Road to Recovery after COVID

The path to recovery from COVID is full of uncertainty!

Since the last time I blogged, I have been deeply into getting my body steered toward being COVID free and toward rebounding from the effects of this slow moving virus that has so greatly impacted the world we live in today.

I spent 22 days in isolation to prevent the spread of this virus. I kept it from my aging father of whom lives in the same dwelling as I, and I didn’t pass it on to anyone in whom I had any contact with. Praise God!

In the days of knowing I contracted the virus, in the small area of which I am employed it became a virtual witch hunt of who infected who and how and all the scenarios that we none had any full control over. I may have mentioned it in my previous writing, that at the time I contracted COVID there was a highly concentrated number of cases in that small town. This fact alone makes it mute on how I contracted it as in such a small area, this spread faster and quicker! If your someone like me that works in the public, handling funds, face-to-face encounters, then its bound to happen.

As soon as folks heard my story of having COVID hysteria kicked in, everyone I had been in contact with rushed to get tested. Which is all fine cause that was the point on making it aware that I contracted the virus. Many got tested and one after another came back negative, I was so thankful to hear it as I am around some more advanced in age men and women that have underlying medical conditions that needed to be careful around with this.

One that I work with about 14 days after I had the virus, she contracted it. It was told to me by someone in their circle that this person told most that she had communication with, that she had contracted the virus from me. Smh. We shared the same work space yesterday and from her lips she said I didn’t get it from you, but in her continuing story said that on a day she went into a shared office space (now mind you. This was a week after our office had been shut down and sterilized) said she went to my desk and got something and felt horrible since. So in one breathe she says she didn’t get from me and with another she between lines said I got it from you! The heart will always reveal itself if you pay close attention to the words.

Its amazing to also see how you are treated once you have had COVID. I went to work to attempt to get back into some level of normalcy after the testing reveled I was now negative. You walk into a place and immediately you hear “RONA” and the sound of ur not allowed in here coming from the lips of people as you see from your peripheral vision the ones on the side of you step back as if you was so super contagious they could not share the same air in-which to breathe.

Its also been super refreshing to be welcomed back into the presence of people. I am very much a people person, I like to connect and plug into peoples energies especially people you get good vibes from. Some have been so welcoming of me returning back to health that its a reflection of Gods loving character in the earth. Of which is something I may write about in blogs to come what my time of isolation revealed about me to work on for my own personal development.

My body is still in recuperation mode as I still have not regained the full taste and sense of smell and as of late really bad tinnitus has developed. This is where the path to my recovery is uncertain. I went to my family physician Monday to kinda be left feeling as if I was crazy for having tinnitus and refusing to get their flu shot among other things. Because of all the strict guidelines at doctors I had to be sure I made them away I had, had the corona/covid-19 and that I was now clear.

Then it was pressure to get a flu shot. I had to stand firm that I didn’t want and will not get a flu shot! They didn’t understand my reasoning after just surviving COVID, why would I purposely insert flu into my body that still hasn’t full rebounded from the corona virus. They insisted, well it doesn’t give you the flu! I said no! Four times I had to tell them No! They gave no treatment for my tinnitus and only said allow time to pass to see if it goes away as she never heard of this being a side effect from COVID. I’m like do you want my head to see if what I am telling you is true!?

I have begun doin my own therapy on sound treatments for the ringing, taste therapy to attempt to get that back and Smelling therapy to begin to have that come back. I have also enlisted the wisdom of a retired medical care worker whom knows a lot about things in homeopathic ways of treatments and therapy to help me along and her wisdom has proven time and time again. She made me her own healing soup therapy that she uses countlessly time and time again that has prevented pneumonia and more in her close connections to keep them healthy and from worser sicknesses.

It is my firm belief that getting this soup in the early phases of being diagnosed with Covid-19 that this soup kept the virus from moving into my heart and lungs. That of which I am thankful for. The studies show that COVID effects vital organs like heart, lungs, and now recently they are seeing the effects on the brain with the side effects that I am experiencing. The part of my brain for my sensory reception has been impacted the most in my case of COVID.

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Stop Running Yourself Down!

We can disect ourselfs to the point of nothingness!

Learning to put the puzzle of my personhood back together!

Body positivity is one of many things I struggle with. I have been endeavoiring to learn that my body is what I am in and accepting every facet of it. This can be a hard pill to swallow! Especially when you have spent many years running yourself down like I have!

I have allowed so much of the opinions of others, the world, and society as a whole to tell me I am not good enough of a woman cause I don’t meet a certain criteria!

One day I was talking to a friend of mine which I happen to admire her councel and wisdom so very much, I happened to mention I wished I was skinny and tan! She said to me so lovingly to not want that, but to embrace the woman that I am, while yes working on myself!

In that moment I stopped and was on complete awe of the words she spoke. They have been said to me before granted, but some how this time it hit my soul differently! It came in a time when I have been pressing into establishing within my internal foundation some key fundamental truths that I need to have that I missed growing up.

