Faith – During a Global Pandemic

It will see you through! Especially times like we live in now!

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Many times the doom, disparity, gloom, and darkness of the times we live in want to come in and take up space or even residency if allowed for too long.

Its up to ourself to fight the good fight of faith! Its a choice to choose hope, its a choice to choose joy, its a choice to keep the faith!

I recall being told numerous times from those further down the spiritual path then I to, take time to reflect on all the good God has done, look at all the answered prayers and allow that to build your faith, becoming the substance that is needed to see what is hoped for manifest!

“be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:2‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Every time the darkness wants to come like a blanket of false comfort, I have to be aware to fight to renew my mind. Thats where we win or loose it all begins in the mind. I have to take up my sword of the Word of God and pull from Gods strength.

“for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭KJV‬‬

I have a proclivity to not deal with things timely at times. The slip by and build and build and build until one day I am so over taken by it all, that I either crash or explode. Neither one when they happen are pretty. In the last few months I have been working on dealing with things before they get out of hand. Learning to pay attention to what I am thinking so I can take the wrong thoughts captive and sort them out sooner.

“for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses. We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ,”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭10:4-5‬ ‭NASB‬‬

Its up to me and only me to deal with my thoughts. For what I think on so I become. This is by far easier said then done. It is a job to watch your mind. But, if that is the way to continue to keep changing, then I must be committed to the work to see it through. For faith without works is dead, just as work without faith is dead. Both of those have to been alive on the scene.

For as he thinks within himself, so he is. He says to you, “Eat and drink!” But his heart is not with you.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭23:7‬ ‭NASB‬‬

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog! I hope that it encourages you and inspires you to keep the faith, do what you can to change, and continue to seek God! This blog has derived teachings I have received under the Pastoralship of Juanita Gibbs.

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Faith In Gods Authority

He is above all things!

Its in coming to a place of realization that what we think, do, say etc are not above the ultimate authority of God by His word.

His word even proclaim that His ways are not our ways and and His thoughts are not like our thoughts. His ways are higher and His thoughts are higher.

God will have the last word for His word is true and just, full of mercy and grace, as well as rebuke and correction to align us to how he sees and how we should live in accordance to that ultimate truth.

Our strong self will, logic and emotions from our soul like to get in the way and make its own stand, but that stand is short lived because its mostly done in our own strength and our strength has limits.

Whereas, if we do it Gods way and pull on His strength, lean on His ways and thoughts we can succeed in the ways of God. For we are putting Him, His word above our way. Seeking His will over our own is what He likes for us to choose.

Every person is to be in subjection to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those which exist are established by God.
Romans 13:1 NASB

This also comes in handy as God places leadership in our lives also. People such as Pastors are chosen by God given an authority by His word to help equip and prepare us. For the kingdom of God has an established governing pattern.

God uses our leaders in our life to reinforce not only the validity but the power and might of His word. That is used in accordance to the set way that we can be prosperous in spirit, soul and body.

It is also taking Him at Word that we trust and rely on His power to see us through, perform miracles and bless us. His word has infinite power and wisdom to help us through all of life.

May we lean not to our own understanding and trust in the Lord with all might. For it is He and through His word that we can sustain in this life.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith In The Solid Rock

God is solid and firm and worthy of our trust!

For too long I tried to rely on my strength and will to get things done. Little not knowing at the time that was operating from my strong self-will.

It has taken time and I still struggle with it at times to fully rely on God to be my strength and to pull on Him and His will for my life to submit my will to His.

This is because of building a intimate relationship with God through His word, praying, and worshipping Him for who He is.

In myself I used my strengths as a stronghold and those fortresses were fortified with dececption, self-righteousness, and lies of the world. These have had to be torn down to build new strongholds of the word inside my soul.

“God is my strong fortress; And He sets the blameless in His way.
2 Samuel 22:33 NASB

Now that God has used Pastor Juanita Gibbs powerfully in my life to help bring down those strongholds. Which leave voids that have to be refilled with good things. Those good things come from the word of God.

Slowly constructing new and better strongholds take time, and much meditatiom of thr true word of God. Practicing what His word says to live out and constantly pulling on self-control when things want to pull me away from getting into His word and back into the old ways and stronghold habits.

Trusting fully in His word and resting upon Him in it takes confidence that God is not man who can lie and ee can rest in His faithful goodness. My soul cam take anchor in the solid rock that is God.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith Without Signs

It is more blessed to believe and have not seen then to see then believe!

I have for so long been a person that was of the mindset show me then I will believe.

