Instant Gratification

Learning to wait on the Lord in a “gotta have it now” society.

Waiting nowadays is one of the hardest things imaginable. For example its getting colder now as Fall season is upon us and I happened to be a coffee shop this past saturday. The brood of people before me all placed their order and waited.

I placed my order then got to wait also. I went and sat down at the coffee bar and waited what I felt was very patiently. I saw all the folks ahead of me one by one obtain their drink order. The shop manager struck up a conversation with me as he was cleaning, taking out trash, I told him it was obvious it was the busy season amd many orders (like 6) were ahead of mine. The folks ahead of me ordering all left so I was so excited mine was next right.

But, that wasn’t the case at all. The baristas were behind the counter hustling and makin coffee for the drive through orders and in house orders all in a tizzy of coffee madness.

One by one the folks behind me got all their coffee also. By this time the shop manager came back out and asked me what had I ordered so my coffee could be located. It had already been made but was never called out. The young lady barista looks at the store manager in frustration declaring “well why didnt she say something before now”.

I looked as I felt my flesh rising with the snappy remark and I said to both I saw you were busy so unlike some I exercised patience. This is the busy season after all for warm beverages and I could wait patiently. The store manager thanked me for waiting patiently.

Now the quandry with this senario is, not long ago I probably wouldn’t have been so patient in this situation. I would have lost my cool and been very snappy back with the young barista lady. In a season of time my pastor has expressively stated about the importance of exercising/walking in the fruit of the spirit in hard press times.

I wait for the Lord , my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.
Psalms 130:5 NASB

My soul (mind, will, and emotions) has had to grow to a place of using the fruits of the spirit to grow in character. Believe me my personal character needed and needs to grow.

There have been times when I would wait on things from God and when they didnt come or happen when I wanted them too I would be just like a 2yr old having a tantrum. That was all the more unbecoming of someone in my physical age. This way of thinking had to be clipped as it kept me in a place of perpetual depression and anxiety. Plus, it wasn’t a full life of faith and trust in God.

Learning to wait on the Lord comes with many senarios of developing a patient way of being. The more I grow patient with the Lord and what He wants done in my character has proven to be far more important than receiving any blessing.

So, if your waiting on God please know your wait has purpose. It has character developing times if you allow that to happen. Waiting doesn’t mean doing nothing either. Waiting is a way of being and a way of thinking.

Waiting requires a mindset change, its one that is worth fighting to shift.

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Waiting in full Hope

Devistation will come, try not to loose hope when it comes.

This year I recall getting two seperate phone calls about somethings I had a high hope to come through for me. I had such high hopes for both to only have them dashed.

The disappointment and devistation I felt ran so deep that it exposed a layer of fear I have for things I have high hopes for.

The fear showed me that my stance wasn’t strong in faith. The slighetest thing knocked me out of faith and right into doubt, fear, worry, anxiety and depression.

I wanted something so bad that when it was a half yes/half not right now, that I immediatley went into negativity. Things in life will not always work out how we plan them, but they will work out in how God plans them.

Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 15:13 NASB

I have had to begin to learn how to tap into believing even when I get a “no” or a “not yet” as an answer. The “no’s” I have gotten in the past sent me right to unbelief.

Now to shift from my old way to a new way is by working my way when a “no” or “not right now” comes to be stronger and still remain in faith is a choice I am finding.

I can have peace and joy in believing that the things hoped for will abound to me in time. I have to keep working to standing in faith and not waivering.

It have to make that choice to do so when feelings try to rule me back into my old pattern. This is the work to not fall back into unbelief and find a stance in the faith, remain full of joy and peace that anchors hope that is able to abound to me from God by the Holy Spirit.

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~Cynthia 😍

Wait

There is a set time for all things…

Have you found yourself like I have at times wishing you were at the drive thru of life. We roll up to the speaker box, make our request known to progress to the next point at this drive thru to pay and receive our request. Then the attendent may either hand you your request or ask you to pull forward to wait for it.

Most times when requests are made known to God we have a time of waiting to receive them. As I was counceled on once that God hears the request when its made, then there is a prepararion time from when the request was made until the time in which it appears.

We all are waiting on different things. It could be waiting for a job, waiting for a pay raise, a car repair, a spouse, a home of your own, etc. It is what we do in the waiting that makes all the difference.

As its been said by many that waiting is not the act of not doing nothing. Waiting is the time in which we can be most productive.

In the waiting we can grow in the gifts, talents and abilities God has instilled in us. Learn a new ability like an instrument or language. Begin to grow in character and integrity and mature in places in your personal life.

But if we hope for what we do not see, with perseverance we wait eagerly for it.
Romans 8:25 NASB

While we do these things it gets us out of focusing on what we requested and seeking just the hand of God, to seeking His face and His heart. He wants us to eagerly wait for things from Him in patience with the way He goes about bringing it to be.

We live in a time and world where yes even I got caught up in instant gratification. I asked and I want it now kind of thinking. When God says ok my child I hear your request, I check my will for your life and now you must be prepared to handle what you ask for, before I bring it to pass.

Waiting can be portrayed as something daunting, when in reality and from the God perspective it will forever be always worth it.

Wait patiently for all you ask for from God. He has a way to reveal to you if what you ask is in the plan for your life. Trust Him, have faith in the timing of God.

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~Cynthia 😍

Now that I have asked, now prepare!

