore and He then made the journey to Ninevah.

Before purpose comes a preparation time comes. Even Jesus after he was baptized had a growing experience in the wilderness. He was tempted, tested and tried buy the enemy of our soul for 40 days. After the darkness he emerged empowered and the more ready to fulfill His God destined purpose. Daniel was in the Lions den a dark time for Him. Joseph spent time in the pit.

What did all these I speak of do when the were in their dark night of the soul. They prayed, sung songs of worship, they built themself up in the most holy faith.

The most holy faith saw them through and it helped launch them into their greatest purposes that we read about in the Word of God.

🌺Today Choose Joy🌺

Choose to build yourself up in the most holy faith! Choose to lean on the one whom is everlasting. Choose to seek Him and grow in your relationship!

These dark and trying days we need something and someone steadfast that we can cling too. He will not fail us lest we only hold on tight!

Stay encouraged we all are fighting different battles, but with God on our side we have an assurance!

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

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Faith builds Trust

Faith and trust work hand in hand!

The more I study faith the more I am learning that I can and should trust in the Lord.

I have been one that is very impatient. A baby in the faith thinking that as soon as I prayed God would show up with the answer in a split second.

Now, I am not taking away that He can do that as He has proven that time and time again through His word and by peoples testimonies of Gods power in their life.

What I am talking about is the Faith to build trust when the answer is delayed. In His word He proclaims I will send my word out to accomplish what it will and it shall not return void. God will speak a thing and its send to accomplish what it will.

It could be to build us in Godly character, get us more established in the faith, learning that He has everythinf under control as long as we rely solely upon Him.

He lets us choose to rely on Him or be self-reliant. To be honest, I have been self-reliant in things as I felt God was moving to slow. When my works died and I had no other choice but to rely on God is when God did great things in my life.

By Him doing great things for me that should have built my trust in God and in the power of His might?

To be honest it didn’t back then!

You know the old song: Count your blessings, name them one-by-by. Count your many blessings to see what God has done!

I was so blinded in looking for the big flashy blessings like everyone else got that they were showing off on social media. Missing entirely all the good God had done for me cause it didn’t look like the worlds blessings.

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs in a counceling session kept it very real with me, and to be honest I needed real as I can dwell in a place of non-reality. Said “you don’t see what God has done for you?” In my very snarky non reality way I said “Nope, what good things has God done for me.”

She then got more real with me and opened mh eyes to the blessings of the Lord and the things He has done. She helped take me from an ungreatful place to a place of gratitude.

And that alone along with the teachings where I am that she and Bishop bring forth have helped fuel my trust in the Lord and heal my trust issues.

And blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what had been spoken to her by the Lord.” Luke 1:45 NASB

It is for this reason that no matter of God answers swiftly or the answe is delayed that my faith has needed to help build my trust in the Lord.

Faith joining hands with trusting in the Lord has increased my depandance upon Him.

Photo I took yesterday in my home town in NC. Love how its two things (clouds) coming together like faith and trust in the spirit.

~Cynthia 😍

Hobby Fun

The joys of having a hobby…

Photography has been a love of mine for a very long time. Christmas surprises of cameras delighted me so much.

My very first camera was a Polaroid Camera that we had to load the 35mm film into it to use and I had a gallon ziplock bag mostly full of the films I had used after many years had passed and they were discontinuing the development of the film I scrambled to get them all developed. It was such a blast from the past to see old vacations, old family events and gatherings.

Over the years as to why the films never got developed it was due to the invention of digital cameras my very first digital camera I used so much that I had to send it off for repair. To find out it was beyond repair was a heart break. I had a replacement come and then over time the display screen messed up and that was a heart break also.

Some time passed and I got one last Olympus digital camera that I still have that I dont use that much as the picture quality isn’t quite what I would like it to be. As when this camera came into my life cellphones begun to have cameras and that was a God send to a photography lover like me.

My cellphone takes good pics on occasion but the shots I long to take need quality and durablity to capture what I would like it to. Taking long distance clear pictures as I would love them to be as if viewing the actual shot as I see it. Photos of sunsets and people and just life is what I long to capture in stills.

Photos of panoramic nature, moons, quality event photos, ministry photos, etc is what I would love to upgrade my love to. Quality takes money and money takes work and faith, so for now it remains a dream to have a good quality camera seeing them on sale reignites the desire, but I wait til it can happen for now. I will keep using my phone to capture what I can to share on my blogs, instagram, and facebook.

~Love Life~Live Life~😍

(My dream camera)

~Cynthia 😉

Walk with me…

We are not to be an island to ourself!

Human nature longs to feel needed, wanted, desired, appreciated, and ao many other things that God built within us to need Him and to need people in our life that are filled with him.

We can isolate due to many things like hurt, rejection, acceptance issues, being an introvert, or so many other reasons as to why we disconnect from others of humanity to not go through some things again or to not deal, whatever the case may be we are not to go at things alone.

I know for myself I have done some isolating in my past when things happened I wanted to be far away to not open my heart, my ability to love (which was small-it needed work), my obcessive care, etc.

But, what has happened is that my Pastor has lovingly shown me that is not only error to live as such a way as God built us for human connection. He built us to love one another as ourself, we are built to love our enemies, we are built to love our neighbor, we are built to guard our heart, we are built to observe the fruit of a person to know if its genuine or deception.

This is how we can know who is to walk with us in life and those who may be passing through your life to teach us something or to show us where we may need to improve. Iron sharpens iron in the life of a believer. But we to are called to love which is the greatest command of all.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia

Foundational Relationships

God given bonds of connection make the world of difference in a life!