That’s not how God works. Even at salvation it is about trusting the finished works of the cross that to me were unseen.

I could say I was like doubting Thomas alot. Thomas didn’t believe Jesus had visited them while he was away from the room. He said I want to see Him. I want to put my hand in his side and in the places on His wrist.

Jesus then appeard before them again in the room and Thomas was there and Jesus knowing his heart said Thomas here am I put your hands in my side and out your fingers in the places on my wrists so that you may believe.

So Jesus said to him, “Unless you people see signs and wonders, you simply will not believe.”
John 4:48 NASB

Jesus knows our hearts so well he knows when we are in doubt, unbelief, fear, etc as to why at times He wants us to just truat Him. Hebrews 11:1 says that faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen.

Faith is to produce substance and evidence in our life! The substance is character, integrity, fruit of the spirit. The evidence will be the mamifestation of Gods goodness as we grow in Him.

I have had to grow to a place of ultimate trust in God. I have to manage my trust as I can easily fall back into my old ways of doubt, fear, worry, anxiety, etc.

Its getting better and I can only be expectant that God has great things in store for me the more I become rooted and grounded in truth. Develop and grow in the fruit of the spirit and working to become the best version of me possible.

Faith has to be active and in use in my life for it to grow. Faith has to infiltrate my soul in the places where those other things have resided for so long to evict them. Cause faith is in my spirit already. It just needs to become operable in my soul(mind,will, and emotions).

The more this happens faith for what I believe God for that are now unseen are seen by Him and he wants me to trust that no matter if there are signs or not just believe and watch Him come through.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith in the Spirits Guide

My spirit guide is the Holy Spirit!

When the deep voids scream out from within that need a filling of some kind I have resorted to other things to bring comfort or consolation of some sort to the depths that longed for what it has not known.

The depths of lack deep with my soul on occasion cause havoc in my life, its so bad and so deep I often times am not aware of it until its way too late and the emotions and logic have had a hayday.

You know it makes sense now when folks have told me I am senstive and take too much to heart. Cause now I see it is in fact true. When I get in my head it runs off to a far off distant land of make believe where everyone is against me. Some fairy tale right? NOT! But that is my reality, sadly to say.

Let me hear Your lovingkindness in the morning; For I trust in You; Teach me the way in which I should walk; For to You I lift up my soul. Deliver me, O Lord , from my enemies; I take refuge in You. Teach me to do Your will, For You are my God; Let Your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For the sake of Your name, O Lord , revive me. In Your righteousness bring my soul out of trouble.
Psalms 143:8‭-‬11 NASB

I have to work to shut down that part of my soul leading my life so strongly that it has caused so much disaster in any personal connection that then I make myself feel victimized when I was and am the culprit for instigating the separation.

I need to allow the loving words of the Father to infiltrate my soul through putting more of it into my spirit. This is gonna take work on my part. But, I know the depths my soul need to know the Father’s love. The dark night of the soul where things die off is hard, ugly, painful, almost to the point of death.

But to know the Fathers love is to allow the Holy spirit to lead me to what I need in this time to do better, get some healing, get some deliverance, make some changes in what has presented itself that is troubling in my life.

God can bring me out of the troubledness of soul in layers and I am gonna have to trust him for that. I need more of the truth to replace what has been within me of my oen logic and reasoning through wounds and damaged emotions for so long that has raised itself up against the truth.

I have work to do, but I will hold onto God is with me, He hasn’t forsaken me and has good plans for my life and these issues that are coming up need to be dealt with. Cause if unchecked the trajectory of my life could have a whole other path. To remain in His will and way submission to what I need to do is called for.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith see’s the big picture!

God won’t reveal the whole picture! Trust what He see’s!

The more I believe in the power of Gods word as I spoke on in yesterdays blog it also aides in trusting what may not be fully revealed to me.

As Pastor Juanira Gibbs has told me that the word of prophesy comes in part, not revealing the full picture.

“If You are the Christ, tell us.” But He said to them, “If I tell you, you will not believe; Luke 22:67 NASB

If God by His spirit revealed to us every detail that was to come would we believe it?

In my case… probably not… maybe your different than I am in that.

In how I am I would reason away what God has said. Like: that is impossible, how is God gonna do that. I essentially take God out of the equation and begin to go into my “figure it out mode”, which isn’t good as it sends me into anxiousness as it shows my lack of trust in God and small faith.