We are to prepare for what we pray for!

In my time as it has been if singlehood it has provided me time to pray and seek the Lord and its a great time to spend with my Savior. Developing that true and lasting relationship with communication and worshipping his majesty, thanking him for his goodness, grace and mercy in thanksgiving. To study and delve into his guide book for all things concerning life to navigate the path here on the earth.

In times past though I hated continuing to remain single. It was as if my mind decided to name it a plague or something. But when God got hold of me through my wonderful Pastor Juanita Gibbs to show me in reality it is a blessing and a prepatory time was revolutuonary for me. It held begin to reshape my thinking on the whole thing.

Later, as time has gone on she has helped me tackle some wring stronhild thinking that I have had about it and to begin to bring healing to places from damage in my soul from my past, how I have lived this life that seriously needed attention as I had tried for so long to put a man in those places and always ended up hurt and the more empty due to the contents of my soul.

Her book up above(which can be purchased on Amazon) has helped me have a paradigm shift to loose fear, doubt and worry and begin to have faith, hope and trust in God that in time He provides whats needed. Where I had thought it may just bot happen for me and that thought is not in line with the word of God. So it is to he captured when comes and cast down (2 Corin 10:4-5).

Freedom from old stuff is a process and it takes time. As to why the word of God is the best guide book to have in this life as it touches all subjects including relationships. Her book has helped me begin to shift my mind and see myself as a winner in the faith and trust in God and His timing.

These books below are others that I have read in time past before going to the church that has so wonderfully aided me in my life far more than theae books as my lraders know me and my battles and issues as they have taught the best knowledge is your own personal experiance and gaining wisdom from those who know you personally to help naviagte the journey.

In no particular order:

This book is great for understand yourself and how you commincate in showing/displaying love to those in your life.

This book mainly focuses on enjoying single life! I passed my copy on to encourage other single sisters, but God replaced the copy when He sent me a leader in my Pastor who tells me the same thing. Enjoy, live, focus on God, walk in my purpose and his will. She is my book of wisdom since the others fully cannot relate to me as she can relate me to my story and prepare me.

This book was pretty much a reinforcement to my Pastors councel to trust God. As this spoke about divine timing and God doing the work to bring about His will and plans for my life.

This book expounded on Ruths story. She focused on her purpose with Noami and Boaz found her. Our bishop has spoke on her story in times to wait to be found by him as we are about our Fathers business. To stop falling for the words of a Bozo (lol) but wait while God works. Wait patiently with good attitude.

This book also reinforced the concept of time and touched on boundaries and enlightened that if you have things going on in your life you may not need to be in a relationship where we need wait and get healing first just as my Pastor focuses on with us. Heal the inner and if its Gods will He will bring things to pass.

This one is a premartial counceling book. That focuses on reflecting marriage as marriage of christ and the church as to which that is what earthly union should reflect when 2 born again believers come together.

This book opened up more the concept from the prior book, but showed more the difficulty and challenges in union on one flesh. As my pastor has taught us that 2 becoming one is an undertaking of understanding, forgiveness, and unconditional love to not quit when things get hard, but to keep at it.

This one I have not read, but I have read the book Boundaries just not this targeted area. But my Pastor has been instilling in me boundaries are very important in all kinds of relationships.

I so love my church Reformation Developmental Center where they speak on practical wisdom tips as well as full depth of the word of God to bring us insight into all things in this life.

~Love Life~Live Life~😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰

Waiting Power

There is power found in waiting which brings about growth!

There is one things to say that when your single and you desire a relationship that God will test your heart and find out where He stand with you all the while still promising things unseen.

Well He has with me anyway. Just like the children of Isreal when he took them from bondage of slavery to the egyptians and into the wilderness. He said to them worship me the one true God who removed you from captivity and is taking you to a land flowing with milk and honey.

What happens next after they were saved by God and given the promise, the test. Where they will gonna worship God for all he had just done or worship the promise. He put them in the wilderness to find they worshipped the promise of land with milk and honey over him so they grumbled and complained. An eleven day journey took 40 years.

Its the same way today with some of us, but I will focus on myself mainly. I was saved by grace given new spiritual life, I was saved by mercy and given new life in the natural, he set me free and gave promise and now in the wilderness I have seen where I worshipped the promise over the God who saved me. He has(is) tested(ing) my heart.

I have added on time to my journey by not being patient and going by what the world says over allowing my process to happen. The wilderness reveals who we really are my Pastor just brought out to us not long ago.

And boy oh boy my wilderness has showed me that I have got perspective in error. My perspective was worship Gods hand and the promise.

I am after all a child of God right and He will come through for me! That statement is loaded with pride as if God owed me something when in reality I owe God my life and service.

The power in my waiting is allowing my process to happen, growing me in areas that need to be developed in before the promise. To cause my spiritual walk to be stronger, my soul to not rule my every move but be under subjection to the word of God. To understand God wants me to keep him first in my life and to love him with all of myself as he loves me so eternally and uncondtionally.

The power of my wait is not attaining the promise but to be the best woman of God for Him and His glory until such time He sends someone to walk the journey of faith with me. There is fullness and completeness in God that satisfies like nothing else so even if the promise doesn’t come I have a great and perfect love with God and Jesus and the Holy spirit.

~Love Life~Live Life~ 😍

~Cynthia πŸ˜‰