All it takes is one God given person to change the entire outlook. All it takes is one to help heal wounds from broken relationships of the past. All it takes is one being used and filled with the Holy spirit that is able to walk unconditionally with you to encourage you on to the next phase.

Have I or am I that friend?

No not yet, but I am striving toward such as things become aware to me that need to grow or develop in.

Is it easy? It can be by not overthinking, stressing or getting all anxious which only causes paralyzation of oneself.

Depending on many factors its within us only that we make changes easy or hard. Pastor taught us sunday in a section of time about “be still” (Psalm 46:10). Beautifully ellaborated we are to be still in our inner processes of thinking. Not being still in the natural as in unmoving. No!

Her teaching and her leadership of me has been that one connection/relationship that I needed in my lofe to begin to turn my life around, grow out of things to begin to mature and able to handle better what life throws out at us and what we get from choices we make.

When someone takes set apart time to pour into you truth, wisdom and be loving and accepting of you then that is a treasured gift that only God could give.

Do you have someone like that in your life?

If not pray to God he send you someone. If you do thank God for what He gave you and ask Him like I am doing to help you to be a better friend in turn. Relationships/Friendships/Godly connectiond help us enjoy life.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

Bad Friendship!

Rejection and fear have a friendship that work together in unity in a wounded soul.

When rejection happens many times over it brings damage to the soul. The soul begins to find ways to heal, but if not being healed with good methods then it adds to the wounding creating a scar within. Least thats how it has been in my life.

Wounds of rejection would happen and my healing method was to let fear come in and protect me. Fear soothed the wound that if I never get close to anyone again then the pain wouldn’t come again by another rejection. But what happened when another cane along into my life?

Well…

They would come and over time yup I let the next one right on into my heart. What happened next was any sign that they were rejecting me I would begin to close off as I was being deemed unacceptable to them. I would wall up and push them away to save the fragile pieces of my heart as best I could from fear of it happening again.

Once wounding began to create other ways of wounding myself within my soul. It was so strong the fear and rejection that I began to shut out good people that God had placed in my life making time with me very difficult. Difficult to the place that I began to expect them to leave me.

But that all stemed from fear and rejection of the past. When they have reinforced to me they are God sent and yes its proven that they are that I still fear the most that people will leave me.

I am told that faith and fear work similar just with different results. The very things I have feared that people would continually come and go has happened. But, I can only manage myself, if something about me is rejected and they want to leave then thats their reasons.

I just have to manage myself with overcoming the fear and rejection issue to not push people away and guard my heart to not take people into my heart so quickly or easily. I need to slow down allow time on the scene and let things be proven.

When God sends me people with a heart after his, yes they may judge and show concern, but also accept that they too have issues and we all are working to overcome and accept each other on our faith journey in life.

~Love Life ~ Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

Ambiverts discontentment!

Caught between and introvert and extrovert!

How can it be that you have tendancies of both ways of being and be discontent?

Well for me as I am known to have both tendancies my discontentment comes from many things. Having walls as a safety built inside causes me to wall or shut people out very much from the damage in my soul and the seclusion for many years of being introvertish.

Over time and things changing in my life I branched out and did more things and I wanted to be around people even to the point of allowing things I shouldn’t have that caused pain later on.

Being thirsty for companionship of a friend I spent many years chasing people to be a friend to me after a mere nice thing said when the reality was. They was just being nice and moving on. So the extrovertish way of thirsting for people to be around to find a level of validation was an hurtful one to keep walking through.

So the wanting to be around people to the point of almost feeling like it was needed and they wouldnt remain, issued a layer of rejection. Which they only rejected the fact they didnt want a frienship, just wanted to be nice and go on with life. This aided in the walls of the introvertish ways to remain walled up to prevent continual pain.

This is how this ambivert found discontentment within. The issue of wanting to be around people and they not wanting to be around me and the way I can shut them out due to being a bit introvertish is a bit of a battle inwardly.

But, shedding the light on my battle may help another if they find themself like I have beginning to take down the walls with people I know and can trust that have proved they accept me faults and all, as well as, now learning to guard better that no, not everyone will be a friend they can be polite and keep moving and it will keep my heart from being open to more hurt or rejection.

~Love Life ~ Live Life ~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

October Is Here!!!

Fall weather, falling leaves, colors changing, crisp chill in the air for a jacket and the scents of the season…

The end of September the beginnings of October insight the wonderous scenses of baked goods, warming beverages, candles, blankets, fluffy socks, etc.

I have already made one pumpkin bread this season and I even attempted a sweet potatoe bread that well didn’t turn out like I had hoped. Needless to say I will try that one again. I have plans for fruit crisps in the slow cooker to make that I brgan making last year its going to be yummy and make my home smell like baked goods.

I found some candles I had gotten on an after christmas clearance sale last year and have started lighting them on the regular adds a lil warmth to the atmosphere as well as the scents they are.

This time of year also brings about the changes to the weather, well finally…lol it was still warm when Fall first came in last few days ot has finally begun to feel like fall. I had a jacket on while out yesterday to keep warm.

Even how the sky and nights changw to bring about amazing photos that I love to take. Being able to take such amazing photos for my blogs. It even insighted the possible investment into a high quality camera to take pics with and do what I love. But, that is all a vision for an appointed time.

Fall is a favorite time of year for me for many reasons, but these here are like the top ones.

~Love Life ~ Live Life ~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