Pastor spoke on the “figure it out” last night in tele-class that when that comes we are burdening ourself with cares and need to cast them on the Lord (1 Peter 5:7). I must apply the teachings of the word of God into my life

I need to become aware of my “figure it out mode” because when it comes to God we won’t fully figure it out. But what we can do is apply the word Pastor Juanita Gibbs brought to cast it on the Lord and trust His ways, trust what He sees thats predestined for us to walk in, trust His will, plan and purposes that they are for our good!

~Cynthia 😍

Faith builds Trust

Faith and trust work hand in hand!

The more I study faith the more I am learning that I can and should trust in the Lord.

I have been one that is very impatient. A baby in the faith thinking that as soon as I prayed God would show up with the answer in a split second.

Now, I am not taking away that He can do that as He has proven that time and time again through His word and by peoples testimonies of Gods power in their life.

What I am talking about is the Faith to build trust when the answer is delayed. In His word He proclaims I will send my word out to accomplish what it will and it shall not return void. God will speak a thing and its send to accomplish what it will.

It could be to build us in Godly character, get us more established in the faith, learning that He has everythinf under control as long as we rely solely upon Him.

He lets us choose to rely on Him or be self-reliant. To be honest, I have been self-reliant in things as I felt God was moving to slow. When my works died and I had no other choice but to rely on God is when God did great things in my life.

By Him doing great things for me that should have built my trust in God and in the power of His might?

To be honest it didn’t back then!

You know the old song: Count your blessings, name them one-by-by. Count your many blessings to see what God has done!

I was so blinded in looking for the big flashy blessings like everyone else got that they were showing off on social media. Missing entirely all the good God had done for me cause it didn’t look like the worlds blessings.

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs in a counceling session kept it very real with me, and to be honest I needed real as I can dwell in a place of non-reality. Said “you don’t see what God has done for you?” In my very snarky non reality way I said “Nope, what good things has God done for me.”

She then got more real with me and opened mh eyes to the blessings of the Lord and the things He has done. She helped take me from an ungreatful place to a place of gratitude.

And that alone along with the teachings where I am that she and Bishop bring forth have helped fuel my trust in the Lord and heal my trust issues.

And blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what had been spoken to her by the Lord.” Luke 1:45 NASB

It is for this reason that no matter of God answers swiftly or the answe is delayed that my faith has needed to help build my trust in the Lord.

Faith joining hands with trusting in the Lord has increased my depandance upon Him.

Photo I took yesterday in my home town in NC. Love how its two things (clouds) coming together like faith and trust in the spirit.

~Cynthia 😍

They know the right buttons to push!

Weaknesses are targets!

Without faith how can I protect myself against attacks on my weaknesses.

Weaknesses are those vulnerable places that some can easily spot or they get close enough that they study you out to know just where your weak.

Those are in my opinion the folks that you have to guard against. In my youth I was open to way to many folks! My trust has been broken so many times it has damaged me from even good that God sends. I didn’t know then what I have been taught by my Pastor Juanita Gibbs that I need to know a person by their fruit they bare in life over what they say!

She forever teaches us to listen beyond mere word to hear the heart. She has wonderfully taught that they may say they are with you but in thier heart far from you. Scarry but true so many have said you need me just say and I will be there. When in reality was in their heart: I hope they don’t call cause my life is too busy to help. But, to look like a good person I offered my assistance.

This can be very hurtful and painful when it is a continual repeat thing in a persons life. Well, it has been for me. When if true, genuine love amd compassion for a person is on the scene then it would help without being asked. It would go above and beyond with never being told.

When this has done damage to a soul that creates an inner weak point in a person that can easily be manipulated or exploited for self benefit and gain.

As Pastor so wonderfully taught last night to us is that it is our individual jobs to guard our heart/soul. So to say that is to say my lack of knowledge of the word of God didnt properly arm me for the battle of life. I knowingly opened myself up to people and things before coming to Reformation Developmental Center.

Those things prior coming into the knowledge of the word of God was of my own doing and to my own demise. Had I not allowed certain things the hurt, wounds, pain in my soul may not have been such as they have been.

Time and healing and the proper teaching had to be on the scene of my life to help me to begin to grow and mature.

Is it the fault of the other person that they exploited any weaknesses with in me?


Its mine because I was wide open to allow the pain to come in!

They have their own amount of responsibility to own and that rests with them. As for me, I must learn from each encounter and grow to limit those things from happening any longer.

A properly guarded life is a life to be lived in the comfort that the spirit of God within will alert yoi as to who you can and cannot trust in this life if you allow him to do so!

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

But what about…

I can do it myself. What can you do to help me?

In the fleshly pride that it is that is the mindset I have had about some things in my spiritual journey of faith.

