Stubborn Heart

My heart has been stubborn!

In coming to join Reformation Developmental Center Pastored by Juanita Gibbs that I have come into an awareness that change begins on the inside first.

Chane happens from the inside out and not the outside in.

-Juanita Gibbs

I had to begin to work on changing some core inner issues and stop fighting against what Gods word says about things. My stubborn ways bucked, fought, kicked and screamed to prevent me from changing and remaining the way I was.

The way I was, was a pathway to nothingness honestly. Being full of doubt, fear, worry, anxiety, negativity are all things counter intuitive to God and He wont show up in anything less than faith!

Therefore, change your hearts and stop being stubborn.
Deuteronomy 10:16 NLT

In a way God spoke through my Pastor about I need a genuine change at the heart of me to change what I have going on outwardly around me, how I handle outside circumstances and not be moved so much out of faith in God.

The stubborn heart of mine that has baulked at changing has had to learn to come under submission to Gods word. I had/have to learn to cast down everything that comes up from within that is contrary to the word of God.

By using the word of God it attacks the barriers in my heart to knock them down. This is the only way to clear the field so to speak and make my heart free to take on the new of the truth of Gods word. The more I do this the stubbornness lesses to change my heart to bring about the genuine change in my life from the inside out.

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~Cynthia 😍

Faith fruit 🍓🍒

Faith is on display by our fruit!

A tree as it grows and grows it begins to bear fruit. Depending on the environment, soil, location will more than likely dictate what fruit a natural tree will bear.

If we look at this in the context of us as people being fruit bearing and trees planted by the waters (Psalm 1:3) we should bear fruit in season and out and all kinds of fruit.

But, sometimes we don’t bear much if any good fruit in the beginning of our faith as we still have much of the old nature still residing in our soul.

Our soul is our mind, will, and emotions. These parts of us do not get reborn at salvation. They have to go through a process of change to reflect the rebirth of our spirit.

Even so, every healthy tree bears good fruit, but the unhealthy tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit.
MATTHEW 7:17‭-‬18 AMP

So, what has to happen is the pruning begins to take place as we journey into building our relationship with the Lord. The pruning happens to remove dead or useless parts to then bear more and better fruit.

He will begin to show you what you no longer need in your life and begin to clip at it so it can be removed from you.

Like for me He has been using my Pastor in my life to help clip depression, anxiety, worry, doubt, and fear from my life as they only have adverse benefits to my life.

They are counterintuitive to the life of faith and mush deminish and thankfully in her workings with me they have been. This way I can stop producing the fruit of those things in my life and begin to produce better more God resembling fruit.

In my unhealthy nature prior to coming to Reformation Developmental Center the contents of my soul and still living much in the old nature I was indeed bearing those bad fruits. An unhealthy tree cannot beat good fruit.

Pastor Juanita Gibbs took me under her care and began to help change the soil I was planted in, cultivate a new environment to begin to thrive in, as well as, help the buddings of good fruit begin to bear forth as the old branches got clipped away.

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~Cynthia 😍

Heart of Faith 💕🌱

What is planted on the inside is what grows!

At the heart of who we are as people, those core things that we are and walk in daily are seeds we spread in our every day life to ourself and to the environment around us.

To spread good we have to alter that which we are at the core of us. For me that has been removing what I can of negativity, doubt, fear, worry, anxiety, depression.

It will be a life long journey to do so, but I have been able with the coaching of my Pastor Juanita Gibbs been able to tackle a layer of it. Which I am eternally greatful for.

Without her love, guidance, acceptance and leadership in my life I am not sure where I would be. I know for sure without her I wouldn’t be blogging. These are my ways to spread good seeds out into the world.

I will establish your seed forever And build up your throne to all generations.” Selah.
Psalms 89:4 NASB

I want to continue to change me at the heart of me to carry good seeds of faith into the world. I want it to be prevalent in my relationships, in my writings and those I may only encounter breifly.