Its only been as of recent that pressing into accepting myself wholly is beginning to bring small degrees of healing. The pieces of myself that I constantly want to change are being embraced back into my personhood as a whole.

It’s as if I was humpty dumpty broken and could not get put back together again until a level if healing had come. The lines of the puzzle are become less and less evident and becoming less visible to my critical eye. This is all healing to accept my individuality!

Cynthia

~Beauty for Ashes

Seek Wisdom

Wisdom is a precious jewel!

For someone like me I am quick to get right into my head and think think about everything. This causes me to get into more logic than I do faith.

My logic and reasoning can be so loud that the voice of the spirit in me trying to speak is squealched out. I have been learning to stop that when my logic kicks in. Its just like starting a car you know when you put the key in to start it up. I have had to become aware of when I do that and hault it.

I directed my mind to know, to investigate and to seek wisdom and an explanation, and to know the evil of folly and the foolishness of madness.
Ecclesiastes 7:25 NASB

In this season I am learning that I have to re-direct my mond from what it may know, assume, view as suspecious, see as fear and shut it down at the gate and turn to voice of reason.

God has placed before me in my leadership sound coucel, a woman of God whom is full of wisdom. Pastor Juanita Gibbs is one that I am greatful that I can turn to and present what is currently going on in my life and world to get the wisdom I need to navigate life, the situation and things better.

My foolishness has been keeping the issues I face to myself in a way of pride, not allowing voices of wisdom to help me out. This has been the fown fall of many a folly in my life. I have been the cause of much of my own pain and hurt cause of leaning on my own limited understanding.

Seeking good Godly councel has been definitley a trajectory changer. I am finding I am getting through things better than I was doing it in myself;(pride).

I am so eternally greatful for her and my whole church family for the love, support, ear and arms in times like there have been. As Pastor beautifully brought out last Wednesday in teleclass. Find your spiritual family that will help you grow and mature.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith Seeks Counsel Pt 3

Wisdom is to be shared not hoarded!

Many times when things happen in our life and we go through them alone. Then the same situation happens to someone else and they come to you for wisdom, but you if anything like I have been bitter at heart didn’t want to share the wisdom that was gained by the trial.

Sometimes it even came to my mind they weren’t there for you in your trial, but they want you to be there for them. Let them learn the hard wisdom like you had to learn it, no one held your hand in it. Let them see how it feels.

All those things revealed the bitterness of heart and they are not how God set things up to be. Granted, no we should have people that we can talk to in things, but what if you don’t have anyone? Turn to God. In some seasons of my life before God gave me people, He was my best friend.

Then God gave me people and I had to work through some inner issues about allowing people into my life and world where no one had gone before. He had me walk through certain things to not only shape me, but to also grow in wisdom in areas that could be imparted to others.

“Do you hear the secret counsel of God, And limit wisdom to yourself?
Job 15:8 NASB

I not only heard secret counsel and partook of it, but I hoarded(limited) the counsel for myself in cases when it could have helped lighten the burden of another.

God has to work on my heart to get me healed of the bitterness of heart, gain some understanding as to why people can’t be there for others in trial, and learn to open up and share wisdom to those who have an ear to hear it.

That in part is kind of why I blog to share encouragement to others going through things like I have or am going through. To show there is a light at the end of the matter. As well as, to not keep counsel secret and just to myself.

Now, some wisdom does have to be tailored to match the circumstance of an individual, but there will always be an underlying chord of similarity that can be shared to help another out.

I am so very thankful for the wisdom that has been imparted to me by my Pastor Juanita Gibbs. She has given freely of it without withholding and her encouragement to blog has been one I am thankful for also. She has helped me come from under that bitterness and share what I can to this audience.

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~Cynthia 😍

Take Hold of Wisdom

We should strive to possess wisdom!

Wisdom imparted should be wisdom gained! It is all based on a personal choice to accept or reject Godly wisdom.

For wisdom is protection just as money is protection, But the advantage of knowledge is that wisdom preserves the lives of its possessors.
Ecclesiastes 7:12 NASB

The more I take in wisdom and apply it into my personal life it becomes a protection for me.

But how so right?

Well…

I had wisdom shared with me about how I have been overly available to my job. I hadn’t set no boundary that when I was off work, I was off work!

I was always answering calls and messages and wasn’t getting paid to do such things. What happened as a result was me becoming stressed, burned out, overwhelmed, and full the more of anxiety.

Now setting boundaries and possessing the wisdom that has been imparted to me it has become a protection for my sanity. He gave us a spirit of a sound mind(self-control) I can control myself in how available I am (portion of 2 Tim 1:7).

The only way to preserve my life is to take in and adhear wisdom to my life as much as possible for it has the power to protect. Wisdom should be our sister as our closest confidant (Proverbs 7:4).

Wisdom cried out for me in this situation and countless others. I had to make a choice to take hold of wisdom or let it slip from my grip. I choose now after doing too much in my strength to allow wisdom to aide in my life. Won’t you?