The last 2 days I must say have been the most interesting yet as its been consistent of God speaking and revealing and confirming things.

What a God I serve!


Its all boiled down to dealing with my trust issue.


I have trust issues and I can unashamedly confess this. For healing comes when confession takes place as the power of the issue looses its grip.

To take the first step to deal with my trust issue after confessing it is to go to God!

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 NASB

But, why am I weary? Oh yeah the trust issue…I figured I could work to make it go away, suppress it to make it go away, or be totally in fear and not do anything. To be honest in some degrees I have done all three of those.

I did not have enough trust in God to help me to find healing and wholeness. Not within my own strength anyway. I would say that it began to grow with the addition of my current pastor Juanita Gibbs. She has so lovingly came into my life to help me walk a process of transforming and growing in my soul!

Alot of my faith journey has been one of pleasing people over myself. Yes! I have been a people pleaser! What ddi it profit me, stress, much self work, rejection, etc.

Now with Pastors coaching of my life the people pleasing is getting tips and wisdom to manage it, but to know whats people pleasing and what is flowing in the fruit of the spirit.

Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.
Galatians 6:9 NASB

I put more trust in humanity than I did God by being a people pleaser. And that doesn’t please God! For if I do unto others as I would have done unto me that would be flowing from fruit and not stressing to please people. Trusting that God see’s a pure heart of service unto him over man helps me to build trust in God to begin to make a shift.

I have to begin to put more confidence in the truth of His word. It contains the power already, but I have to access it by faith and hope. The more my soul learns to wait on the Lord patience has to be at work.

I wait for the Lord , my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 NASB

God has me to wait on Him to grow in character, so He give me work on myself to do. My pastor coming along side as my inner life coach has begun to help deliver and heal areas of my soul.

For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think; but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith. Romans 12:3 NASB

There has been many times in my learning to trust God that I have doubted I had enough faith to grow or heal. Pastor has told me I have to use my measure of faith and work it to begin to be made whole. The contents of my soul have to be treated as they have caused infection in my life.

And Jesus answered and said to them, ” It is not those who are well who need a physician, but those who are sick. Luke 5:31 NASB

Jesus came and provided himself as a way for that to happen in my life. Isaiah 61 is one of my favorites that Jesus proclaimed in His time that the spirit of the Lord was upon Him to heal, deliver, and set free. That same is true even now the Holy Spirit os that very nature. But, I have to trust that nature to be made whole.

And He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.” Luke 8:48 NASB

The more I place my utmost full trust in God, manage people pleasing and trusting in humanity over God, stop doubting him, trust the God given people He has provided the more healing can take place and I can work toward wholeness and growing in maturity.

And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
James 1:4 NASB

I have to continue to be patient with God, but myself also healing and growing are a process of time and committed work of believing in God, hoping in His word, casting all my cares in God, dealing with stuff when things bother me, stop suppressing and work diligently toward being mature(perfect) and lacking in nothing. Seeing that He is my supply and all I have need of is found in Him and his love for me(the world).

With the help of My Pastor Juanita Gibbs and the Lord and doing my part in time being whole in my soul will be my testiment of faith!

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia 😉

Faith with trust issues!

Over time of broken trust in people it became issues in trusting in God also.

Having faith in God the unseen creator of all things we see today is tough at times when there are trust issues in the soul of broken trust in humanity.

But, God word proclaims I shouldn’t trust in the flesh/humanity as it is imperfect, it is flawed, it is conditional, broken, wounded, etc.

So by doing so that opened me to hurts and wounds that came from my relations with people, that spilled over to my relationship with God.

God is faithful, trustworthy, dependable, on time, ever present, not as man that would lie, fulfills his word, keeps his promises.

So what do I do when I have deeply rooted trust issues?

Begin to progress toward trusting in God and the God in people again. I saw this quote alot monday and it just resonnated:

Faith is taking the first step eveb when you don’t see the whole staircase. Martin Luther King Jr.

The way to begin to trust is by risking the first step by faith that God and the God in the person will lead you the right way.

My Pastor Juanita Gibbs quotes Joyce Meyer in the regard of “do it afraid!” Then she goes on to say take the step of faith that God will meet you as you walk in faith, walk as the spirit leads you as He leads you trust in Him.

The positive God given influences in my life have aided in my beginning to trust in people again and God again. Where there is any bond of connection trust is important Pastor tells me. So, I need my trust to grow to be able to have good relationships with people and God.

As trust grows my measure of faith can be exercised more and become more effective in my spiritual journey.