What I carry of faith inside of me will manifest around me, just as the negativity has manifest just in the opposite way. To continue to change I must make sure I am in continual submission to His word and this too will take work and be a life long journey.

But in time the consistent work of the beginning will become my first nature, over time, as in the beginning it is hard work and a 2nd nature initially as I had leaned too much on the old pattern/way of being.

We are seed carriers it is up to us to grow good seed to share that good seed around us. Just as any fruit bears seed if it came from a not so good string it may not last long, but if the fruit is nurtured and cared for and has a good start then it can produce mass goodness and be a long lasting seed bearing fruit.

That is what we are to be an everlasting/evergreen tree bearing fruit in season and out of season. That thus bores more fruit as the seeds inside fall to new ground and grow.

A heart and core center of good faith seeds can change your life and generations.

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~Cynthia 😍

Faith finds rest for your soul!

Faith through the word is our key to rest!

Is this easy to say? Yes, of course it is. But, what about actually tapping into the source and overcoming doubt, unbelief, worry, fear and anxiety.

Its been a journey and I am the furthest thing from having this thing perfected. Even as of yesterday I failed in areas and spent way too much time self abusing myself.

My Pastor can attest to this as she was with me to councel, bring wisdom and insight to areas that need dealing with within my soul.

I have got to be diligent about putting more of the word inside of me! She teaches us the Word of God is His voice and His mind that we are to put on. This is the only way that I can learn of Him is to study Him.

Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

Matthew 11:29 NASB

Say if I was dating or interested in someone I would study them, find out what they like, what they don’t like. Learn through trial and error what makes them smile or laugh or what tickes them off. I have to be just so with God through His word. He is to be our first love.

The more I learn of Him, I am learning Gods character, His love, His voice, His way with me as it is my personal relationship with God. This helps me take on His yoke that is easy with lighter burdens, because He would have showed me how to handle it.

The more and more this is implemtented the more I find rest in my soul. Handling things on my own is messy, chaotic and frustrating. His way just sound way better. Sometimes too good to be true but with time and effort I see possible and my Pastor Juanita Gibbs is that example before me of this very concept.

So, may we all progress in the faith by pulling more and more from the Word of God to aide in resting our souls.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith Rests

This is a rest not from outer workings!

It wasn’t until I came to Reformation Developmental Center Pastored by Juanita Gibbs that it was finally enlightened to me that I wad doing alot of work inwardly.

My soul (mind, will and emotions) were a busy metropolis inside my being. How do I know this right?

Well, I have been for the most part consumed with doubt, unbelief, fear, worry, anxiety which opened the door for depression, paranoia, panic attackes and much negativity.

My every word spoken was doubt filled, negative ridden laced with depressive unbelief and thus creatung the life I was living. When Pastor opened up this verse below I wanted to know some of that rest that was made available for me.

For the one who has entered His rest has himself also rested from his works, as God did from His.
Hebrews 4:10 NASB

I have had to learn to become aware when I am worrysome, anxious, fearfilled etc and its hard most times. I can catch myself other times it runs on autopilot so strong that its not until depression hits me that I am like oh I have not been aware of myself.

Other times its so strong I don’t see it, but my Pastor can pick up on it and she lets me know I have been in her spirit to pray for me.

Then she just talks to me to help me flush out whats I have going on inside to release and cast and pray and get deliveres and set free slowly. I am greatful for her leadership in my life its been a life changer for me.

The only way to rest is to pull on the word that says rest, learn to calm my soul and make it submit to the word and allow the spirit to lead, guide and be at work for me in ways that I cannot work.

Its a journey and a process like Pastor tells me. I have to be patient with myself and with God as I cannot get it in one day or two days this will be a journey for the rest of my life. This rest activates faith and allows God to move in ways that my work had hindered. God rests while we work, He works while we rest.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith: For the Victory Is Won!

Christ died so that Victory could be ours!