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~Cynthia 😍

Wisdom on Display

Wisdom will eventually have an impact on your reactions!

I have to be honest, I am someone that when things happen in my life that I can become very hasty in decision making. I can become very irritable and snappy when I feel like I am being attacked.

But, those reactions weren’t wise one reactions I have to also admit on my part. What I took in as being attacks to thus cause me to make hasty decisions and react in not so Godly ways caused much issue.

Yet Wisdom is shown to be right by what its followers do.
Luke 7:35 CEV

Now that wisdon has come on the scene from impartation from my Pastor Juanita Gibbs, of what is going on within me it is now up to me to implement that wisdom.

The issues of my soul have caused woundings and scars that have set me on auto to react and think certain ways that are contrary to the truth of what is really trying to take place.

I have to admit these issues within my soul so that they can loose power and hold in my life to turn to the new way of being. That is slowing down and not being hasty and hearing a thing out so to gain understanding as to what is coming forth for me to take in.

Wisdom that I take in will show forth in my following of its guidance.

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~Cynthia 😍

Wisdom that is Pure

Not every piece of wisdom we get is from God!

There is one thing if not this that I have learned the hard way. So many want to try to impart wisdom to a person, but that wisdon was biblically unfounded. Rather it was from their own experiance and not pure truth from the Word of God.

But, how do you know what someone is sharing with you is bibically backed sound wisdom?

I have found that those that do have biblically backed wisdom often have scriptural support of what they are imparting to me. They not only share of their own personal experiance in using the Word of Gods true and pure wisdom to help them navigate a situation. But encourage in loving, supportive, compassionate ways.

But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy.
James 3:17 NASB

When I have received councel from people that didn’t have such truth supporting their statements and that wisdom caused more problems it seemed then when I didn’t take their insight.

When I learned to stop taking their insight they got agitated with me and declairing “why won’t you listen to me?”

Talk about a turn off.

This was when I had begun taking Godly councel that shed better light then the wisdom I had been getting and they didn’t appreciate me turning a deaf ear to what they shared.

Wisdom that is pure is wisdom that we all need and should cherish. We must exercise disernment to know what type of wisdom we are getting shared with us.

Wisdom

I can always use more wisdom, can’t you?

There are just things I will admit that I just don’t have a clue on as to how to navigate things in this life.

But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him.
James 1:5 NASB

When I requested of God to send someone into my life that would help impart wisdom and insight into areas of my life known and unknown that could help me learn from them. God sure enough answered abundantly more than I could have imagined.

He sent a wonderful leader in my Pastor Juanita Gibbs who can impart wisdom to navigate life from all aspects. She has taught me so much of the things of God and the natural day-in day-out things that I needed to be shown or taught.

(My Pastor Juanita Gibbs – Facebook)

God uses her surrendered life to help impart wisdom to others and I am blessed to be counted in that number. She goes live on facebook every tuesday between 6pm and 7pm EST.

She has helped mold and shape my womanhood into what it should be to mature me in those areas. She is used of God to help in cultivating my spirit life by the word she delivers and has taken me under wing to help with the gifts God has placed in me. She has also helped me in areas of my soul, as well as, helping me get healthy in body. She is a whole person ministry and I love that about where I call my church.

The more wisdom I need in areas she is able to impart from experiance and the word and from her councel practice she can tailor councel just to my life so perfectly.

Never be ashamed to ask God or people for Wisdom. It can help you so much in life.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith in Finances

God shall supply our needs according to His riches in glory!

Having faith in finances is often times needed in my life and I am sure others life also.

I am by no means of the word a financial guru or anyone that could give great financial wisdom advice as I am always looking to my Pastor Juanita Gibbs for wisdom in my finances to help manage things better.

(Her name links you to her website,facebook coaching pg and blog)

It is by Pastors wisdom and anointing that by faith things are beginning to shift around and iron out in my finances.

There have been so many times it seemed impossible, that debt kept mounting up and the mountain of it I kept circling endlessly. Her wisdom has helped me scale areas back and move around others.

“Will not your creditors rise up suddenly, And those who collect from you awaken? Indeed, you will become plunder for them.
Habakkuk 2:7 NASB

When the endless calls from debt collectors come it had been overwhelming. They rose up to collect as if suddenly. But, by faith God will see me through it. He will you as well if we trust in His provision.

She teaches us the just shall walk by faith. This is walking by faith and not by sight. Where my sight may see the mountain but faith see’s where we begin to scale the mountain or take it down.

Trusting God in my finances was hard somewhat. The world trains you that you have to do it. Get out there take on a 2nd or 3rd job to tackle your mounting situation of debt. When God says just trust me.

Pastor has been teaching me to give it all to God and trust what He can and will do. As well as, not growing weary in well doing. The more I remain cheerful in my work and service and keep the faith applying the wisdom she imparts God has and will move the more in the financial areas of life.

Lets trust God for His supply and provision. He is faithful, merciful, gracious. He will not forsake us!

~Cynthia 😍