We can enter an inner rest in knowing that the victory was made available at the cross. This is part of the finished work on Calvary. When Jesus said “It is finished” he gave us access to victory in many areas because of His sacrifice.

Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors and gain an overwhelming victory through Him who loved us [so much that He died for us].
ROMANS 8:37 AMP

Of course resting inwardly doesn’t mean we don’t do anything. It means that we won’t worry, stress, panic, be afraid of how God will answer us in the battle.

Believe me I am all to familiar with worry, stress, anxiety and panic so much so that it can if I am not careful run on autopilot. It has taken time to become aware of myself, as I have a tendancy to not see myself at times. It takes me stopping and looking at me to see whats goin on to catch it before I have a panic attack, stress induced anxiety, and even depression.

For the time I have come to Reformation Developmental Center that is Pastored by Juanita Gibbs she has taught the importance of being in the word and having a word life. Just last night in our tele-class she referred to James 1:22-23 and other supporting verses about being not only a hearer of the word but a doer of the word.

The more I become a doer and practicer of the word as she brought forth in the lesson we abide in God. She referred to John 15:1-7 that as we abide in Him we can ask anything and it be done. But abiding in Him takes the work to practice walking out his word in my life.

The more I do this from what Pastor has brought the more I tap into the victory made available at the cross. So its a resting work that I have to do to see things change around me. Resting on a sense of being at peace within while working to have my soul submit more to the spirits lead of my life and as she spoke last night this happens little by little.

Lets begin to win little by little by making changes!

~Cynthia 😍

Faith in What God Will Do!

God is not a man that should lie!

How do we know and trust the victory that is available without a personal relationship with God?

In reality we cannot, our victory would come from our own strength and works, which God gets no glory for.

Through God we will have victory… Psalm 60:12a AMP

When we lean on God through His word and trust in the personal relationship that we have with Him we will have victory through Him.

I have had to have torn down wrong beliefs that didn’t line up with the word of God. My wrong beliefs brought about fear,worry, anxiety, depression and more, they had to go!

The things that they manifested will not bring God any glory as they were not blessed goodness manifestations.

They have been bad manifestations as they was nothing good about them as the negativity in me produced thus negative life.

It has been since the anointing came into my life through Pastor Juanita Gibbs that they came down with truth she presented.

Since they came down new has to go up in its place as to the soul will search for something to fill the void. The void has been having construction of the word of God to build new and better in my soul.

In doing this, victory through God is possible as I have been learning to lean on God over myself and my wrong patterns of old. This has helped build faith in what can and will do in my life the more and more I lean on Him.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith In God’s Abiding Victory!

Victory was made available at the cross!

Pastor Juanita Gibbs at Reformation Developmental Center uses this verse often in the teachings we receive. So, that is where I have become most acquainted with this verse of scripture you see below.

I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace. In the world you have tribulation and distress and suffering, but be courageous [be confident, be undaunted, be filled with joy]; I have overcome the world.” [My conquest is accomplished, My victory abiding.]
JOHN 16:33 AMP

The finished works of the cross has already given us a victory we can tap into and learn to abide in. He proclaims that He has told us these things so that we may have perfect peace. That peace can only come from His finished work by pulling from it.

At salvation it was planted in our spirits in seed form. Tribulations come and as we read in James 1 they come to test our faith.

The testing of our faith produces things in our life that help grow us and establish us in Him better. Without it we are moved and tossed by trials and triblation and every wind and doctrine until we are firmly anchored correctly.

Well, that has been the case for me I can say. I was in a place where if we are believers we should be exempted from suffering as we have Jesus in our life. If we are enduring any hardship we have sinned greatly.

At another time in my faith journey if we were enduring hardships and trials a prophetic word was all that was needed to see you through it.

When it boiled down to it. I still had great problems holding on to prophetic words or even repenting at every turn thinking I had done something so transgressing it brought this on.

Little did I realize also, that I myself was the cause of alot of my hardships. Being a great worrier, full of anxiety, depression, fear, panic, paranoia that my soul manifested around me the reality that my inner lived in.

Pastor has had to go in with precision like a surgical construction worker to tear down strongholds that had set up in my soul to then get proper Godly and truth strong holds to begin to be built. She has labored with me helping cultivate and get me in alignment for what my life is suppose to be for Gods glory.

It has been a turning and allowing the old to die off and inplant the good of the truth of the word to begin to tap into the abiding victory.

It has begun shown itself out in my life it has manifested better transportation which was desperatley needed. The anointing of God on Pastors life and her taking me under wing has shown the power of proper connection and the need for a personal relationship with God.

That personal relationship with God through His word in prayer, meditation, worship and study has helped me move into a place of learning to dwell in that victory. Am I perfect in it? No! It is a slow move on process of unpacking and setteling that is taking place.

~Cynthia 😍

Faith For Miracles

He is the God of miracles!

Faith in God will produce miracles great and small in our lives. He is the God of all and He can do all things!

God has been dealing with me about my unbelief by bringing me to a place to praise Him and give Him thanks in everything. This shows my need for Him and my growing trust in Him.

For me, my unbelief had many branches that contributed to it like doubt, worry, anxiety, fear, and depression that collided within my soul to build a stronghold.

But Jesus, overhearing what was being spoken, said to the synagogue official, “Do not be afraid any longer, only believe.”
Mark 5:36 NASB

It takes huge doses of the word of God and an anointed leader like I have in Pastor Juanita Gibbs to bring those strongholds down within my soul. The old has to be torn down before new and good can be built.

The anointing on Pastors life is what destroys the wrong stronghold. It is then up to me to put in new of the Word of God she has given me to study and root deep within my soul.

It is this and only this way that can produce miracles. How so right? By thinking in my old way it didn’t produce miracles. Its by changing my thoughts that then effect my heart condition to then change the way I talk thus creating the life I lead.

It is a work and not just a part time work it is to be a fully committed job to see change. No one else can do it for you and its not magic, work has to be done. Faith without works is dead. Let’s do the work to allow space for God to move and produce miraculous things in our life.

~Cynthia 😍

Have Faith God Is With You

He is constant in our lives!

Building trust and confidence in God first requires me to know Him on a personal level. I have to get to know Him at His word, get to know His voice, get to know His faithfulness, love, grace, and mercy toward me and others.

That has been a journey that I am still very much on. But, I am making strides to be along that path better. My human nature and how I am build with my temperments tend to rely on logic and then emotion engages and it can either be good or bad depending on whether my logic is from my carnal mind or from direct revelation from God.

To be carnally minded is death as to why it can lead to bad. Now if it is based off of true revelation from God then it can be good. But I have to capture those things and find out which is which.

So, the more I inplant in my soul (mind,will and emotions) the truth from the word of God, the more growth I can have in faith and being confident in God and taking Him at His word.

The Lord is the one who goes ahead of you; He will be with you. He will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”
Deuteronomy 31:8 NASB

God went ahead of us in this day and age as we live post crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus to prepare us the way to have that close relationship with Him. He then sent the comforter in the Holy Spirit to be with us and show His faithfulness to us.

So when fear tries to come and grip me I have to pull from the spirit of God for His word told me He didn’t give me a spirit of fear, but one of power, love and a sound mind. Believe me more often then not fear in some form tries to grip and paralyze me. It comes in depression, worry, anxiety, stress, out right fear of something.

It has been in the teaching I am getting at Reformation Developmental Center that is Pastored by Juanita Gibbs that has helped me begin to have an awareness of those things so I can combat them and trust that God is with me.

This has been a journey and a process to lean of God and not my understanding and trust what He is doing in my life. To bring about maturity and completeness in Him.

Enjoy this song below 🙂

~Cynthia 😍